What Is The Only Thing That You Want?

        It has been a week since I last wrote on here. I'm so sorry but as most of you know it has been a crazy week or more with this snowy weather. I stayed two nights/days at work this week so I feel like I'm behind on everything now. It was a good two full days at work though and it was fun staying over night because it felt like a small mission trip and I got to know the children better for 2 full days of working. I was almost thinking about staying for 3 nights and I would have if I had packed enough. I learned a lot and we got 2 new children at the end of this week when it was safe to drive. I will tell you about one of them later. Right now, I want to tell you about something that one of my older children said to me one night this week and I will be honest I cried right beside his bed when he said this.
         He is the strong boy where is something would be bothering him you would never know until bedtime because he would hold it in and he did during this week. One day this week he had a visit with his parents and that night he just started crying when he laid down in bed. I comforted him and talked to him about it and if you know me you know my heart and it just broke it to pieces. He was talking about his mom and dad.
         He said things about his mom that I guess every mom would want to hear. I know if I was a mom I would want to hear those things from my children and I guess that why I cried a lot because my dream is to be a stay at home mom someday. He was saying things like "my mommy teaches me what is right and what is wrong", "she loves me", "she cooks for me", and "I miss my mommy and daddy". I couldn't help thinking right there that when he says "she teaches me right from wrong", only if you really knew what she was doing and knew that it was wrong you would be so much better off but I know those children don't understand those things.
          He said something else that really got me thinking about my life and what I really wanted to do with it and it didn't help when he said it with these other things. He said, "THE ONLY THING I WANT IS TO SEE MY FAMILY ALL TOGETHER AGAIN." If that doesn't brake your heart then. I'm sorry, you are a cold person. I got to thinking about that in my life and things started to come to mind. I thought, "well, I have a family that cares for me and friends that do the same." I also thought that "I should only want God and I do but in earthly terms what is the only thing I really want?" I can't tell you all of it because I don't want to talk about anyone on here but I will say that I really want to be a stay at home mom and make things like crafts and sew. I really want what is best for a friend of mine. I haven't cried that hard in a long time and it could be a mixture of not enough sleep and feeling sorry for this child.
           As Christians or even just people we take a lot of things for granted sometimes. I know I do. My family lives close enough now where I could go visit them every weekend if wanted and had the money. I have friends I need to go see and talk to. We think, sometimes, family is not enough in this world but to a lot of people that is all they have and when they lose that they lost everything. I would never have 6 children of my own but I'm glad I have 5 other brothers and sisters to talk to and then a lot of nephews and ninces to play with or talk to too.
             My challenge for you from this entery is: WHAT IS THE ONLY THING THAT YOU WANT? Think on that question for some time and then go get it if you can and never give up. It would be neat if you would even share it in a comment on this entery. Get some interaction going on my blog so I can see how many people actually read it.