Writing a book and then Guatemala

          I've been thinking a lot about my future and all but again when don't I? I know God has shown me a clear path and a for sure path until I'm 30 at the least. I do want to go back to Guatemala and always have since last summer. I have been talking to God about it off and on since then. The things that was holding me back was of course the country and how the people were once you get outside of the shelter or city and other was how could I raise money for long term.
           I'm a person who love to writes poems and "devos." just in case you couldn't tell on here. That is why I started this to share my thoughts like that but then I thought this week way not a real book. I have enough poems to do a least one. I've been talking to an author friend and she says to keep this up for 6 months to a year to get an audience started and then we'll see what is next. She also says it takes 2 years to get a book published at the least. It was strange because God brought the title of my book to me this week and it has been with me all along and how it fits for the what I would be fundraising it for is strange.
           The title would be the title of this blog because Jesus is calling me to Guatemala or to another country. Then I thought of what poems will be first and I thought of the one that has the title in it which is already on here. I'll write short one about Guatemala, might even use the one I put on here in April or May about it, and then one where the title will be "Have you talked to God about it?"  There are my first three poems in my book titled, "Jesus Loves, Jesus Cares, and Jesus is Calling You."
             Then I got to thinking how really strange it is that I started this blog 2 years from when a friend of my started their TV show/youtube videos but a month later. My friend started in March and I started in April. Now it is strange that I'm thinking about this when my friend's show is going National in Oct of this year. I really want to get my book started soon so there will be more poems on here then there has been lately and please look at them and like them. It just seems like God is showing me the path He wants me to go down now.
              It is also strange with everything that is going on in Guatemala and just thinking about being part of that big change in 2 or 3 years is I think what is pushing me. I've always wanted to be a part of something big even it I'm doing a little thing and here is my chance. I get to be in a country where God is becoming the Lord of. It is a start of history and I love history and would love to be a part of it and see what goes on. It is like God is saying to me, "Ok, Tiffney now it's time to go and make a change even in the smallest way. I know you love history and what to make a difference so here is your chance."
              What better way to change the history and see history being made then changing the hearts of the children in Guatemala for Christ so that they can be Christ-followers and leaders at the same time? To change a genenation and the future forever for Christ. There is no better way to do that. I'm not saying that it will be easy or that I will get there in 2 years but I'm saying I will try and whenever I get that that is when God wants me there. It would even be neat if I could get the book published in Spanish because some of my poem ideas are based on verses from the Bible. You will see how as I put them up on here.

God is Bigger then the Boogyman

        Not what went through my head when I was talking to my kiddos at work tonight but something near that did go through my head. We were are sitting down watching a movie before bed and the boy that has a lot of disbabilites out of them all said something that shocked me. One child asked me, "Who was that guy on the movie?" We were watching Mulan 2 and the king came out. I said, "He is sort of the king."
         Then the little boy said, "He is up there" and I was like, "You mean on the TV?" and he was like, "No, God is up there!" and it seems like this boy said it randomly out of nowhere. Then that got one of the little girls talking about how big God really is. She said, "God is bigger then me." I responded back, "He is even bigger then me" and that seemed to surpise her and she couldn't get it. It was just neat trying to see someone get it and a little child at that but couldn't. It is just a reminder of how even as adults we will never get how big God really is until we see Him.
            I was also thinking while I was talking back and forth to these children about a lesson my community small group went through less then a year ago. It was actually the last full one that I went through with my group. It was about how God made the earth and space and how big He really is. That study called us, human brings, just a dot in space and it is true. Adults might look big and scary to children but yet there is someone greater and bigger then us, adults. Just think how big God would look to a child if we are big to them. They have a better view of who God really is then we do.
          Then while that was happening another God thing was happening. One of my little boys was "teaching" one of the little girls how to pray. It was cute because the little girl was repeating the words the little boy would say. I was thinking how easy does that look and is for children but then as adults it is hard. We should be able to tell someone about Christ or even pray with them like this little boy did. It was the simple prayer "God is Great, God is Good. Amen" or that is what I heard at least. God knew I needed that dose of Him tonight like that because He sure gave it to me. I'm glad He did too. Those moments just made my night.

Music video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-zJHgaoVa4

My Heart for Guatemala

If any of my friends read this you know what I'm talking about and God just made it clearer to me that I should have that country on my heart and be there long term but don't know when yet. That I truly believe. I just read on a blog that is written by people I know at an orphanage there that the president as declare God the country's Lord at the 1st national prayer meeting.
            Along with this news, "Molina also spoke about his reliance on God as his strength and noted that violence is one of Guatemala's growing issues as crime continues to increase due to extreme poverty, a legacy of societal violence, and a weak law enforcement and judicial system. "In the morning, it's hard see the news of how many Guatemalans died the day before because of violence," said Molina. "In those moments what gives me strength is knowing that I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Guatemalan congressman Manuel Barquín, who attended the breakfast, said he will begin initiatives to declare August 22 as the official day of prayer for peace."
            I love how he is depending on Phil. 3:14 to get him through the biggest problems and it's true. He has a mess before him because that country as had a hard history but with prayer and sending people there there is no doubt in my mind that that country could change for the better and I hope it will for their children's and future sake if anything. I would love to be a part of that change somehow for some length of time. In a way, it would be neat and an adventure to leave in a country that is turning around and changing for the better, hopefully. Guatemala is on my heart and I will be going back there for longer term someday there is not a doubt in my mind. It takes a long time for a country to change from one thing to another so God will send me there at the right and safe time, I do believe that. Until then, though, that country is on my heart and in my prayers for sure. I will also try and keep track of the progress they are making in that way.
            A friend asked me in Jan. after I told them I was thinking about going there long term: Have you talked to God about it? I think it is the longest convo. I have had with God yet. I went again this past summer and a friend on the same trip asked me there: Do you think you will move here in the future? Answered: Yes. She asked: When? I answered: I don't know yet. Then when I got back a friend of mine said to me, "I'm surpised you came back" or something like that. My thought to their comment (and if they read this they might be not be surpised I was thinking this but didn't say it) "Yeah, I'm surpised I came back too." I will write more later on this entery so come back and read more later. 

God's Universe

God’s Universe

Let me draw for you a picture

Of how big the universe really is.

Then that will show you God’s

 Love for us and what He is about

to do through us.

Our earth is like a spot in the distance

That you can barely see it. On top of

That is our solar system and then

The Milky Way galaxy. It just keeps

Getting bigger and we just keep

Getting smaller.

If we ever get to see out of the galaxy,

We would see a little dot but yet there

Are so many more galaxies out there.

Why would He care about one small

Planet?

We are grass that dies away. We are

Not here for long. Even the flowers,

The glory, we have made will die

Away but the Words of God stands

Forever. The flowers are much bigger

And beautiful then the grass. Whatever

We do for His glory is big but it will

Never be as big as Him.

As people, we are nothing but grasshoppers

Or a drop of water in a bucket when it

Comes to God, Yet He loves and cares for

Us. He sees our troubles. He understands

Our pain. He sees our dreams. He gives

Us strength and power. He sees and has

Been down the path made for us because

It was made by Him.

If you really look at the full picture

Of the universe, there is no reason

Why we cannot trust God. He is so

Mighty and big but yet we do doubt

Him a lot. We are scared to do what

He has called us to do.

We think of ourselves as

Nothing really special but God

Loves us as His own children. He

Has a lot more things He could

Care about but yet He picked

This place called “Earth” with the

“sinners” on it to love and bring

Him glory. I don’t know about you

But I want to do something  “big”

For Him with my life. He is more

Then worth it. He deserves it!

By: Tiffney Wilson

Nov. 2012

Some of the context taken from: Isaiah 40

Death Brings Life

I'm going to try and write this one out of my mind right now because it needs to be written on here I think. Usually I write down my devos. first because it is just faster if I copy them off the paper but this one needs to be now. Hopefully, it will make sense. God has been putting on my mind a lot about how to live life for Him. Things like not to conform to this world and spend time with Him and make him the center of your life. It kind of hit me upside the head when God brought this theme into my mind this week and last night at church He seemed to be pushing it with the message my pastor gave about devotion. It hit me in a missions way too for those of you who really know me personally that is a big deal. How many times have we heard "Death brings Life" espically in the church? That is what most if not all the new testament is about too. It is about Christ dying on the cross for us. To start out because I don't know how many people are reading this that are or are not Christians but I will give an example in my life where death brought me life. There are 4 times where it has. Two I could chose and 2 times I couldn't. First major change in my life was after my grandpa passed away. I changed my major in college from an elementary ed degree to a FACS plus Child Development degree. It wasn't the easiest change in my life because I have always dreamed about being a teacher. Another recent one is when my grandma past away 2 years ago. That one was a I had to do it major life change. I graduated from college and moved down to AR with a preschool teaching job. Never will regret that change. I love it here and the people around me. I have two more I could share but won't. Those two examples should be enough to show you that death even when it is someone that we love will bring some kind of change in our lives big or small. A small one could be like for me getting a part time job because I needed it and wanted to move on with my life and I got that job after a favorite teacher of mine past away and that started my career path in a way. Isn't it the same way with Christ? Christ died on the cross so we could have a new start in life with Him by our sides. He took away our sins upon that cross and bared them for us so we could be free in Him. Free to have a life that glorifies His Father and Him. Free to be happy. Free to love without mistakes. Free to find comfort in Him. Free to go to Him whenever we need to. Free to do whatever pleases Him because the sins were off of us. Free to fly and trust Him while we are flying through life with Him. I think even Peter died to himself after he saw Jesus raised from the grave because he saw the words of Jesus come true. That changed Peter's life. It just amazes me how we go through life thinking death is a bad thing when really it isn't on either side. Really, would you rather be living for Jesus here where it is hard or dying for Him and going to a place where there is glory forever. There is a way to start a convo. with someone who doesn't know Christ. What better way to start out but saying "Death brings Life" and then explaining what that means with Christ. From a mission view, missionaries might have to die for Christ but what better way to die then for Him. You are living the best life you could for Him if you are out there serving on the mission field or at least in my view but of course it's where I want to be and for those of you who know me you know that. This is a big lesson that God is teaching me and another way He is preparing me to go I truly believe someday.

Is Anything Too Hard?

"Is anything too hard for the Lord?"-Gen. 18:14

"And God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others."-2 Cor. 9:8

These 2 verses are great when you think you are going through something hard. They are great reminders for us to ask. Is anything too hard for the Lord? Then in a way of many He gives us an answer, " I will give you want you need plus more." Isn't that a wonderful promise to remember? He will give is what we need (strength, joy, comfort, rest) and more to pass it on to others. That goes for the lessons we learn through life and the things we can touch too. He teaches us things so we can share our stories with others and it might help them get through something too. We shouldn't be quiet about what we are learning or wanting to keep things like money and clothes. We shouldn't even worry because nothing is too hard for our God to give and/or provide us when we ask and seek for Him. He will not leave us psyhically or without anything. He is always there for us. We might think we are going through something hard but it could be that He is teaching us a lot of things that we need to learn before we can be used for Him. We could be so messed up in our own lives that we need to firgure out who we are before we can help other people and be confidence in us and Him. We could have patterns in our lives that we need to fix and get rid of because they are not good for us. They don't let us follow God the way we should. We can get so caught up in the patterns of this world that we don't even know it until God knocks us on our feet and that is the hardest place to be but He is there to get us through and help us break those patterns. I have noticed a lot in my life and I might share some of them on here. Some that I think everyone has problems with once in their lives and verses to go with them because if we search His Word He has answers for everything and ways we should live for Him. That's the biggest thing I have learned lately. His Word is filled with ways to live for Him. You hear that saying, "The Bible has words on how to live for Him" and "Look in the Bible and it will show you how to live". There is no doubt in my mind after this week that that is true. You just need to be in that mind set that this is how we really need to live without doubt, taking care of ourselves for Him, and loving people (dying to ourselves first). If you want those could sum up if not all the Bible some of it maybe at least the whole New Testament. Nothing is too hard for Him if we just look to Him and keep focusing on Him and not this world or the things around us. To change those patterns it might take little steps and we might even have to go back to baby steps and start all over but if it will change your life it is worth it. Nothing is too hard for the Lord no matter how far you have gone in whatever mess you are in. He can get you back up on your feet in no time if you will just trust Him with your mess.

Update on my life

Hey-
Sorry it has been a long time since I have wrote anything on here and this won't be anything interesting. I just want my readers to know that I'm still trying to keep this up and that God is teaching me a lot this week that I would love to write when I get the time. I just haven't been home any mornings and work has kept me busy but I like it. God has been given me verses to learn by this week and thoughts. If anything this week was eye opening and life changing for me. It's kind of fun when you just focus on you and God for a little while which is feeling like I have been doing these past few weeks. It is even fun when you have a little prayer garden of your own where you can go spend time with God, which I found this week and have spent time there with God when I can. The next few enteries will be about health and mind. God has also shown me why He has done the things He has and why I'm doing the things I have done and how to stop them or that I want to stop them with His Help. He has given me some patterns in my life that I need to change and new things that I'm going to or have started. He is showing me that I'm in the real world and I need to start acting like it in a good way and stop depending on people. That is a big lesson He has opened my eyes to and I will tell you all more about that. That might be my next entery because thanks to a friend (and I really mean it) I wouldn't have seen how much I depending on people instead of God. Sometimes you have to have a friend that can be straightforwards with you and tell you to stop it on some things and that is what has happened in a way here I think. I'm not thinking what I use to and that is good. I'm more focus on God and lovin' it. I know my job as a lot to do with it because you can't get through a day without seeing God in those children or having God work through you and you are like I got through that day. Schools are starting and as a teacher's kid I miss the school setting even preschool setting but I love where I am in life now and my friends even if I don't get to talk to them as much as I should or can. Something will stick and has since the last times we have talked. I wish I could explain more of how AWESOME God has been in my life when I have focused on Him but there is no explaination. It is just amazing how I'm changing and countine to change. God has a reason for all of this and I see little reasons now but I know there are bigger reasons in my future even if it is 5 years down the road. Hopefully, I can do 2 or 3 enteries this weekend and then I will have to stop until next Friday because I will have something to do every morning next week so I'll be busy then too.

Do You Love Me?

"When they had finished eating Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs." Again Jesus said, "Simon, son of John, do you love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep." The 3rd time he said to him," Simon, son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him a 3rd time, " Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my sheep." -John 21:15-17

Wow! I have been challenged by those verses these past couple of days by a little girl at work. Yesterday, randomly, she asked me if I loved her. Strangely, I have to stop and think about it but that was because she has a speech problem. Today was busy and I was in a hurry and talked to her in a firm way and I guess it scared her because she asked again, "Do you love me?" and I said, "Yes." and then explained what I wanted her to do and why she should do it or not do it. We get like that with God a lot in our lives. We keep saying we love the Lord but do we ask what he asks us to do? Do we feed His lambs and sheep? Do we bless other people or hurt them? Do we really love (aka know) as a Savior and have a real relationship with Him or have we just heard about Him? If we have heard about Him then, yeah, there is no need to go tell the world. Do we stop and do what we want first before we follow Jesus? Do we stop and think no this way is good for me not the other way? Even sit and ponder for awhile in a spot where we are not happy at all. If we know and Love Him and have seen Him work in our lives then why are we hiding it from the world? Notice Jesus asked Peter 3 times if he loved Him. Before the death on the cross, Peter said he didn't know Jesus. Sometimes I wonder was Peter really telling the truth? Yeah, he was a follower but did he know Jesus like we should or just followed Him? After Peter saw everything come to life and happened like Jesus said it would, do you think Peter had a lot more faith in who He really was and believed what He could do? Do you think Peter fell in love with Jesus so much that he wanted to know Him more and spend that time with Jesus' people (sheep and lambs)? All this from a child at work. No wonder the devil is fighting against God with me but he won't win. I'm not giving up on anything because it will only draw me close to the One and Only. I hope this gets the point across. I'm kind of in a hurry because it is late.

God Loves and Care-Theme Poem for this Blog

Sorry it has just been poems lately. Hopefully, I can get back to writing more recently about my life. Things have just been busy, which is good. Things are going the way God wants them to I feel like now or trying to get that way. I might update you later if I can without telling you everything that is going on in my life but for now and to keep up with my days here is a poem that is the Theme, I hope everyone that reads this gets, of this blog.

God Loves and Cares

Inspired by: a friend in 2012

God loves us like His Own

Children. He wants what is

Best for us. He guides us to

His Heart to show us who He

Really is. We are to be a image

Of that Love to others.

God cares for us like His Own

Children. Once we understand

His Love for us we start seeing

The way He cares for us. He will

Be with us through thick and thin.

He won’t eve leave us. He keeps

Us in His Arms while He cares

Enough to change us for His Glory.

He shows us He cares through

People and events.

God is calling us to do the same.

He is calling us to love and care for

The people around us. We don’t have

To go across the sea. If we love what

We do, if we love being a child of God,

Then we shouldn’t be scared to be

Different.

God wants us to show people Him

Wherever we are. That’s why He

Loved and Cared for us first but

We have to understand that beauty

So it can overflow from us. God has

Called us to fellow Him, so why aren’t

We doing that?  We have to let Him

Be in control of our lives.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: January 2013

Deeper As It Goes

Water gets deeper as it

Goes in its lifetime. It

Starts out as a stream

But ends up in the ocean.

During the different stages,

It has different things in it.

When it starts out in just a

Clear stream, you can see through

It. You can see the rocks at the

Bottom and hear the soft noise.

It has no dirt in it and has it path

Made and planned for it. Nothing to

Bother it. It is shallow too.

Then that innocence stream

Runs into the lake. It goes every

Which way. There might be some

Few small fish and dirt to get in

The way but it is still easy to get

Through. Might bump into a fish

Here or there but no biggy because

You can always find your way

Back.

The that water in the lake goes

Into the ocean. There are bigger

Fish in there. There are even

Waves to throw you back and

Forth (James 1:5). It is so much

Bigger.

You think you will never find your

Way back to the stream ever again.

Somehow though you do whether

It you meet a new fish that knows

The ocean better then you or you

Will swim until you know what

Feels right for you. Life is like the

Cycle of water it gets deeper as it

Goes but it will always come back

Around home.

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Different Groups of Children

Being a teacher's kid, I've always heard about how hard it is to teach a classroom full of students one way when they all learn different ways. I've learn about those different ways all my life too whether visual, sensory, auditory, or motor. It is strange now because even though I have been a teacher's kid all my life, I have not really seen that there could be groups of these kinds of children together as much as I do at my job now. It is neat and fun because I'm learning what to look for in different types of children and it makes me come up with new ideas to do with them, which I love to do on my own not by a lesson plan. I noticed this because my last group of children at my job loved science and hand ons things. They were very active and love to get messy so I pulled out some old science experiments like the cornstrach and water, baking soda and vinegar, and sensory bottles. Well, the group that I'm getting now, doesn't like the science so much I noticed yesterday but loves to paint and do anything artsy. My last group also needed to get outside or in the gym more but this group is pretty calm. It also got me to thinking that maybe what they like to do has something to do with their personality. Art is something calm and quite while science and PE is very active and you have to ask a lot of questions about science.  I noticed that the children with sensory problems are active and science lovers too. Sometimes I wonder if I wasn't that kid in elementary school but yet I was usual because I was the quite one. I loved science and being creative in art was okay but I would not do PE and wasn't that great at art when it came to drawing in art class. It just shows me I need to be more creative with these children and the world is at my hands because I have no lesson plans to go by and I love it. It would be neat if someday I could make like lesson plan books for each type of kid. It is strange how at my job the kids just seem to fit together in that group but yet in schools we have a hard time teaching them and I know the state is always involved with that with the testing and all. I know my school used to do that when I was in middle school but they sorted us by reading and math. That was in 6th grade. Maybe we need to sort the children in the fun things they like to do and then do the hard things with them because if you are creative enough there are was to get every subject into an art project, PE game, or science experiments. Social Studies is a hard one but I'll think on that one because that is a great subject too but even if they have to sit down just for one subject better then for all 4. I've noticed that not one of them cares about math, which fits me perfectly. :) I have always loved to be creative with lesson plans in college and I would help my mom with hers. It's just fun to see this and know that I have a way to chanallege these children into who they can be. I don't think I would mind being a homeschool teacher. Just a thought. We'll see when that time comes but for now I can do it at my job and love it even if I do have to spend some money. It is worth it to see the excitement on those childrens' faces when they feel or touch something strange or when I paint their hands. It has been funny because I can this idea through one of the children. He talked about science experiements. Let's do this and that. Just the other day he was talking about how he made a music insterment out of something we had in the classroom and I was like we could really make them out of things. It scares me too because I going to be one of those teachers like my mom who collects random things like pop bottles and shoeboxes because you can use them for anything in the classroom crafts or more. This could be fun if I really put my mind to it here and maybe make a difference not only for the children but for my job. Maybe starting a daycare or orphanage is the right thing for me to do. :) Just my random teacher's thoughts for the day. :) Encouragement for the teachers that start next week and already have started: You have a whole year to find out what your children like and work it off that way to change their lives. I only have 3 months to firgure out the children and to change or make a mark on the children's lives. My mom always told me teaching is a ministry and a spiecal kind at that and now as I get older, of course, I see she is right. I'm more of a guardian to these children but it works the same way or should. You all can do it! Don't let state laws get to in the way. ;) Knowing most of you, you are great friends which means you are great teachers too! :)

Starting my 3rd year in AR

Typically yesterday was when I started my 3rd year in AR. Craziness! Never thought I would last this long here in the state of AR but I've been blessed here more then I could think of. I got a GREAT job and amazing friends around me. I couldn't ask for anything better. My job and friends both make me who I can be and even though I might not agree with them at first after I think about it for awhile they are right and make sense. They just help me grow and see how I want to grow and see the person I really can be and that God wants me to be. It's been a crazy last year for me but I wouldn't change it for the world. Love where I am now and where I am heading. Dreams are coming true and I'm expienceing more of life like I wanted. Learning a lot and using it knowing that I have the ability to do what I do even when people say I can't. Learning some important life lessons like how to deal with the main stuff in life after changing jobs and what it means to have real friendships and to be open about your sinful self and that it is okay to be that way. We all are not perfect so everyone understands in some way, shape, or form. I would like to ask anyone that reads any of my entries to do a favor for me. I am going to start putting more poems I have written on here, more thoughts like I have been, more devos, and parts of stories that I came up with like maybe a start of a story. I do want your feedback on it whether though comments on here or Facebook. One of my dreams is to maybe write at least one book some day and I talked to a friend of mine and she said that putting it on a blog is the best way to start because the publisher would want to see if you have any readers. The numbers show I have a lot but I would also like some feedback espically on my poems for now since that is what is going to be mostly up for now. Short eassys for stories will come later maybe. Tell me what you think on anything I write on here. It is open to you even your thought on my random thoughts I get from my children or if you have another way to look at a devo. or verse/s let me know how you see it and I will take it into consideratioon. I wish I could write on here everyday because I always have a lot to write about but I don't want you guys to fall behind. :) I will try and write at least every other day or two. It might be in the mornings like this or late after work if I really have something on my mind then which I usually do something that God has shown me or that the children have shown me. I feel like I'm so far behind right now but I will keep it to a low so people can read this. I don't want to write too much where none of you come back. :) Please I can't stress enough if you feel like commenting please do. Thanks.

Blind, but Now I See

Blind, but Now I See

Inspired by: “Amazing Grace” and John 9:1-38

As a world, we are blind

To who God really is. We

Are looking for something

That isn’t here. That’s where

We mess up.

Have you ever though that

Your heart might be blind

Too? We have been born

Into a sinful world that has

Everything in it. Why is it that

Little children that have nothing

Can be so kind but yet us Christians

Are so mean and we have everything

We could think of?

We need to trust God and open

The eyes of our hearts. Just

Like the blind man did want

Jesus wanted him to do without

Know who He was at first. Without

Seeing Him, he trusted Jesus.

Jesus sent him to go wash in the

Pool and his eyes were opened. 

How many times have God said

“Go” to us and we stayed back?

Just think if you were truly blind.

You couldn’t see anything since

Birth but then one day Jesus

Changed that all for you. Wouldn’t

You go to the pool and take that

 chance to see.  He opened the eyes

of your heart to see the path He wants

you to take with Him.

It is a whole new story for you and it

Was for the blind man too. Jesus

Changes lives by just opening people’s

Eyes. He turned it around and put in color

Where it needed to make sense. Many

People are spiritually blinded and they

Don’t even know it. They think they are

Following the right path that Jesus

Has for them but they might be

Missing something along the way.

There comes a time when Jesus

Really does open your eyes. The

Time has to be just right like it

Had to be for Him. Right place,

Right people, and right situations.

Are you blind still or can you see

Now?

Written by: Tiffney Wilson

On the Other Side of Being Comfortable

I might go to the other side on being comfortable and that is that it is okay to be comfortable but we have to be careful that we don't get too comfortable. We can get comfortable in who God made us to be and to do and when we find that out it is fine to stay that but we can grow in little and big ways. We are all sinners so we can keep growing and that is the thing. A Christian's life is ever boring because we keep learning and growing whether threw the situations we go through or the Bible and new meaning it has for us every time we read it or the same verse. The Christian's life is always an adventure. You can be comfortable with who you are if you are for sure that is who God made you to be. You don't need to change who you are to step out of your zone. You can be who God made you and still grow spiritually. For me, I'm a small country girl and always will be. I love the country so that is something I look for in what I want to do in the future like live or a ranch or even where I work now is way out in the country for real and that is nice. Any way that I can get out into the country I need to do it because that is who God made me to be. Be comfortable with who God intended you to be and what He want you to do can be two different things or He can use your passions for His Will. I love the country and children. There is a lot I can do with that. Right now, my dream is a country ranch for children. That would be so neat. You just don't realize how much you miss who you really are when you are trying to be something and fit somewhere where you really don't fit. I need my teachers around me and no one else to share stories. I mean having different people around you are great but you don't need to try and fit in with a certain group. You need to be yourself and fine people like you that you can spend most of the time with and then spend other time with other people. I can also be a leader for that ranch and start one on my own if I push myself and have people around me that will push and encourage me too like have the same passions or at least understand. I always use to be encouraging and not scared to talk about really deep things but lately I have been and I haven't been encouraging like I should. I have been so selfish and self-centered and I hate that. I'm going to try and be more encouraging and change to who I really am because it is then that I'm really at peace. "You are at peace the most when you are who God meant for you to be" and I am doing what He wants me to do and right now that's what I'm doing or trying to do. Getting back into the grove of things.

Technology vs. Face to Face

I got up at 6:30 on a Saturday morning because it was tundering, lighting, and raining outside and my AC can't be on because it is broken so I was uncomfortable but then I thought God must have done one of His early wake up calls to get me to write what I have been thinking about this week or at least half of it. What I have been thinking about is a little strange but it makes sense in today's world. My mind has been on: Technology vs. Face to Face-Which is better and why? Of course face to face is because you can be real with the people you are around. To me, growing up when the age of Technology started to get big that is hard for me I will admit. I have always been the shy and quite type yet deep thinker and loves to write things out whatever way I can. I guess I didn't know how dependent I was on technology getting me through my friendship until I moved to AR and really cared about the people around me. I remember my first email address and how excited I was to get it. I remember my big brother setting it up for me because noone else knew anything about it and I was old enough to have one. That is when everything started and when I say everything I mean me not having real, authic friendships. Yeah, I remember I use to use it at first to keep in touch with family and really my big brother when he was away at college but then as the years went on it got worse for me and technology can more advance. I started emailing my friends at school even though I saw them everyday some I talked to some I didn't. Then I got a cell phone and that started the whole texting thing, and then Facebook came along with messager and that's where I am today plus this blog. Sadly, I guess I really never knew what it was like to have a real relationship when I think about it was on techy which I hate to admit but lately I have noticed the importance of having face to face talks whether with girlfriends or guyfriends. You can't see their reaction to what you say, some people might just blow what you say off because they don't know how you mean it, and other things like that. Funny when you think about it that way because we also get so caught up checking our email and time on Facebook that we really don't even "call" or "talk" have face to face with God anymore. I know I'm getting madder the more that I learn about the affects it can have on friendships. I love the one on one or small group talks with my friends and for some reason lately I love it even more maybe it's because I know they want to have those talks too or maybe because it is so meaningful when we do and I, if not both of us, learn something from face to face because we can go much deeper then texting. Having relationships with our friends could show what kind of relationship we have with God and do we just want a texting one or a deep one? It shows because we learn about him and can, hopefully, see him through one another by how we encourage and care for them by just being there when they need us the most. It would take a lot of typing on a little phone to really have a meaningful talk about God or your problems and why waste the time when we can see them most of the time. There are good times for technology for friends that are away and keeping them up to date about the important things in your life but other then that way bother with it. I know I'm saying this and I'm bad at it but one of my goals is to stop using technology so much and talk to my friends face to face to see how their day was or their trip. I might sound like I'm becoming old and I'm not I'm just becoming more real to my friends and towards God. We aren't real unless we share who we truly are to people and we can't do that over technology. That is what I need to change in my life or one of the big things at least because that is what I have been using and it hasn't worked. It has just confused and messed things up for everyone. Right now, technology is no good in my book and maybe I'm just going through a season but it is a good season because in a way I'm growing closer to God.