With this entry, I am passing the 12 entries that I have been doing every month but that is okay. That just means I have been thinking a lot more, I guess. I have been thinking about my life and my dream a lot lately. Not only those things but also who I truly am. Why I am so scared to go for my dream and what is stopping me and when I look back it is just foolish.
Let's start way back in high school and those hard times there. I grew up in a small country school where everyone knew everyone. I was the superindentant's daughter and an elementary teacher's kid. I will say, because it was a big part of my life, that all my classmates and I mean mostly all of them either made fun of me or were nice to me because of you I was. I was never a normal person. I also remember them thinking and saying things about how I got away with everything because I was the superindent's daughter and how I needed to go to his office because I couldn't stand situations I was in.
There was this one time that I remember so clearly and I think it was that moment that I decided I'm not going to let myself down or anyone else. I am going to show them what I will be and can become. One of the girls in my class said something about how I have to depend or do depend on my daddy for everything, which I don't. It was right then and there I remember that I decided that I was going to be strong, stubborn, hardworking, and determined. Don't get me wrong none of those things are bad expect when they are keeping you from your dreams.
I mean you need all of those to reach your dream but you can over do it and I have I am thinking a lot. I have got so overwhelmed with those 4 things and still thinking I have to show the people from my class what I am worth, even though, I haven't seen them in 15 or so years. Yes, it has been that long.
I'm learning that sometimes you need to let go of the perfection and wanting to prove your worth to people and just be happy with how God made you and the dream He has for you.
I always thought that living on my own and having one job after another or staying at one job long enough would prove something but honestly to myself it doesn't prove anything especially if I'm not happy there and keep thinking about something else. Ever since I have been in AR, even in college, I started to think about owning my own daycare. That is why I can a degree in Child Development. That was the purpose. Why am I holding back from that dream? One reason I can tell you know that I have figured out is that it is hard trying to live by yourself and have enough money and time to start one up when you have to pay for an apartment.
Especially if you already work at a daycare because your energy is gone when you get home. No matter what you try to keep it up. With this thought and other thoughts like these going through my head, I really have been thinking about moving back to MO. It might be strange at first because I might live with my parents or at least need that help but once in a life you need their help. You need people's help when you have a big dream you are trying to pursue. What more is it for me to prove that I am stubborn, determined, and hardworking when I don't have anything to show it in the end.
When I think about the words that my classmates said to me about needing my daddy's help to get through life, it isn't like that at all. I don't need his help or anyone else's help but I want it. It is good to show that you don't have to be strong on the time and I think that is what I'm getting sick of right now in life. I am sick of being strong and getting nothing out of it alone when I could have people helping me. When God has given amazing people I can ask questions to and can help me in other ways yet I am scared to ask and scared to live the life I live now but if I do I will never be happy.
You get to do so many things and your dream can be much bigger when you share it with someone or more people instead of yourself. You could work full or part time and save that money intend of spend $400 or more for an apartment. You could work part time and then work on the plans at home since you don't need to make a lot of money because you are not paying for much. You would hopefully have people right that beside you encouraging and cheering you on instead of looking for those kinds of people. It would be lonely by yourself but when you have your family and friends by your side it is much more enjoyable. The only person you have to show your worth to is God and He loves you no matter what. He knows you can reach the dream He has for you so why not prove Him right!
"God has been telling me this for 4 years or more and I am now just realizing all of this. "
Challenge for whoever is reading this is: Stop trying to be perfect for the people around you or that were once around you and start to live YOUR LIFE, not theirs! Let go of those words and judgements and grudges and just go for the Golden streets ahead!" :)
Thursday, April 28, 2016
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Arkansas Vs. Missouri
I am going to tell my age if you didn't already know it with all the other entries. I am a late 90's and early 2000's tween ager and teenager. Therefore, that would explain my love for the show "Hannah Montana" before she became so nuts but that is just my opinion. I have been watching some of the shows on youtube lately because I have nothing better to do with my life and that is how I relax after work. There is this one show that I felt connected with at this moment of my life that I am in right now.
It was the show where Hannah wanted to go back to Tennessee but she didn't want to leave her friend so her dad brought them a ranch in California. She was having to decide between two states but her dad made it easy for her and brought her a ranch where they could live and keep her horse. Right now, if I was honest with myself, like Hannah was in that show, I am fighting between two states too. I wish my states were those two states but I like my two anyways. My two states are Missouri and Arkansas.
Just like Tennessee was for Hannah, Missouri is for me. Missouri is my home state with my family and friends there. It is was a grew up in 3 different cities and my grandparents lived north and south in Missouri. That means that is where both of my parents grew up. I have also always lived in a small town or in the country in Missouri. Never a big city that I could remember. All memories were made in small towns or out in the country. It is where I went to a wonderful college and met a lot of wonderful people that are mostly still in my life to this day. Missouri is my history state but then there is Arkansas where I moved to after college and fell in love with.
I have also grown up so much in Arkansas as a person because of the people and situations and places I have been to and through. I will admit the reason I wanted to move to Arkansas in the first place was and still is dumb when I think back on it but it has been good to me ever since. I know that God had another plans for me here then I had for myself. Plans to help some of the friends I had get through some tough things. Plans to help abused children get through 46 days of their small life. To be that special someone in their life and know that there is true love out there somewhere. Plans to trust Him in ways I never thought I could get through or that would happen to me in the first place.
I also love all the nature that is around where I live in Bentonville, AR. I love the parks around me and the miles and miles of trails near me. I also like that I live right by the Bentonville square. I found a church that I love and can help me grow in God and be the disciple I was meant too be for Christ. It is a big church and I'm not use to that at first but then I got to know the people in it especially the women and fall in love with it. It has so many chances and things for me to do and listen to the fit me like the Early Childhood ministry. It is just great! I have my own one bedroom apartment and couldn't be happier or though I thought my first year or two here in AR.
Even though, I still love all of that, I hate living in the city. I hate living near the Wal-mart home offices and much less around people that work for Wal-Mart. I always thought it would be fun to live in Bentonville when I saw label on things from Wal-Mart but it isn't. If I could afford my own house out in the country somewhere near Bentonville or Rogers then I would stay for sure. I just need to get out of the city life. The problem affording my own house. Do we even need to go over that? Let's just say that I picked childcare as my career. There is more to that but that is all I can say on here where everyone can see it. If you aren't a business type person then really there is no job around Wal-Mart for you.
To be honest, if things don't change in a year or sooner then I might be going back to Missouri somehow and way. I might be able to actually stay 5 years in Arkansas but if things don't turn around for me whether friendship wise and/or career wise then I might not stay 6 years or on. I want to be free someday in my life because I never really have known what that is like. I want to be free and follow God to where He truly wants me. He might have been using Arkansas as a mission field for me and I think my time is about up. I can't believe I am saying this but I want to be back in the good 'ole Missouri country where I was born and spent the best years of my life. I want to see if I can complete the circle of life somehow.
That, folks, is how a Hannah Montana show matches up with my life right now. Yes, I know it is a strange comparison but it is a true one at the same time.
It was the show where Hannah wanted to go back to Tennessee but she didn't want to leave her friend so her dad brought them a ranch in California. She was having to decide between two states but her dad made it easy for her and brought her a ranch where they could live and keep her horse. Right now, if I was honest with myself, like Hannah was in that show, I am fighting between two states too. I wish my states were those two states but I like my two anyways. My two states are Missouri and Arkansas.
Just like Tennessee was for Hannah, Missouri is for me. Missouri is my home state with my family and friends there. It is was a grew up in 3 different cities and my grandparents lived north and south in Missouri. That means that is where both of my parents grew up. I have also always lived in a small town or in the country in Missouri. Never a big city that I could remember. All memories were made in small towns or out in the country. It is where I went to a wonderful college and met a lot of wonderful people that are mostly still in my life to this day. Missouri is my history state but then there is Arkansas where I moved to after college and fell in love with.
I have also grown up so much in Arkansas as a person because of the people and situations and places I have been to and through. I will admit the reason I wanted to move to Arkansas in the first place was and still is dumb when I think back on it but it has been good to me ever since. I know that God had another plans for me here then I had for myself. Plans to help some of the friends I had get through some tough things. Plans to help abused children get through 46 days of their small life. To be that special someone in their life and know that there is true love out there somewhere. Plans to trust Him in ways I never thought I could get through or that would happen to me in the first place.
I also love all the nature that is around where I live in Bentonville, AR. I love the parks around me and the miles and miles of trails near me. I also like that I live right by the Bentonville square. I found a church that I love and can help me grow in God and be the disciple I was meant too be for Christ. It is a big church and I'm not use to that at first but then I got to know the people in it especially the women and fall in love with it. It has so many chances and things for me to do and listen to the fit me like the Early Childhood ministry. It is just great! I have my own one bedroom apartment and couldn't be happier or though I thought my first year or two here in AR.
Even though, I still love all of that, I hate living in the city. I hate living near the Wal-mart home offices and much less around people that work for Wal-Mart. I always thought it would be fun to live in Bentonville when I saw label on things from Wal-Mart but it isn't. If I could afford my own house out in the country somewhere near Bentonville or Rogers then I would stay for sure. I just need to get out of the city life. The problem affording my own house. Do we even need to go over that? Let's just say that I picked childcare as my career. There is more to that but that is all I can say on here where everyone can see it. If you aren't a business type person then really there is no job around Wal-Mart for you.
To be honest, if things don't change in a year or sooner then I might be going back to Missouri somehow and way. I might be able to actually stay 5 years in Arkansas but if things don't turn around for me whether friendship wise and/or career wise then I might not stay 6 years or on. I want to be free someday in my life because I never really have known what that is like. I want to be free and follow God to where He truly wants me. He might have been using Arkansas as a mission field for me and I think my time is about up. I can't believe I am saying this but I want to be back in the good 'ole Missouri country where I was born and spent the best years of my life. I want to see if I can complete the circle of life somehow.
That, folks, is how a Hannah Montana show matches up with my life right now. Yes, I know it is a strange comparison but it is a true one at the same time.
Sunday, April 24, 2016
What Does Grace Look Like to Someone Else?
This is my 500th entry on this blog so I hope I make it sound like that. I had two more that I had to chose from but hopefully I can get those done this week sometime. The title and this entry is important to me because it shows that I am growing in Faith and in Love with my Heavenly Daddy everyday. I have been put in situations recently that has shown me a lot about what Grace really it and how other people actually see it. I know I just wrote about what a leader really is in my last entry but I feel like God is wanting me to be that leader in what I do now.
Anyways, that whole other leader talk will have to wait for another entry too. I am here to answer "What does Grace look like to someone else outside of the Christian world?" The situation even made me love the verse about Grace even more then I did before and this verse is what I thought of when I was in the situation.
"But He said to me, "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made prefect in your weakness."- 2 Corinthians 12:9
It is strange how someone else can really see your weakness and even good enough to call them out to and for you. It is even stranger when they get every single one right on the dot. That as a Christian, should give us hope in a way. It shows or should show that we are doing something right. When other people can see our weaknesses yet ask questions about how we live they see something but they are no quite sure what yet or why. I had a person that I talk to everyday point out my weaknesses and usually that makes me upset but this time it really made me think about this verse.
The person pointed out that (my weaknesses) I am or was:
-not free
-insecure about myself
-feels lonely at times
-a nerd in high school
-have a heart.
To that person, I have 5 weaknesses but I know, myself, I could add on more because none of us are prefect. Now some of you might say that not all of these are weaknesses but they all are even having a heart one. That one can get the best of me at times because I usually care and have compassion more then I need to at certain times. I don't let go very easily at all. Then the one about being a nerd in high school still gets to me at times because that is when I turn shy or don't do something that I need to do because I might get embarrassed.
It was just neat for me to see that someone else saw them in me and as Christians that is what we want people to see because we all make mistakes. Because of those 5+ weaknesses people can see Christ through me. I know I can't handle everyday especially with children, even though that is my passion, if I felt like this all the time. There has to be joy and security and peace within me and for me to do my job and live everyday even so that is why I try to trust God with everything and try to live for Him everyday. Let's not forget a lot of patience too. God replaces the bad things with the good things.
All this to say that we need to let people see our weaknesses and some people will and even call us out on them but what better way to see the Lord working then to hear and see it that way. That should give us some joy everyday and a reason to live and trust Him every day of our lives. When God covers those things up and gives us the other things, that is called Grace, and that is what people need to see in this world today. God replaces the bad with the Good. That is every Christian's story in one form or another. That is what Grace can look like to someone else.
Anyways, that whole other leader talk will have to wait for another entry too. I am here to answer "What does Grace look like to someone else outside of the Christian world?" The situation even made me love the verse about Grace even more then I did before and this verse is what I thought of when I was in the situation.
"But He said to me, "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made prefect in your weakness."- 2 Corinthians 12:9
It is strange how someone else can really see your weakness and even good enough to call them out to and for you. It is even stranger when they get every single one right on the dot. That as a Christian, should give us hope in a way. It shows or should show that we are doing something right. When other people can see our weaknesses yet ask questions about how we live they see something but they are no quite sure what yet or why. I had a person that I talk to everyday point out my weaknesses and usually that makes me upset but this time it really made me think about this verse.
The person pointed out that (my weaknesses) I am or was:
-not free
-insecure about myself
-feels lonely at times
-a nerd in high school
-have a heart.
To that person, I have 5 weaknesses but I know, myself, I could add on more because none of us are prefect. Now some of you might say that not all of these are weaknesses but they all are even having a heart one. That one can get the best of me at times because I usually care and have compassion more then I need to at certain times. I don't let go very easily at all. Then the one about being a nerd in high school still gets to me at times because that is when I turn shy or don't do something that I need to do because I might get embarrassed.
It was just neat for me to see that someone else saw them in me and as Christians that is what we want people to see because we all make mistakes. Because of those 5+ weaknesses people can see Christ through me. I know I can't handle everyday especially with children, even though that is my passion, if I felt like this all the time. There has to be joy and security and peace within me and for me to do my job and live everyday even so that is why I try to trust God with everything and try to live for Him everyday. Let's not forget a lot of patience too. God replaces the bad things with the good things.
All this to say that we need to let people see our weaknesses and some people will and even call us out on them but what better way to see the Lord working then to hear and see it that way. That should give us some joy everyday and a reason to live and trust Him every day of our lives. When God covers those things up and gives us the other things, that is called Grace, and that is what people need to see in this world today. God replaces the bad with the Good. That is every Christian's story in one form or another. That is what Grace can look like to someone else.
Saturday, April 23, 2016
Being a Leader is Different then Being a Listener
Being a leader is different then being a listener. If I had to chose one, it would be being a listener but some of you already knew that because that is my mins personality. It is hard to change from a listener to a leader especially if you have been one your whole life but I am learning. I'm going to write about what I think a leader is and then what a listener is as well.
A leader is a person who shows and tells people what to do. The person is in charge of everything and everyone. You have more on your shoulders then anyone else. You have to know how to talk and talk nicely at a fast and busy pace. You have to think on your feet and know what you are going to say right off the bat. Yet there are different kinds of leaders and I might be able to do some but not all. I would like to run my own business some day and be in charge of everything just because I know what I what and having something you made from the ground up is fun.
Yet there are leaders under different companies that are hard because you have to work with other people and teach people to do things the way the company likes things done. Maybe this sounds a little jealous of me but it is something that I have always wanted. When you are working with different people whether age or culture, it can be truly hard in its own way. I'm not saying this to be mean but it is the truth. Everyone is different and has their own way of doing things that is just human nature, I understand that.
No matter what job you have, you will always disagree with something someone does and we just have to look past that most of the time especially if you are a leader to them. The leader just has to be really strong in ideas and ways to get people to do things that they want them to do. They have to have that push til the end and I don't feel like I have it right now. I'm learning to have it but it is hard to get it especially if you went raised that way. I always thought that being a leader would be a neat job in a way but you do have more responsibility and it is harder. There is also a lot to learn.
A listener is a person who listen to other people's problem. The person, depending on what they are listening to could only be one person. The person has time to think about what they are going to say in response. You can response in a nice timely manner or not at all. You can also take the time to write things out. You get to sit and just listen to the other person talk. You might have to give a few ideas and words back but not as much if you were a leader.
I might be stepping on some toes if I say this but you have to agree with me. Leaders seems so serious all the time. They are so busy with other things that they don't have time to have fun or so it seems. I know leaders are needed and I respect every leader that I have known in my life because in their own way they have changed my life in some way plus I have a lot of leaders in my family. In a strange way, a lot of those leaders were and are the man in my family. They know how to take on the God given role very well. I also know God made the man to be the leader and the women to be the listener or nurturer in a marriage and I respect all of that.
The reason I am writing this entry is to let people know what I really am and really like to be and always will be. Even though, I might be a leader at my job right now, I will always be a listener too because that is who God made me to be. I like sitting down for coffee or being outdoors and having long talks into the day or night. I could listen for hours about anything, whether life or how to do something like hunt and not say a word. I just love being with the people I love and know and are the most important in my life then to let a day slip by without knowing who they really are.
That lesson and this entry has not came easy for me at all. As I look back on the loses I have had in my life, there are so many times that I look back and just think that I wish I would have just listen and not been so busy being a leader in life or getting to that point. I could have heard war stories, farm stories, about me being a baby and a little girl from another's perspective, stories about volunteering different places, and the list goes on but I just never took the time. Now that time is gone with those people but I still have people in my life the mean a lot to me and I can change on them.
My challenge to whoever reads this entry is: Take the time to listen to the people closest to you because you never know when they will leave your life. Only God knows that. Take the chances you have when you have them because you never know when the next chance will come along or if it does.
A leader is a person who shows and tells people what to do. The person is in charge of everything and everyone. You have more on your shoulders then anyone else. You have to know how to talk and talk nicely at a fast and busy pace. You have to think on your feet and know what you are going to say right off the bat. Yet there are different kinds of leaders and I might be able to do some but not all. I would like to run my own business some day and be in charge of everything just because I know what I what and having something you made from the ground up is fun.
Yet there are leaders under different companies that are hard because you have to work with other people and teach people to do things the way the company likes things done. Maybe this sounds a little jealous of me but it is something that I have always wanted. When you are working with different people whether age or culture, it can be truly hard in its own way. I'm not saying this to be mean but it is the truth. Everyone is different and has their own way of doing things that is just human nature, I understand that.
No matter what job you have, you will always disagree with something someone does and we just have to look past that most of the time especially if you are a leader to them. The leader just has to be really strong in ideas and ways to get people to do things that they want them to do. They have to have that push til the end and I don't feel like I have it right now. I'm learning to have it but it is hard to get it especially if you went raised that way. I always thought that being a leader would be a neat job in a way but you do have more responsibility and it is harder. There is also a lot to learn.
A listener is a person who listen to other people's problem. The person, depending on what they are listening to could only be one person. The person has time to think about what they are going to say in response. You can response in a nice timely manner or not at all. You can also take the time to write things out. You get to sit and just listen to the other person talk. You might have to give a few ideas and words back but not as much if you were a leader.
I might be stepping on some toes if I say this but you have to agree with me. Leaders seems so serious all the time. They are so busy with other things that they don't have time to have fun or so it seems. I know leaders are needed and I respect every leader that I have known in my life because in their own way they have changed my life in some way plus I have a lot of leaders in my family. In a strange way, a lot of those leaders were and are the man in my family. They know how to take on the God given role very well. I also know God made the man to be the leader and the women to be the listener or nurturer in a marriage and I respect all of that.
The reason I am writing this entry is to let people know what I really am and really like to be and always will be. Even though, I might be a leader at my job right now, I will always be a listener too because that is who God made me to be. I like sitting down for coffee or being outdoors and having long talks into the day or night. I could listen for hours about anything, whether life or how to do something like hunt and not say a word. I just love being with the people I love and know and are the most important in my life then to let a day slip by without knowing who they really are.
That lesson and this entry has not came easy for me at all. As I look back on the loses I have had in my life, there are so many times that I look back and just think that I wish I would have just listen and not been so busy being a leader in life or getting to that point. I could have heard war stories, farm stories, about me being a baby and a little girl from another's perspective, stories about volunteering different places, and the list goes on but I just never took the time. Now that time is gone with those people but I still have people in my life the mean a lot to me and I can change on them.
My challenge to whoever reads this entry is: Take the time to listen to the people closest to you because you never know when they will leave your life. Only God knows that. Take the chances you have when you have them because you never know when the next chance will come along or if it does.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
New Description on my Blog
"Today is a blank page. Yes, there are some things that need to be written in, and you could surrender your pen to them, letting events, exceptions, tests, and the judgements of others write this chapter. Or, you could take some time with God, that author and completer of your Faith and start writing today as the adventure He shows you it can be."-Rob Coscia
"My heart is overflowing with a good theme as I recite my composition for the King. My tongue is the pen of a ready writer."- Psalm 45:1
"You are the most excellent of men
and your lips have been anointed with grace,
since God has blessed you forever."-Psalm 45:2
I found this saying with this 1st verse on Facebook and thought it explained my love for writing and my blog perfectly. It is my new description on my blog if you look under the title of my blog. I also love the verse that goes with it. I would have never found that verse but it is explaining my life perfectly. I also go by themes yearly and even monthly as you might be able to tell here. I like to think of it as my heart instead of my mind that is overflowing with words. It is more meaningful that way to me.
I start these entries with a blank page every time and I only write what I think needs to be written on here. That is why I only write life lessons, poems, and how some of my days went. I try and not make them too personal but I do slip once in awhile but that is because it is helps with understanding the life lessons or whatever I am writing. I'm not letting other people tell me what to think or what to write, these entries are right from my head and I have talked to no one about them. That might be the reason why they don't make sense sometimes.
You will notice that there are some Bible verses and church sermons that I write on here too. That is because I don't want to forget them because God has taught me something through that time with Him. The sermons and lessons that I write down are very important too. They are a part of my life's adventure that I am writing out here and I hope to help someone change their life adventure by those entries too. As I write out entries and go back and read my older entries, I do see the adventures that God has put me on and all that He has taught me on those adventures. I can't wait to share them with my future husband and family (children).
I wish my tongue could speak as good and clear as I can think and type but my personality doesn't let that happen. If you want to get to know me, then reading this blog or just letting me write letters or things down will help a lot. To let people know, I might be old fashioned, but I love writing letters and most of the time they are meaningful so if you even get one, that means you are special to me. Now if you get more then one, it means you have touched my life somehow and no matter what you will always be on my mind and, for a lack of a better word, a role model for me.
I just looked up Psalm 45:2 and I love how it says that the words on your lips are full of grace and that God has blessed "me" forever. I hope that by sharing my thoughts like this that people are touched and will be blessed because of this blog. I also hope that God will bless me someday because I shared those thoughts and I kept them somewhere special so I wouldn't forget. Maybe like writing a book or something like that?
Just know that I love to do this and I won't quite until I have a busy life. It really needs to be busy like having a family before I stop and so far that is not in the picture at all so I might be doing this for awhile. :) Oh! and the verses are now the theme verses for my blog. :)
"My heart is overflowing with a good theme as I recite my composition for the King. My tongue is the pen of a ready writer."- Psalm 45:1
"You are the most excellent of men
and your lips have been anointed with grace,
since God has blessed you forever."-Psalm 45:2
I found this saying with this 1st verse on Facebook and thought it explained my love for writing and my blog perfectly. It is my new description on my blog if you look under the title of my blog. I also love the verse that goes with it. I would have never found that verse but it is explaining my life perfectly. I also go by themes yearly and even monthly as you might be able to tell here. I like to think of it as my heart instead of my mind that is overflowing with words. It is more meaningful that way to me.
I start these entries with a blank page every time and I only write what I think needs to be written on here. That is why I only write life lessons, poems, and how some of my days went. I try and not make them too personal but I do slip once in awhile but that is because it is helps with understanding the life lessons or whatever I am writing. I'm not letting other people tell me what to think or what to write, these entries are right from my head and I have talked to no one about them. That might be the reason why they don't make sense sometimes.
You will notice that there are some Bible verses and church sermons that I write on here too. That is because I don't want to forget them because God has taught me something through that time with Him. The sermons and lessons that I write down are very important too. They are a part of my life's adventure that I am writing out here and I hope to help someone change their life adventure by those entries too. As I write out entries and go back and read my older entries, I do see the adventures that God has put me on and all that He has taught me on those adventures. I can't wait to share them with my future husband and family (children).
I wish my tongue could speak as good and clear as I can think and type but my personality doesn't let that happen. If you want to get to know me, then reading this blog or just letting me write letters or things down will help a lot. To let people know, I might be old fashioned, but I love writing letters and most of the time they are meaningful so if you even get one, that means you are special to me. Now if you get more then one, it means you have touched my life somehow and no matter what you will always be on my mind and, for a lack of a better word, a role model for me.
I just looked up Psalm 45:2 and I love how it says that the words on your lips are full of grace and that God has blessed "me" forever. I hope that by sharing my thoughts like this that people are touched and will be blessed because of this blog. I also hope that God will bless me someday because I shared those thoughts and I kept them somewhere special so I wouldn't forget. Maybe like writing a book or something like that?
Just know that I love to do this and I won't quite until I have a busy life. It really needs to be busy like having a family before I stop and so far that is not in the picture at all so I might be doing this for awhile. :) Oh! and the verses are now the theme verses for my blog. :)
Monday, April 18, 2016
"Warrior-A Letter From the King"
Dear Daughter,
You see your weakness
and you crumble to the ground.
Covered in the weight and fear
of all consuming sound.
It’s the voice of your adversary
feeding every misconstrued lie.
He whispers “You are NOTHING”
hoping to discourage you to fight.
and you crumble to the ground.
Covered in the weight and fear
of all consuming sound.
It’s the voice of your adversary
feeding every misconstrued lie.
He whispers “You are NOTHING”
hoping to discourage you to fight.
You lay there for a second
contemplating if any of this is true,
that you’re weak.
Not valued.
You’re beyond fearful too.
You can’t see past the darkness,
to the light of my truth.
But listen closely daughter,
I will show you how to move.
contemplating if any of this is true,
that you’re weak.
Not valued.
You’re beyond fearful too.
You can’t see past the darkness,
to the light of my truth.
But listen closely daughter,
I will show you how to move.
Get up and STAND FIRM
with your armor set in place.
Lift high your head daughter,
you are a WARRIOR in my name.
with your armor set in place.
Lift high your head daughter,
you are a WARRIOR in my name.
Wrap the BELT of TRUTH
tightly around your waist
with your BREASTPLATE of RIGHTEOUSNESS
firmly in its place.
Strap your SHOES tightly,
walk confidently in my PEACE.
Raise up your SHIELD of FAITH
to deflect your enemy.
The HELMET of SALVATION
is your security in Christ.
SAVED and SEALED by the blood,
bought with a precious price.
Now grab your SWORD of the SPIRIT
and speak BOLDLY from My Truth.
My word does NOT return void-
“I AM” declares it over you.
tightly around your waist
with your BREASTPLATE of RIGHTEOUSNESS
firmly in its place.
Strap your SHOES tightly,
walk confidently in my PEACE.
Raise up your SHIELD of FAITH
to deflect your enemy.
The HELMET of SALVATION
is your security in Christ.
SAVED and SEALED by the blood,
bought with a precious price.
Now grab your SWORD of the SPIRIT
and speak BOLDLY from My Truth.
My word does NOT return void-
“I AM” declares it over you.
You slowly get up
from the depths of the ground,
dusting the ashes of defeat
from the tip of your brow.
You’re STRONG.
You’re BOLD,
with a fierce look in your eye.
Staring at your enemy telling him,
“It’s now past your time!
Because my Daddy says
I’m a WARRIOR
He created me to fight.
I am not your weak one satan
and I will put you into flight.
You come at me like a flood
trying to drown me in your lies,
but I am armed and dangerous
in the POWER of HIS MIGHT!”
from the depths of the ground,
dusting the ashes of defeat
from the tip of your brow.
You’re STRONG.
You’re BOLD,
with a fierce look in your eye.
Staring at your enemy telling him,
“It’s now past your time!
Because my Daddy says
I’m a WARRIOR
He created me to fight.
I am not your weak one satan
and I will put you into flight.
You come at me like a flood
trying to drown me in your lies,
but I am armed and dangerous
in the POWER of HIS MIGHT!”
I will NOT be shaken.
I will NOT be moved.
I DECLARE my victory in Jesus’ name
His plans are for my GOOD!
I will NOT be moved.
I DECLARE my victory in Jesus’ name
His plans are for my GOOD!
bravegirlcommunity.com
Sunday, April 17, 2016
A Fishing Saturday
I know I have't wrote in a long time and I am sorry about that. I just had a busy week this past week with long working hours and then coming home and sleeping it off. My body hasn't been its normal self either and I'm trying to figure that out so altogether it has been a pretty busy week. I have also been writing in another journal for my health instead of this one because that is important and that takes time too. This entry is going to be about the Saturday I needed after a long work week.
I had a prefect Saturday yesterday and a memorable one too. I met my family at Roaring River and went fishing for about 3 hours. It was an outing for my dad's birthday, which is today. Everyone one was almost there expect 1 sister and her family, my sister in law, and some of the nieces couldn't make it either. That place has been in the family for years and everyone in the family as learned to fish there one way or another. It is one of my dad's favorite spots to go fishing, if not his favorite.
I got to see my nephews catch two each. I also got to see one of my nieces and her friend, that has never been fishing, catch 1 each and hear them scream when they caught it. My dad also caught his limit (4 fish) within the a hour that they were there. They got there earlier then I did. I caught my limit and that was a first in 28 years that I have been going there so that is another memorable moment for me. I think it took me about 2 hours to get me limit but there was 3 hours in between those two hours that I didn't catch anything. Then of course I had to go back and see the Springs like always no matter if it looked the same or not but it didn't this time. It had a floodgate on it because of the flood that happened there a few months ago.
It kind of messed up the feeling of it just a little for me, at least but you still got the main beauty of it and great pictures of the springs too if you took the picture up and down. We, of course, went to clean the 15 fish that we caught after we were done fishing. Then we went to have lunch and dessert at the eating place on the hill. It was a beautiful log cabin like inn and the eating place was inside it. I got a roast beef sandwich with French Dip to dip it in and with French fries as my side. Then my oldest sister carefully brought in my dad's favorite dessert of all time (aka the family's favorite dessert of all time), which was Marshmallow Dessert and we each had a piece of it there.
I learned something yesterday and with everything that has happened in my life recently it was a great feeling all around. I haven't been able or was scared to go to and drive to that place (Roaring River) on my own because you know how I am with directions. I would never what to meet my parents there in the 3 or 4 years they were going almost every weekend and while I've been here in AR. I found out yesterday that it isn't that hard to get too on my own. That whether it is fishing or some other outdoor activity that a family does together, it really does bring back the memories and as you continue to get older, you continue to love it more and more.
You realize that you want to make all the memories you can with who you have with you because we never know when life is really going to end, only God knows that. There's times I wouldn't think I was an outdoors girl/women but as I get older, I like to spend time outdoors especially with my family and parents because that is how they raised us even though we might have not liked it back when we were young. I even spend outdoor times with my friends if they would let me. I'm either the coffee shop or the outdoors type of friend. I would not go shopping at a mall or watch a movie when hanging out all the time. It does calm the soul when you spend time out in God's Creation. It just has that spiritual connection especially when you are getting things from it like fish, turkeys, or even deer.
God's Creation can and does make your soul well. It is the medince above all medince. :)
I had a prefect Saturday yesterday and a memorable one too. I met my family at Roaring River and went fishing for about 3 hours. It was an outing for my dad's birthday, which is today. Everyone one was almost there expect 1 sister and her family, my sister in law, and some of the nieces couldn't make it either. That place has been in the family for years and everyone in the family as learned to fish there one way or another. It is one of my dad's favorite spots to go fishing, if not his favorite.
I got to see my nephews catch two each. I also got to see one of my nieces and her friend, that has never been fishing, catch 1 each and hear them scream when they caught it. My dad also caught his limit (4 fish) within the a hour that they were there. They got there earlier then I did. I caught my limit and that was a first in 28 years that I have been going there so that is another memorable moment for me. I think it took me about 2 hours to get me limit but there was 3 hours in between those two hours that I didn't catch anything. Then of course I had to go back and see the Springs like always no matter if it looked the same or not but it didn't this time. It had a floodgate on it because of the flood that happened there a few months ago.
It kind of messed up the feeling of it just a little for me, at least but you still got the main beauty of it and great pictures of the springs too if you took the picture up and down. We, of course, went to clean the 15 fish that we caught after we were done fishing. Then we went to have lunch and dessert at the eating place on the hill. It was a beautiful log cabin like inn and the eating place was inside it. I got a roast beef sandwich with French Dip to dip it in and with French fries as my side. Then my oldest sister carefully brought in my dad's favorite dessert of all time (aka the family's favorite dessert of all time), which was Marshmallow Dessert and we each had a piece of it there.
I learned something yesterday and with everything that has happened in my life recently it was a great feeling all around. I haven't been able or was scared to go to and drive to that place (Roaring River) on my own because you know how I am with directions. I would never what to meet my parents there in the 3 or 4 years they were going almost every weekend and while I've been here in AR. I found out yesterday that it isn't that hard to get too on my own. That whether it is fishing or some other outdoor activity that a family does together, it really does bring back the memories and as you continue to get older, you continue to love it more and more.
You realize that you want to make all the memories you can with who you have with you because we never know when life is really going to end, only God knows that. There's times I wouldn't think I was an outdoors girl/women but as I get older, I like to spend time outdoors especially with my family and parents because that is how they raised us even though we might have not liked it back when we were young. I even spend outdoor times with my friends if they would let me. I'm either the coffee shop or the outdoors type of friend. I would not go shopping at a mall or watch a movie when hanging out all the time. It does calm the soul when you spend time out in God's Creation. It just has that spiritual connection especially when you are getting things from it like fish, turkeys, or even deer.
God's Creation can and does make your soul well. It is the medince above all medince. :)
Sunday, April 10, 2016
Life Based on Christ
"I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life you will fill me with joy in your presence with eternal pleasures at your right hand."- Psalm 16:8-11 (NASB)
"Let us acknowledge the Lord;
let us press on to acknowledge him.
As surely as the sun rises,
he will appear;
he will come to us like the winter rains,
like the spring rains that water the earth.”
- Hosea 6:3 (NIV)
I can give you a little more information on the Psalm verses (8-11) from the sermon last Saturday. The sermon was about being a community called by Christ. Our preacher went over three special words and those words were: Gospel, Centered, and Community. Not hard to guess, huh? The preacher shared these verses when he was talking about being centered on God. You might ask me why. It is because when we are so firm in Christ, we have that purpose or path that we can follow for and with Him. You will see later that I explain it more in this entry.
The preacher also shared his life purpose with the church and I think it is a good one for all Christians to have. It was: "The purpose of life is to intimacy with God by setting Jesus continually before us in all things." I don't know about everyone that is reading this but I do know that for my own personal life, I want to make that my life purpose now. I think remembering these two verses that I found through people will help me live that way or at least strive to live that way since no one is really perfect. Another thing my preacher pointed out after he said the life purpose was that being a Christian is a long life progress. We can't not win it or change to it overnight. We have to wake up and give every day to God and trust Him with it and because we are not perfect we fail everyday so that is another reason why it is a progress. We learn from our mistakes and keep on living.
The verses are all about following the path God has for us. These verses are good to memorize and always have with you to help you get through things. It just goes to show how God is there for us no matter what kind of day we are having. It also shows us that we should talk to Him throughout the day. They are about God being with us and guiding you on the path that He wants us to be on. He will never leave nor forsake us. He will always go in front of us and prepare the way for us. He will give you the joy, security, and we will be given more then we can ever think of when we think and acknowledge Him. God will come to us and refresh us when we need it just like the rain refreshes the earth in the Springtime. He will be there everyday when we wake up just like the sunrise is. God will do all of this if we just keep our eyes on Him everyday and through the tough times. We should tell Him our praises and tell Him what we are thankful for as we go through the day.
I'm writing this advice and verses on here now because when I found or heard the verses I thought how neat it would have been if someone found the same verses and gave them to me at a younger age but now here I am at the age of 28, just now finding those verses in the Bible. These verses are great ones to remember and live by. Just knowing that Christ and God is before you in everything and on the path you are one should make you at least feel comfortable.
I know for me when I remember and read these verses they also give me peace and trust in God. He knows what I am going through because He has already been there getting it ready for me. Are you going to let God walk before you so you can live the purpose that He has for your life? Are you going to be so centered on Him that you don't see the sinful world around you? The choice is yours.
Saturday, April 9, 2016
Three Years and Writing
Today is the start of the 3rd year that I have been writing about my life in this blog. That means that this blog is the longest one that I have kept going, if you don't count my prayer journals. I have kept them since the start of my college years and still going with them. To be honest, I do look back and read some of the entries that I have read over the past years. They are just great reminders of what I have been through and to where I am headed.
Whether I read this on the computer or from my copied ones, they encourage me everytime I read them. I started this blog after a year of living in AR and since then AR has been my life and an adventure for me. If you have kept up with this blog, you could tell that it is really an adventures with all the crazy things going on, hard times, and what God has been teaching me throughout the years. It seems like my life is only getting better, which is a great thing. As I go on into this next year of writing on here, it will be filled with bigger and better adventures. I feel like God is calling me to something bigger and better.
AR has been my life and it always will be my life and a very important part of my life and so will this whole story. I have been amazed at how when you write your thoughts and feelings out that they really do help you get through life whether you just needed that break through while writing it or needed to look back on something to remember why you are where you are now. This blog has been both for me as you can tell. I had some fun experiences that I didn't want to forget so I wrote them down and then I just had too many thoughts for that one month that I had to get out somehow.
I know I keep saying this often but I will until that day comes if it does. It will be really interesting to remember my AR life this way and reread this someday when I am not in AR anymore or to have my future children read what their mommy went through as a single person in her 20s. It would be really fun to see how my girls will react. I think it would help them more then anything but my boys would be interested to and it might help them to understand girls better.
I don't know what else to say. I wanted this entry to be a deep and focused one about something that is going on in my life right now that I could relate the 3 years to but I guess it is just to say that I've been writing in this blog for 3 years now. I can't wait to see what other ideas God brings to my mind to write about in here. To be honest too right now, I have like 8 ideas in my draft folder on this blog so I have been kind of falling behind but I will try and get back up to speed this month. That stinks because this could have been my 500th entry going into my 3rd year but I still have 5 more entries to go after this one for that to happen.
Whether I read this on the computer or from my copied ones, they encourage me everytime I read them. I started this blog after a year of living in AR and since then AR has been my life and an adventure for me. If you have kept up with this blog, you could tell that it is really an adventures with all the crazy things going on, hard times, and what God has been teaching me throughout the years. It seems like my life is only getting better, which is a great thing. As I go on into this next year of writing on here, it will be filled with bigger and better adventures. I feel like God is calling me to something bigger and better.
AR has been my life and it always will be my life and a very important part of my life and so will this whole story. I have been amazed at how when you write your thoughts and feelings out that they really do help you get through life whether you just needed that break through while writing it or needed to look back on something to remember why you are where you are now. This blog has been both for me as you can tell. I had some fun experiences that I didn't want to forget so I wrote them down and then I just had too many thoughts for that one month that I had to get out somehow.
I know I keep saying this often but I will until that day comes if it does. It will be really interesting to remember my AR life this way and reread this someday when I am not in AR anymore or to have my future children read what their mommy went through as a single person in her 20s. It would be really fun to see how my girls will react. I think it would help them more then anything but my boys would be interested to and it might help them to understand girls better.
I don't know what else to say. I wanted this entry to be a deep and focused one about something that is going on in my life right now that I could relate the 3 years to but I guess it is just to say that I've been writing in this blog for 3 years now. I can't wait to see what other ideas God brings to my mind to write about in here. To be honest too right now, I have like 8 ideas in my draft folder on this blog so I have been kind of falling behind but I will try and get back up to speed this month. That stinks because this could have been my 500th entry going into my 3rd year but I still have 5 more entries to go after this one for that to happen.
Friday, April 8, 2016
The Whole Church
"You, Christians." Never thought I would hear those words in my life but I was oh, so wrong after yesterday. Sadly, it came from a person that I work with. I won't tell you everything about her but she seems to be really doubtful of Christians. She even told me once, "I believe in God but I don't go to church." Now with the response she made yesterday, I can see sort of why she doesn't go. She shoves it off like it is no big deal but to me I think it really is to her. She is different when she comes to her beliefs about things.
She dinfantly does put all Christians in the same group. She doesn't understand that not all of us are the same but yet if she was let down by one Christian then she is let down by all others. I don't know her full story on why she doesn't go to church but the more I talk to her the more it seems like she is feels like she is being judged by the Church and that is not how we are suppose to treat anyone that wants to come and know Christ or testing Him out.
I thought I was only at my job and that my passion was children but the more and more I see different nationalities and beliefs the more and more I become worried about the future of this world and that is not good for me. I know I can't take on everything but I'm the kind of person who tries because I have that big of a caring heart. I got asked the question by her that I never thought I would get ask or that I would be having a talk about.
The question or statement was, "So you Christians don't believe in or like all this certain stuff, do you?" I hate it that she does it during the job because I feel like I have to give a sort answer because you can't go deep with those kinds of talks at jobs so I gave her a fast answer. The answer was, "We don't believe in it but it doesn't mean we won't be friends with you or not talk to you." I hope that was a good and fast answer that maybe got her thinking just a little bit.
I will say that I didn't like how she put me with the Whole Church. I was kind of scared to answer her question and that is just honesty. I have been taught to like everyone for who they are while growing up mainly by my parents. That is just something that they taught us. I have been around enough "different" people to love and talk to anyone. God has given me those chances with missions trips and such so I don't really put much thought into how different people are. It doesn't bother me. When you put me with the Whole Church of today, that did make me feel kind of shameful and really open my eyes up to how much we have gone down as a Whole Church of the Nation.
In a way, I wanted to be apart from the Whole Church when she said it like that. I don't want people to think of me as a shameful and unloving person. Although I know I am not perfect and never will be, I just want to send a Godly message to those kind of people and today the Whole Church is really not doing that. It is not showing what God's Love can and does really look like. I will say that this girl's nationality is Mexican, which makes me glad because I have been to Mexico before on a mission trip. If it comes down to it, I can talk to her about that to open doors.
Maybe thinking about this situation was part of the reason that I kept waking up every hour, it seemed like, last night? God was trying to tell me something and He did and it is all written out for others to see. Think about what I just wrote.
Are we really being the Whole Church like God wants us to be?
She dinfantly does put all Christians in the same group. She doesn't understand that not all of us are the same but yet if she was let down by one Christian then she is let down by all others. I don't know her full story on why she doesn't go to church but the more I talk to her the more it seems like she is feels like she is being judged by the Church and that is not how we are suppose to treat anyone that wants to come and know Christ or testing Him out.
I thought I was only at my job and that my passion was children but the more and more I see different nationalities and beliefs the more and more I become worried about the future of this world and that is not good for me. I know I can't take on everything but I'm the kind of person who tries because I have that big of a caring heart. I got asked the question by her that I never thought I would get ask or that I would be having a talk about.
The question or statement was, "So you Christians don't believe in or like all this certain stuff, do you?" I hate it that she does it during the job because I feel like I have to give a sort answer because you can't go deep with those kinds of talks at jobs so I gave her a fast answer. The answer was, "We don't believe in it but it doesn't mean we won't be friends with you or not talk to you." I hope that was a good and fast answer that maybe got her thinking just a little bit.
I will say that I didn't like how she put me with the Whole Church. I was kind of scared to answer her question and that is just honesty. I have been taught to like everyone for who they are while growing up mainly by my parents. That is just something that they taught us. I have been around enough "different" people to love and talk to anyone. God has given me those chances with missions trips and such so I don't really put much thought into how different people are. It doesn't bother me. When you put me with the Whole Church of today, that did make me feel kind of shameful and really open my eyes up to how much we have gone down as a Whole Church of the Nation.
In a way, I wanted to be apart from the Whole Church when she said it like that. I don't want people to think of me as a shameful and unloving person. Although I know I am not perfect and never will be, I just want to send a Godly message to those kind of people and today the Whole Church is really not doing that. It is not showing what God's Love can and does really look like. I will say that this girl's nationality is Mexican, which makes me glad because I have been to Mexico before on a mission trip. If it comes down to it, I can talk to her about that to open doors.
Maybe thinking about this situation was part of the reason that I kept waking up every hour, it seemed like, last night? God was trying to tell me something and He did and it is all written out for others to see. Think about what I just wrote.
Are we really being the Whole Church like God wants us to be?
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
April is Child Abuse Prevention Month
April is Child Abuse Prevention Month. I will be honest with you all. I did forget about it until the 1st of April and that is when everything popped up on Facebook about it. To be honest, I kind of, did what to forget about it because I'm not in a spot where I can serve or work with those type of children right now. Then I have been thinking about if for the past 5 days and thought that I could write about how I feel now without working with those children. At least, I would be saying something and hopefully make it noticeably to people out there.
I didn't think it would be a big deal or anything about it when I didn't work at the shelter anymore but it does still affect me. I think it affects me still because I still know that there are more children out there then ever that need our help. I still worry about the children that I helped. I wonder where they are today and if they have a better life yet. That chapter of my story will never go away because it was a lifetime experience that you can't forget. I say "they" I do mean the children that I met at the shelter and all the other abused and neglected children out there.
I'm still looking for a way that I can help them plus do my everyday job that I have now. I have been thinking about volunteering at the shelter again once things change or doing the CASA program for a child or two. I have even thought about helping out at a ranch for troubled youth but I haven't been able to get an application from them yet. There are a lot of ways that you can help the children and do your everyday jobs too. I know that Foster Care is a big thing too. There are more children out there then there are foster homes and that is pretty sad.
I even thought about doing a foster home once or twice while working at the shelter. To be honest, that is a thought that keep coming back to me over and over again. It might be something that I talk to my future husband about or maybe even adoption. I want to be in this field however I can because it has a place in my heart and always will. People that know me and will get to know me just needs to understand that part of me too. Even though, it is hard to be around 16 or more of those kinds of children a day and I may not be made out for that but I know deep down in my heart that I can help one or two or up to five at a time in some way.
I will also write some websites and organizations on here that you can look at and see if you can do anything to help them out:
- http://www.nwacasa.org
- http://www.cacbentonco.com
-http://nwacs.org
-http://thecallinarkansas.org
Just to let you know how I found out about these places. I have a friend involved with the first place and the shelter was also very involved with them as well.
I have another friend that works at the second place. She has worked there for about 4 to 5 years now. I have been involved with it somewhat at times. I ran their "Glow Run" last year for the first time.
Then, of course, I worked at the third place for almost 3 years. To be exact, it was 2 years and 7 months there for me.
Last, I heard about the last program through my church at first and then been doing research on them ever since. They are very involved in the churches around NWA. They are the ones that help create foster homes for children.
I hope this helped some people think about how they can prevent child abuse either in this month or in the near or far future. You can also look back on this blog and read my stories about the children that I have worked with at the shelter. Any entry that is about a child or children on this blog is about my experience at the shelter. Please take the time to look them up and read them. Thanks.
I didn't think it would be a big deal or anything about it when I didn't work at the shelter anymore but it does still affect me. I think it affects me still because I still know that there are more children out there then ever that need our help. I still worry about the children that I helped. I wonder where they are today and if they have a better life yet. That chapter of my story will never go away because it was a lifetime experience that you can't forget. I say "they" I do mean the children that I met at the shelter and all the other abused and neglected children out there.
I'm still looking for a way that I can help them plus do my everyday job that I have now. I have been thinking about volunteering at the shelter again once things change or doing the CASA program for a child or two. I have even thought about helping out at a ranch for troubled youth but I haven't been able to get an application from them yet. There are a lot of ways that you can help the children and do your everyday jobs too. I know that Foster Care is a big thing too. There are more children out there then there are foster homes and that is pretty sad.
I even thought about doing a foster home once or twice while working at the shelter. To be honest, that is a thought that keep coming back to me over and over again. It might be something that I talk to my future husband about or maybe even adoption. I want to be in this field however I can because it has a place in my heart and always will. People that know me and will get to know me just needs to understand that part of me too. Even though, it is hard to be around 16 or more of those kinds of children a day and I may not be made out for that but I know deep down in my heart that I can help one or two or up to five at a time in some way.
I will also write some websites and organizations on here that you can look at and see if you can do anything to help them out:
- http://www.nwacasa.org
- http://www.cacbentonco.com
-http://nwacs.org
-http://thecallinarkansas.org
Just to let you know how I found out about these places. I have a friend involved with the first place and the shelter was also very involved with them as well.
I have another friend that works at the second place. She has worked there for about 4 to 5 years now. I have been involved with it somewhat at times. I ran their "Glow Run" last year for the first time.
Then, of course, I worked at the third place for almost 3 years. To be exact, it was 2 years and 7 months there for me.
Last, I heard about the last program through my church at first and then been doing research on them ever since. They are very involved in the churches around NWA. They are the ones that help create foster homes for children.
I hope this helped some people think about how they can prevent child abuse either in this month or in the near or far future. You can also look back on this blog and read my stories about the children that I have worked with at the shelter. Any entry that is about a child or children on this blog is about my experience at the shelter. Please take the time to look them up and read them. Thanks.
Sunday, April 3, 2016
God Will Provide for His Ways
"Maybe you don't have extra money but you share from what God provides you. God will reward you, and your home will not want."- Compassion International - Oliberto Morales Hernandez-Jenny Beb's pastor
I have to remember the title off and on especially when I am down and out at times. It helps me with my anxiety and worry. It reminds me that "God will provide for His ways at His time". I really rush things here and there or I want to rush things but I remember that it isn't up to me. If it was, things would go really wrong and they have went wrong before. That's how I learned this lesson. It just hit me more when I was reading a letter from my Compassion International child's pastor. He ended with the above saying. It kind of got me thinking about sponsoring another child from there too.
I might not have the extra money that I need for life or even to sponsor another child but what is more important. Money or the child? I think the more I share of what I have now the more that God will give me in the long run whether it is money that He is paying back or just good material things or other things. I just know that God always gives back. He will always provide when the tough gets going. To me, when the tough gets going because we are honoring Him or trying to then He will be grateful to us.
Something that I have thought about a lot this past month or so is buying and owning a house of my own. I know that is going to be tough and cost a lot of money but I also know it is going to be worth it. I have thought about only going back to sponsoring one child for now and saving the other $38.00 dollars for a house but then I get to thinking, "God will provide if He wants both to be done". I also just think that if I can get a house I could use it in so many ways for Him and maybe that will blessed Him even more. Not sure exactly how I am going to do that yet but I'm thinking on it.
I also had to think of the title a lot because of my low paying job right now that is my passion and my dreams even. God will provide for His ways and everything in His Timing. We just have to remember that and not be so in a rush to get there. We don't need to have a schedule. I will be honest with you, I am going on my 5 years, in August, of living in AR and I am nowhere I planned to be but that doesn't mean that I hate where I am now. God has used some many events and people to get me where I am and I am thankful for that. It was nothing like I planned and I will say it again later in the year but I am grateful for that.
The quote at the start of this entry was just a good reminder for me that God does provide in His time and in His ways. It might be everyday that I have to remind myself of that quote or a shorter version of the quote but it does help me get through some of the rough patches. When I think that I need a house now because all of my friends have actual houses or I need a guy right now or so on, I say this quote and it just brings peace back into my mind. It helps me remember that God has everything under control and what better why to have it. There is no better way, right?
It is strange how something so simple and repeated so many times, can have such a impact on the life you are living right now. I know that this saying is one of many people's saying to just shove things off and try to make things okay for you and try a help you sort things out. I mean I have heard it a lot from other people but it does something different when you can say it to yourself and then believe it in for yourself. It is like you are saying it to yourself when you know you truly need it and that it will truly help you in the situation you are in. Get what I am saying?
I probably have had this entry planned for about a month or little over a month now and I am finally getting around to writing it. I will say that overtime I looked on this blog and see that I still haven't wrote the entry, I would still reread the title and ask myself, "do I need to really write about this or can I delete it and write another entry about something else since it has been so long ago?" It was the last one that I haven't wrote yet in my draft folder. That is how long I had this idea if that tells you anything. Here I am writing the entry because it is still touching my heart and I think it will for a little while longer or at least until I feel at peace about where I am in life right now.
I hope this entry will encourage some other people to wait on God's Timing because He will provide for us what we need at the right time in His own Ways. We can have everything planned and figured out but God is the last person who gets a say in everything in our lives or at least He should be the last person to get that call. I know He is in mine now. Is He the person who get the last call in your life?
I have to remember the title off and on especially when I am down and out at times. It helps me with my anxiety and worry. It reminds me that "God will provide for His ways at His time". I really rush things here and there or I want to rush things but I remember that it isn't up to me. If it was, things would go really wrong and they have went wrong before. That's how I learned this lesson. It just hit me more when I was reading a letter from my Compassion International child's pastor. He ended with the above saying. It kind of got me thinking about sponsoring another child from there too.
I might not have the extra money that I need for life or even to sponsor another child but what is more important. Money or the child? I think the more I share of what I have now the more that God will give me in the long run whether it is money that He is paying back or just good material things or other things. I just know that God always gives back. He will always provide when the tough gets going. To me, when the tough gets going because we are honoring Him or trying to then He will be grateful to us.
Something that I have thought about a lot this past month or so is buying and owning a house of my own. I know that is going to be tough and cost a lot of money but I also know it is going to be worth it. I have thought about only going back to sponsoring one child for now and saving the other $38.00 dollars for a house but then I get to thinking, "God will provide if He wants both to be done". I also just think that if I can get a house I could use it in so many ways for Him and maybe that will blessed Him even more. Not sure exactly how I am going to do that yet but I'm thinking on it.
I also had to think of the title a lot because of my low paying job right now that is my passion and my dreams even. God will provide for His ways and everything in His Timing. We just have to remember that and not be so in a rush to get there. We don't need to have a schedule. I will be honest with you, I am going on my 5 years, in August, of living in AR and I am nowhere I planned to be but that doesn't mean that I hate where I am now. God has used some many events and people to get me where I am and I am thankful for that. It was nothing like I planned and I will say it again later in the year but I am grateful for that.
The quote at the start of this entry was just a good reminder for me that God does provide in His time and in His ways. It might be everyday that I have to remind myself of that quote or a shorter version of the quote but it does help me get through some of the rough patches. When I think that I need a house now because all of my friends have actual houses or I need a guy right now or so on, I say this quote and it just brings peace back into my mind. It helps me remember that God has everything under control and what better why to have it. There is no better way, right?
It is strange how something so simple and repeated so many times, can have such a impact on the life you are living right now. I know that this saying is one of many people's saying to just shove things off and try to make things okay for you and try a help you sort things out. I mean I have heard it a lot from other people but it does something different when you can say it to yourself and then believe it in for yourself. It is like you are saying it to yourself when you know you truly need it and that it will truly help you in the situation you are in. Get what I am saying?
I probably have had this entry planned for about a month or little over a month now and I am finally getting around to writing it. I will say that overtime I looked on this blog and see that I still haven't wrote the entry, I would still reread the title and ask myself, "do I need to really write about this or can I delete it and write another entry about something else since it has been so long ago?" It was the last one that I haven't wrote yet in my draft folder. That is how long I had this idea if that tells you anything. Here I am writing the entry because it is still touching my heart and I think it will for a little while longer or at least until I feel at peace about where I am in life right now.
I hope this entry will encourage some other people to wait on God's Timing because He will provide for us what we need at the right time in His own Ways. We can have everything planned and figured out but God is the last person who gets a say in everything in our lives or at least He should be the last person to get that call. I know He is in mine now. Is He the person who get the last call in your life?
Saturday, April 2, 2016
Lord, Prepare Me
"Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life."-Proverbs 31:11-12
"She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household and plan the day's work for her servant girls." -Proverbs 31:15
"She is energetic and strong, a hard worker. She makes sure her dealings are profitable; her lamp burns late into the night." -Proverbs 31:17-18
"She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy. She has no fear of winter for her household, for everyone has warm clothes. She makes her own bedspread. She dresses in fine linen and purple gowns. Her husband is well known at the city gates, where he sits with the other civic leaders."-Proverbs 31:20-23
"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness. She carefully watches everything in her household and suffers nothing from laziness."-Proverbs 31:25-27
"Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised." -Proverbs 31:30-All these verses are from the NLT version of the Bible.
"She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household and plan the day's work for her servant girls." -Proverbs 31:15
"She is energetic and strong, a hard worker. She makes sure her dealings are profitable; her lamp burns late into the night." -Proverbs 31:17-18
"She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy. She has no fear of winter for her household, for everyone has warm clothes. She makes her own bedspread. She dresses in fine linen and purple gowns. Her husband is well known at the city gates, where he sits with the other civic leaders."-Proverbs 31:20-23
"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness. She carefully watches everything in her household and suffers nothing from laziness."-Proverbs 31:25-27
"Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised." -Proverbs 31:30-All these verses are from the NLT version of the Bible.
"But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things! Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there. Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives."-Galatians 5:20-25 (NLT)
These are a few verses that came to mind when I was thinking about how the Lord could and is preparing me as a wife for someday. The Lord is giving me jobs that also has helped and prepared me to become that wife and mother that I always wanted to be. Like right now, I am a lead teacher and it is helping me become more patience, have more self-control, and know what peace looks like along with many other things.
The job has also helped me notice what I am good at and what special gifts I have that it is really crazy. It has showed me that I could be lazier but I am a hardworking type of gal. It also shows me that I will do anything for the children at my job even if it means working from or at home. I will even spend money on them if it makes learning more fun for them. It shows that I am extending my hands to the poor and needy. It might not be the kind we think about but they are little children in need of learning things like how to walk, how to color, and other things like that.
I know I need to work on those things more because those things plus more are never-ending things for a child or even for me to learn. Most of the time, I learn how to be a person and how to be more grateful from the children themselves then I do from myself. That is why I love working with children. They are so outspoken and don't even think about what they are saying and most of the time it is what we need to hear.
They are some things I need to work on too. Things like dressing up more often and I think again this job as helped me with that. I need and want to make and sew more things but it is hard when it is only you living by yourself. That one might have to wait. I feel that I am praised a lot more at this job and that they see pass what I do and push me to what I can do and I love that challenge. They know I can do things and will do things if I am pushed most of the time. They take my college degree into account.
It is just strange how a job can prepare you for life but then again my job is a job that a mother and women should do everyday if they have children. I know I will need to learn these verses over with each stage of life and children's life but at least I have a good feeling about what it is suppose to feel like. I even got a good feeling of what a wife is suppose to be like. She is suppose to be there a support her husband no matter what the cost is or how she does it. It can be seeing him face to face or through prayer or both.
I just need to be that kind of wife that will enrich his and bring him good all the days of his life. I need to be a wife that a guy can trust with everything and anything. I am really trying to be that wife. I know I might need to back off in some situations a little bit more then others and I am trying. I think I am getting better at it then I was when I was younger but you can never stop that especially when your guy's or husband work is growing to where he wants it to be or going up the ladder to where he wants to be.
Life is all about learning because there is so many different stages of life. We have to learn in every single stage of it. These verses are just some that I am going to keep with me and in my mind for the years to come. In a strange way. they have already been in my mind so I can't let them go. It is something I always have strived for and always will. It is a dream that I want to come true for me.
So Lord, Prepare Me and keep preparing me in Your Eyes, not the world's eyes.
These are a few verses that came to mind when I was thinking about how the Lord could and is preparing me as a wife for someday. The Lord is giving me jobs that also has helped and prepared me to become that wife and mother that I always wanted to be. Like right now, I am a lead teacher and it is helping me become more patience, have more self-control, and know what peace looks like along with many other things.
The job has also helped me notice what I am good at and what special gifts I have that it is really crazy. It has showed me that I could be lazier but I am a hardworking type of gal. It also shows me that I will do anything for the children at my job even if it means working from or at home. I will even spend money on them if it makes learning more fun for them. It shows that I am extending my hands to the poor and needy. It might not be the kind we think about but they are little children in need of learning things like how to walk, how to color, and other things like that.
I know I need to work on those things more because those things plus more are never-ending things for a child or even for me to learn. Most of the time, I learn how to be a person and how to be more grateful from the children themselves then I do from myself. That is why I love working with children. They are so outspoken and don't even think about what they are saying and most of the time it is what we need to hear.
They are some things I need to work on too. Things like dressing up more often and I think again this job as helped me with that. I need and want to make and sew more things but it is hard when it is only you living by yourself. That one might have to wait. I feel that I am praised a lot more at this job and that they see pass what I do and push me to what I can do and I love that challenge. They know I can do things and will do things if I am pushed most of the time. They take my college degree into account.
It is just strange how a job can prepare you for life but then again my job is a job that a mother and women should do everyday if they have children. I know I will need to learn these verses over with each stage of life and children's life but at least I have a good feeling about what it is suppose to feel like. I even got a good feeling of what a wife is suppose to be like. She is suppose to be there a support her husband no matter what the cost is or how she does it. It can be seeing him face to face or through prayer or both.
I just need to be that kind of wife that will enrich his and bring him good all the days of his life. I need to be a wife that a guy can trust with everything and anything. I am really trying to be that wife. I know I might need to back off in some situations a little bit more then others and I am trying. I think I am getting better at it then I was when I was younger but you can never stop that especially when your guy's or husband work is growing to where he wants it to be or going up the ladder to where he wants to be.
Life is all about learning because there is so many different stages of life. We have to learn in every single stage of it. These verses are just some that I am going to keep with me and in my mind for the years to come. In a strange way. they have already been in my mind so I can't let them go. It is something I always have strived for and always will. It is a dream that I want to come true for me.
So Lord, Prepare Me and keep preparing me in Your Eyes, not the world's eyes.
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