God's Dream for a Child

I was study the first 25 verses of Genesis for my Bible study this week and those 25 verses hit me in a way they never did before. For the first 6 days, He knew what He wanted and it was good. He made the sky, land, sun, moon, plants, and animals. He saved the best for last of course, humans or He thought He did. He did everything in a order too, which is important in our lives. We have to see what God wants, sperpate sin from God, and then plant those seeds so God can let them grow and produce more or something along those lines. God used the Sun, moon, and stars to light the way. To me, that is like The Father, Son, and Holdy Spirit. Then I got to thinking about the Garden of Eden and what Eve did there. Everything in the garden was good she had all she needed but she had a free choice. Look at it from a child's point of view. When a child is born, that child is innocence no matter what world they come into. God made each of us for a purpose so on that child's heart there is a dream from God. As children, we always dream to do something big and go other places but as we grow up we have more free choice and we tend to sin because that is the world we live in. A sinful world. I'm thinking about this because of where I am in life right now. Growing up since I could remember I wanted to do two things: be a teacher and travel the world. I remember thinking when my brother traveled all of the world or so I thought when I was little I would love to do that and be just like him. We would write letters back and forth. He would send me things from the countries he was in. I miss those days to be honest and just a moment to be a little sister. I never felt like I fit in anywhere my family would move to espically in high school. That was the worst but now I know God was preparing me to have that feeling and be okay with it in another country. God had other plans first for me and I had to change some of the "little" things like my college degree from elementary ed to FACS: Child Development. The college I wanted to go to which glad I did. I'm starting to see why He had me do that though now. It is up to us and the free choice we have to pick God's way or the highway. I've noticed lately I've been picking the highway until this job I have now. I have been off roading. Yes, I did just say that. God can lead us in the way He wants us to go but we have to be willing to go with Him not take some country back road. I was put on this earth for a purpose and so were each of us. I have to remember that so many times because lets just say I wouldn't be here if it was for God wanting me here. What I'm saying through all of this is God puts a dream in our hearts when we are children and it is our choice to follow Him so He can take us to that dream. We could be like Eve and pick the sin in our lives or we could pick God. We are humans and God gave us choices hoping we would pick Him. He could use us to bring the world back to how He first planned it before Eve. Yes, we do sin that is just our nature and we can't hear God clearly as they could in the garden before the bite of the apple but we need to try with the people and things around us. I'm just seeing for me that that dream I had as a child was from God because He is doing everything He is now to get me that and I'm listening this time. I challenge you to think back on the dream you had as a child and are you really doing it. If not is it something reasonable that maybe you could ask God about doing for you. I've always had a heart for missions, other nations and cultures but til I moved here to the home of Wal-Mart I never knew how strong that feeling really was plus feelings for abused and nelegted children. I lived around them for most of my life but never saw it until now. God has a purpose for everything we just have to look and listen for it.

Homeless is not a word a child should know

Homeless is not a word a child should know. A 5 year old child should not say, "I'm tired of being homeless." Just broke my heart. This child is the sweetest thing yet but yet she has been moved from place to place whether family or different shelters. For those of who you know me and my heart, I couldn't help think of the other 500,000 children in Guatemala that are really homeless. This child has no idea what they have but they shouldn't have nothing at this age. They should have everything they have ever wanted. Ok, maybe not everything they have wanted but close to it. They should have parents that love them and a home to live in. They should not be calling themselves homeless. They shouldn't even know that word or what it means. If this child thinks they're homeless and if I think they are homeless which I don't think they are because I know what happens. Makes me think what goes on in the childrens' head in Guatemala or other poor countries. Do they know better or is it just life for them? Makes me think of a little girl I helped princessed all up on a mission trip to Mexico in a dump. Her parents "worked" there. The child in the States should not know what homeless is. This is a heart that is caring but still. It gets me because after that comment this child said, "You have blonde hair like the other girl but yet your face is different. That's ok because God made you that way." How? What goes on in their brains? How can you go from one end of the scale (homeless) to another (God)? Those words just shot (not using that word lightly at all) at my heart tonight. For some reason, I've seen and heard some bad things but this hits me more then any of those. It could also be because the child is smart and can talk clearly and on and on so she is not scared to share and you can understand this child. The things we take for granted and so much. The child asked me where I slept because the child thought I stayed there all night and I felt bad telling the child I go home to go to sleep so I told the child in my bed and then they made me say home but I felt so bad. Life is not about the things we have it is about the people we BLESS AND TOUCH along the way. I want to bless people and not hurt them because in my line of work they have been hurt enough. Not that I would but just saying. After a year of working here, I bet next summer in Guatemala won't be the same. I won't have the same thoughts and I won't want to come back and if I do something is wrong with me. I will be more amazed if I do come back right away. Just sayin'. I would love to do two years at least with my job but I don't know what God is calling me to do or what He has planned down the road. It is always a surpise with Him.

Watch this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak&sns=fb. It is a song by Carrie Underwood (country singer) but it really hits home for me right now and I thought about it when the child said what they said.

Purple Robe of Love for Children

Purple Robe of Love for Children

When you think of the color purple,

Do you think royalty? Do you think

That it might have been the color

Of the robe that Jesus had on before

Going to the cross? Would it be wrong

To call that robe “Love?”

The father put his robe on his lost son

That came back. He did that to show him

Love and that he was welcomed back in

The family no matter what he did. He

Didn’t keep it to himself because his son

Didn’t deserve it. Yet what are we doing?

Are we doing just that? Keeping that robe

To ourselves?

If we would to put the purple robe on

Children, what would that make them?

If we showed them God’s Amazing Love,

It would give them Hope. It would also

Give them Love and Trust. It would also

Give them the confidence to grow stronger

For God. They could believe in a Father who

Loves them too death.

They could become kings and queens for

Kingdom and their country or home. They

Could feel loved because they know someone

Died for them that He loved them that much.

Jesus gave us His purple robe when we were

Adopted in the Family of God so why are we

Keeping it and not sharing it?

We need to be out there hunting out the

Children and wrapping them in that same

Purple robe of royalty. It’s not ours to

Keep, but God’s to give away. God just

Trust that we will give it away. We might

Have to go to the ends of the earth but it

Would be worth it seeing that one smile

On that little child’s face. What are you

Going to do with your purple robe?

Keep it or make a king or queen out of

It?

Written by: Tiffney Wilson

Verses used: Luke 15:1-3, 11-32

Jan. 2013

Guatemalan Teddy Bears for Children

         This is going to be a fast one because I've been sick all weekend and still am so if it doesn't make sense, I'm sorry. For those of who you know me, Guatemala has been on my heart since last summer and has never stopped being on my heart. The children there are beautiful and adorable. Just looking into their eyes you can tell their stories almost or want to get to know their stories. Every child has a story to tell. I would like to go next summer, if God is willing, and stay longer after that or another time whenever God wants me to or go with another group and stay longer. I have a way that I could raise money and get my mind off of things from work over the weekends and weekdays when I'm home. It is to make yo-yo teddy bears for the children. It's a dream of mine.
           Yo-yoing is a type of sewing that you do. You can make anything out of them like blankets, any animals, hair things (headbands, clips, which I might do too), attach them to boring pillows, and more. I would make the body of the bear out of the yo-yos and then sew the head, hands, and feet together just like a normal teddy bear. I would use bright colors and patterns just like the Guatemalans do in their art and sewing. Yo-yo sewing is coming back. It use to be a old kind of sewing but it is coming back. It can come in many different shapes like hearts but I would only use circles. They have patterns where you can make the yo-yos know instead of doing it by hand.
           I don't know how I'm going to sell them. I guess it depends on what I'm selling them for. I can either sell them for this coming summer or go on a trip with someone else or both. I could also sell them to where parents buy them for their children or just for the children of Guatemala. Pay this much and that will give so many bears to so many children or again I can do both. It just depends on how many I can get made or make at a time. The hair things are easy and those will probably be cheaper then the bears if I decide to do them too.
             I could also have people buy the fabric before I make the bear if it was just going to be for the Guatemalan children. I would be like it costs this much for this much fabric to make one bear. Would you donate enough money to buy enough fabric to make one or two bears and so on. I could also have parties where people would come over to my apartment and help me sew some yo-yos and bear parts. The more I type out the plan the more I like it and that is how I can decompress myself from a hard day or week from week. You have to get so thought in on how to make a yo-yo that hours can go by and if I have a goal like this it would really get me going. The yo-yo sewing also seems like a type of sewing that would go over well in Guatemala. It seems like that kind of style. Out of the ordinary but neat at the same time when you make the right things with it. It is also very different and not very many people do it or know about it here in the States. It is kind of "old" in the States but yet so easy and neat looking, I think.
             I've always wanted to start something like this for another country. Make something that helps them and what better way to help their children then to give them a teddy bear. I came up with this idea one night at work when a little girl left her teddy bear behind and I knew how important it was to her. A teddy bear can give a child comfort, be someone to talk to, get your madness out on, or most importantly to these children, be a friend that is there with you all the time when no one else really is.
             If you would like to be a part of this like help with the sewing if I ever get it started, to donate money to buy the fabric, or have questions to ask me, please leave a comment on here or Facebook (private) message me if I'm your friend on Facebook. This is a dream and a goal I would love to get started and who knows the first few might go to some of the preschool children at my job. Let's say maybe the first 5 or 10 teddy bears. I have to ask if I can do that first but it is an idea. If I have to get people involved that way in their home state first then I will try it that way and then expand outwards.

Greater Plans

Greater Plans

Inspired by: Matthew 6:12, Luke 12:34, and a friend

We might be down and in

The dumps sometimes but

We have to remember one

Important thing. God has a

Greater plan for us.

We might be going through

Thick and thin. God has a

Greater plan for us. He is just

Using those hard times to make

Us stronger and wiser.

We might be thinking, what is

Our Greater Plan here on earth.

That way of thinking is selfish

Though. It’s not about what we

Gain while on this earth. It’s more

About spiritual gain. God grows us

Spiritually so we can work for Him

More.

Our treasures are not here where

Moths can destroy it. It’s in

Heaven with God. We might think

That we are getting ready for

Something greater here but on

Earth. What God is really doing is

Getting us ready for his Greater

Plan for the whole earth.

We might feel like we are a part of

A little part of a little something

Now. Even if it was greater then the

Last, but that is little compared to

God’s Greater Plan for everyone.

We are part of that something

Greater even if we don’t know it

Yet.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: Jan. 2013

It Can Always Be Worse

         It strange how God works some converations out for us to be reminded of things or to learn new things. For me, it never seems to fail with this friend of mine and every time we take the time to talk. I haven't talked to this friend for awhile because of the busyness of life for the both of us but I got to talk to them Sunday and it was just strange but a blessing at the same time. They gave me a phase to think about during my week at work. It also helps if your friend knows kind of what you are going through at work if anything.
          I need to start a page or another blog where it is just points to ponder from this friend but I won't do that because it might embrass the friend. :) The point this friend gave me this week was "that it could always be worse" and that hit me home because of where I work. Here I was saying that I was "stuck" here instead of traveling when I have a choice to be stuck where I am and the children around me don't because they are innocence in everything they do. I should be thankful for the job I have now. It is truely what I want just not out of the states but that will come soon in God's Timing.
          Just knowing too that the friend it came from has seen more things then me and grew up in a way different culture then I could ever dream of growing up in. When someone like that can say it can be worse, then you better believe it because they know. We need to be thankful for what we have and I knew that and I am. I couldn't ask for a better life right now but sometimes as humans we forget to be thankful for the little things. Ok, we forget a lot. The reminder came at the perfect timing too.
            It was after I saw something that I shouldn't have and just being reminded that I'm there to make a difference in the children's lives. That child has came from a worse place then I did as a child so why complain. Why can't I just be there for that child and enjoy the moment I have with them and make it the best moments in their lives because who knows where they might end up. After starting a new Bible study about loving the nations around us, great reminder when I go out around me and try to relate to different people. I love how God just takes the right people and words at the right time to open my eyes to so many things at the same time. This also helps along my missionary thinking. Just think that "it can be worse then where you are "stuck" now in a lot of different ways" if you have what you think is a bad day or week.

Hearing God is a Reality Check

           I'm finilly updating about my life for those of you who read this. God has been working in it and lately I have felt like it has just been Him and me plus my kiddos. A lot has happened in the past month. Things I'm proud of and things I want to change. Just these past two weeks God gave me a reality check for my life. I feel lost and confused right now but isn't that where we need to be so we can depend on God to use us. I'm learning that God has a big sense of humor with everything. Not this last week but the week before I locked my keys in my car at work and that was a mess. I had to sit outside by my car and wait for someone to come unlock it and I can't really tell you all the thoughts that I had in my mind or that happened but God has his ways of getting things done. Then that same week that I locked my keys in my car, my science boy came back, which is sad in a way but glad to see him again. You have mixed feelings when you work at a place like I do. Sad and glad both in the same day espically if the children leave earlier then they are suppose to. It's a good thing but you never know so you have to spend everyday as if it was their last day there. That should say a lot about our own lives because God never gives us tommrow.
             If that wasn't enough 3 of my favorite kiddos left in a row this week. One of the little girls said, "I'll miss you" to me. It is hard to hear that but then again I know that I made a difference, hopefully, in her life. Then this Tuesday I met with a women from church about a Bible study that was starting on Weds. called "Loving the Nations Around Us" so I went to that Bible study Weds. morning and it is want I need to learn how to talk to other people from other countries and really get involved in their lives whether we are just friends. That made me think about my FACS major and how I am using and really should use it and it came to me, "why not help the whole family not just the children?" I do know how to do a little of everything (aka cook, sew, clean, how to be healthy, raise and teach children, etc.) so my mind started on that path. That maybe God is using this study to help show me I can do it but children is my connection to the parents. Then all this is going on and I wasn't going and had not cried yet and wasn't going to until Saturday but it all fell apart Friday night. Let's just say that all months and weeks before I knew the singles group from my church was having a worship gathering Friday night and I wanted to go so bad but God had other plans for me to be a work and I got His Point.
               There was a little girl that just needed me to sit and hug her because she was scared to go to sleep for many different reasons. I mean there would be times she would hold on tight to me. She would not lay in bed for quite sometime. I would ask and she wouldn't go. It was one of those hugs I can still feel. In a way it was a reality check for me to see how mean and sinful the world really is to these innocence little children and for no reason at all. My job is hard at times but it is so rewarding. I wouldn't trade it for anything else. Yeah, I have to give up scrifices with friends and time but it's worth it in my heart. I know I'll miss the bonfire with my friends next month because it is on a Friday night too but it is worth it because God has something better for me. I was also feeling left out of the little groups that they have now and are starting back up but you know what none of them fit me really. I'm doing my ministry where I am. It's great to have community around you to support you but you need the same type interests of the people around you to support you in the same thing.
                In different ways, I feel like I don't belong but yet I like it that way because I can focus on what really matters. That is how it is suppose to feel like like we don't belong here on the earth. I never felt that way yet about anywhere that I have ever lived in my life or gone on trips to expect Guatemala but I will be there and stay there in God's Timing and for God's Timing. I love children, to travel, and the nations. That's has always been my heart since I can remember because I grew up around that and the people I looked up to did those things. They did it differently but they did it. I might not have people that agree or see things the way I do yet around me but God is bringing them to me in His time. I wasn't meant to stay in one spot forever unless it is a forgin country I have a feeling but we'll see what God has planned when it is time. That's my life in a big nutshell right now. A lot has been going on so sorry if I haven't been active or talkative lately to the friends I do see. Now you know why.

Little Girl, You're Beautiful

Little Girl, You’re Beautiful

Little girl, you’re beautiful.

So full of innocence and

Beauty. Beautiful on the inside

And the outside. In your mind,

You’re so confused. What is

Happening? Why do I feel this

Way? I’m suppose to be beautiful

But I don’t feel like it.

Little girl, your eyes spakle like

Wheat. Those eyes that as seen

Nothing but bad. Yet when you

Look in them there is so much

Hidden inside. Wonder fills your

Eyes.

Little girl, your hugs are so tight.

They make my day when I need

It made. They are something that

I won’t forget. They are how you

Hold on for dear life. I would hold

You for hours, if I could, safely in

My arms. I wouldn’t let you go if

I had a choice.

Little girl, you’re so smart. You

Have been through a lot already.

More then you should have been

Through. You are trying to make

Sense of it and trying to figure

Out why. You will know why soon

Enough and can share it with

Others. You will change people’s

Lives. You have already changed

Mine.

Little girl, don’t ever forget about

There are people out there who

Loves you for who you are. Most

Importantly though, there is a God

Who loves you more then any person

Ever can and will. He made you

Beautiful and innocence in His eyes.

He loves you no matter what has

Happened to you. You are His

Princess and you will be forever.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: Sept. 13th, 2013

The Heart

Sorry it is another poem. That is all I have time for right now and I want to keep you all interested in my blog. Please keep looking because God has been moving in my life so much these past few days and I want to write about them by Saturday night. I'm just amazed at how He has put things in my path and taught me things when I will turn to Him whether doing things or personal, deep things I need to change about myself or just learn for the future. 

The Heart

The heart is a very fragile, yet

Confusing thing. It speaks with

Words that we don’t understand.

It’s the place where everything is

Hidden but it shouldn’t be. The

Heart should be God’s throne.  It

Should be a place for the good things

In life but isn’t. We hide things in there.

It is full of other things. Things we don’t

Want other people to see about us. Deep

Things that we are scared to share about

Ourselves. We think no one can see in there

Or cares about what is in there but God

Does. He will clean it out if we are truthful

To Him and ourselves. Our hearts can be of

The world real quick but God wants us to

Give it to Him to take care of.

There are times and seasons where it

Needs to be cleaned out completely

Because we have let stuff in that shouldn’t

Be in there in the first place. We think we

Have to clean it out by ourselves but we

Don’t have to. When we ask God and let

God know what is really going on in there

He will take control and clean it out for us.

It might be hard to let Him take control

But it is worth it.  We will have to start

Over and that is hard but God is in there

Guiding you.

Once we let God in to our heart, we don’t

Have to be scared to share the deep stuff

With other people. We need to share what

Is deep down because that helps us get to

Know people better and it helps people

Get to know God better if He is in there.

It might be some work to get past all the

Hard things and we might need to dig

And that takes time and hard work

Especially when there has been rocks and

Walls around it for years. We can’t just

Give up on people.  We need to love them

The way God loves them and that is

Unconditionally.

God knows everything in out hearts.

There is a season and time that He

Knows to let things show when they

Should. God is the only one that will

Know all of the heart because He lives

In it. He fills it with His Love for others

So we can show it to them. Once God

Cleans the heart out there is more

Room to love more people. God is

Always working on the heart of a person

Because he always wants us to love

People like He does and that will take a

Lifetime to learn.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: September 8^th, 2013

Guatemala

Guatemala

As I was riding up the mountain

To my place of destination on
the bumpy, brick roads, I was looking out

The window and thinking, “What

Am I getting myself into?” Looking

At all the small concrete buildings, people

Walking on the streets, and the

Closeness of the buildings.  It just seemed

Like it was just put there without a plan.

I got to my destination up in mountains

And I was blessed, beyond belief, to have

What I did. The mountains were so pretty.

The house and orphanage were great too.

After a few days, how I longed to be back in

The city that I passed so I could see the real city

And understand their life.

I spent days playing with the Guatemalan

Children both boys and girls. I even went

Into their rooms and thought, “This is

What an orphanage looks like. So small

And tight in area.” It has always been my

Dream to go visit at least one.

I loved every minute of it. The little children

Had a play area that was gated where we

Could watch them play. I remember sitting a boy

On my lap and just help him as he watched his

Other friends play and jump rope. I knew he

Just wanted to feel loved from someone and that

Someone was me.

I saw children play with ships and trucks like

Children here in the states do. It made me

Think, “Children all around the world are the

Same.” I’ve been taught that but never really

Saw it. I went into the

 One afternoon I had a little boy fall asleep

On me during craft time. It was the sweetest

Sight you ever did see. I carried him back to

His room and laid him in his bed. I felt like I

Was putting one of my nephews to bed. He

Looked so peaceful.

I got to see a little bit more of Guatemala

Because I went to another city, on our second to

Last day, near by and it was

One of the old fashioned ones. It was

Surrounded by beautiful mountains

And volcanoes.  The clouds even covered

The tops of the volcanoes. That was a

Pretty sight to see. The streets were made

Of bricks.  There were a lot of 

People walking around selling things and

Painters painting on the sidewalks. There

was a beautiful garden in the middle of it.

I got up on top of a building

and just looked out across the city and it

looked so peaceful, breathtaking, and

beautiful. I didn’t want to go back down but

I had to go. I could have stayed there forever!

Before we left, I went to a worship service

And it was so neat. The children were dancing

And singing like God was the only one watching.

It was amazing to see! They weren’t dressed up

Or had the equipment that we have. They just 

Worshipped God because they truly knew

What He had done for them and that is the

Real reason we should worship. It was so

Neat and different hearing them sing in

Spanish too.

As I was riding back down the mountain on

That bumpy, brick road, there was no

doubt in my mind that God

Wanted me to go back there to help the

Children on the streets and in the

Orphanages. I’m just waiting for His

Prefect Timing.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

October 2012

The Legacy Prayer-1st Written Form

             Sorry about the title it is the best that I can come up with right now. Sorry, also, that I haven't been writing in awhile. I have been wanting to but so much going on and to think about so I could write on here. I've had a strange and hard week this week. I will tell more about it later but God has really been growing me and making me see things. I want to write a prayer about the things I have been learning from Him lately because they are good things to keep praying for everyday. I want it to be like "The Serenity Prayer" but for now the title is all I could come up with. Here it is in it 1st form:

          Daddy,

                You love me, you care about me, and You are calling me. Calling me by asking the questions: Have you talked to Me lately about that?, What am I saying to you about this? By asking those questions You are making a clean heart in me, O God. Renew a right spirit within me. You are not wanting me to conform to this world but to be an appearance of You to this world I'm living in. You are making me see the sins in my own life and all the old things and people I need to get rid of and start anew. I have fought against You long enough but who can blame me for I was born a sinner. You have given me great chances to go live life in every way, shape, and form. I have fought against you night and day. Struggling with my sins, not knowing or wanting to go the way You have for me. Make me start to take root in the lives of people starting with my friends so they know I truly care. Scared to go that way but I shouldn't be because You will be with me. You desire honesty from my heart so You can teach me to be wise in my inmost being. I want to be wise for You. I want to use the wisdom You have given me in everything going on in my life. You have broken me to a million pieces, now let me rejoice again. Restore to me again the joy of Your Salvation, which You have made that clear. Your salvation is everything in my life. My life should depend on it. You would not have died for me if you didn't care for me as much as you do. You showed me how I should love others. Make me willing to obey You. I want to teach Your Ways to people so that they can return to You. Shape a Genesis week within me from the mess and sins in my life. Make my life perfect in You and to bring You Glory, not the other way around.  It has been hard for me because I have never wanted to or could take root in people's lives. I didn't know how but I'm learning now and I want to. You wanted me to come to You with a broken and repentant heart so I know how it truly felt to depend on You. I want to know them for them. I want to listen and not talk about myself. I got so full of myself. Don't know how but I did and was starting to push people away and I don't want that. It is interesting to get to know people and their stories. Make me fully devoted to you first and then to people second and then to me last if I should be devoted to myself at all. I humble myself before You know and just want to know people and tell people about You.  Daddy, I love You and thank you for loving me so much that You gave up Your Son for me.

               In Christ's Love,
                      Amen

Some ideas used from Psalm 51. It describes my life perfectly right now in a strange way. Not so much drama on the outside but on the inside that is how I have felt lately. I know I'm sharing a lot but I just think this is something that needs to be shared because not a lot of people do it these days.

Have You Talked to God About It?

Have You Talked to God About It?

Inspired By: a friend

Have you talked to God about

Your future. Have you ever

Wanted an answer now but

Didn’t get it? You would stop

Talking about it to Him because

It took too long?

We are in a world where we

Want it now or never. We want

Progress now but God doesn’t

Do things our way. He waits for

The perfect timing.

I think it is good that we talk to

God about things. See what He

Has to say about them or my life.

See where He wants me now.

I found out we could be talking to

God for a year or more. He could

Be showing us little things along

The way. We just have to keep out

Eyes open.

We could even go back and forth on

The subject. We could even forget for

Sometime but God is still working. He

Is working out the desires of our hearts.

If it is truly a desire then He will never

Put a stop to in.

We can talk to God about anything.

From our day to our future. Have you

Talk to God about it?

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: August 31, 2013