A Week Kneeling at Christ's feet

      I'm sitting here and writing this entry while I'm looking out the window at the white now falling to the ground and have been falling all day so far. It is pure white all around. I have been out to play in the snow with my nephews and niece. We went sledding and walking in the snow. This is my first snow weekend and days off from work and time with family. It is really nice to have that time together. I don't have to spend nights at my job  so I can get some sleep.
       Enough about today, this week has been AMAZING and the snow break from work just ended it perfectly. I have literally down on my knees at my bedside praying every night. I'm not bragging but it has worked in so many ways through just this week. It has been a hard week but yet a very blessed one with some answers to prayers. I won't go into details about it but that are a couple things I like to share and remember. This week I got to talk to a friend that it has been awhile since I have talked to them. We got to joke around some and that was fun and helped with my days after.
       The other thing was an answer to prayer just yesterday. I have been fighting a lot with myself and probably with the devil too about what I want to do for the next step in my life and I have a chance that if I don't back out of it would work. It would keep me busy but it would work and be worth it in the end. I wish I can tell what it is right now but I can't because it isn't out in the open just yet. Let's just say that I might be able to take college classes during the week sometime soon while working the same job.
        I am not done kneeling at Christ's Feet because I have to pray this thing through and after that there is always more in life to pray about whether the right spouse or where to live or so on. It could even be about what the next step is after this step and hoping that I get the step that I want or something better then that step. It is just neat to see the little things God did in my life this past week after being on my knees at my bedside. It is like I am more aware of what is going on and what God is doing in my life because I am on my knees looking for answers.
        I'm at that point in life where I just want more in my life. I thought about it this week especially during my Bible study about do I really want more or am I made for more then I'm doing right now. Wanting more could just turn out bad because you are trying things to make you happy but yet there is only one thing that can make you happy and that is God. I think I have come to the thought of God has me for this plan and He will get me through it if I follow Him. He has so far in more ways then I can count. I was scared at first that I was trying to fix the cracks in my life when really I think I'm just trying to find out where I belong and who I am in Christ. What He made me for?
          I grew up most of my childhood getting teased about the way I talked and just the way I acted and who I was and could do and couldn't do. Well, that teasing has helped me come a long ways because now I want to help other children. I want to help them be able to do everyday things so they don't get teased because even though I couldn't talk right or do some of the subjects right, I got teased easily. Honestly, I didn't stand up for myself. Looking back now, I should have but instead I ran away and cried. God use those moments for me to see that I can make a difference in children's lives whether it is the way by which I help them see happiness in life after they have been abused or do everyday things so they don't teased.
           The story in Matthew about the children really made me see how much God loved the little children. They are not just other people to God, they are the main people here on earth. Why are we letting them fade away? I know that is a sad way to look at it but it is true. They should mean the some way to use then they do to God. They never will because God's Love is bigger but we can try at least.  From what I have seen some people don't even care to try. My eyes have just been opened up bigger to the problem when I started where I am now and this week's Bible study just opened my eyes up bigger. I never thought, when I started my job, that my eyes could be open any bigger or in any other way but they have.
             I could go on about this topic all day and longer but I will stop right now.

          Challenge: If we hurt any child, then we hurt God at the same time. Think about that and how profound that thought is. I still can't wrap my mind around it and I have been thinking about it for 3 days now.