I know this is a first in a long while. I have written 3 days in a row. I have my spurts here and there of doing different things. This one is free so I am doing more of it to make my time go by faster. I want to talk about how my day went yesterday back at my other school. Might notice by the title that it went good and felt great? It did!
I felt things being lifted off my shoulders as soon as I hit the school's driveway. I mean it litually felt like someone was lifting all of that weight off of me. The weight I was carrying for the past two months. In a strange way, it felt like my soul finally got a chance to rest, yet my physical body didn't but that was okay. It is strange how you think something is so little and can't bother you, actually does but you don't notice it until it's gone.
God knew what was best for me here for now and He did answer my prayers. I just hate how I can't handle certain things even when they're not related. Just the thought of those thing being related brings me stress. Brings me blame and shame. Realizing how I felt yesterday, the move was more for me personal then anything else.
The thing I noticed that I missed from my first school was the hugs. Now that I think about it, I would maybe get one hug twice a week from the same child at my second school. When I went back yesterday, all the kids that I had last year came up to me and hugged me. All the girls anyways. Even the ones I just saw last year and weren't in my group were happy to see me again. I even had a couple of the parents, on the 2nd day, tell me that they haven't seen me in awhile or that they are glad I am back. I got comments from at least 2 or 3 parents. It was a total change of environment!
The school is bigger. The teachers are nicer. The parents talk more and are nicer. They also came in everyday with a smile no matter how their day went. I had one set of parents that did that at the other school that I left. That same set of parents also would start talking to me if I didn't say anything first or at least the dad would.
The school I work at now might be one of the richer schools but it is also one of the nicest in my book. You can tell parents have more control of their children at that school. I thought last year I can't wait to compare schools. Here I am comparing school earlier then I thought I would be. Just never thought my personal life and feelings would be involved. Big step of learning for me. It is amazing how two school can be so different only miles apart. When I say miles, I mean maybe 6 1/2 miles apart. It also shows you how different families and people can be too. That is one reason I am not a big fan of the city. I like where everyone acts the same and in a friendlier type manner.
I don't know if this says how I feel like something has been lifted off my shoulders but something has. It is really the parents and the homes these children grow up in and as a nation we are letting our children down so bad. I will say that the set of parents and child that stood out in my group, and I might be a little bias but it is true too, was those who I knew had a strong Christian, God believing background and showed their children how to live in that way too. It was that family that I got along with the best and that girl that made my day everyday. She was the reason I kept going every day, even when I wanted to stop and believe me there are days that I did want to do that.
Now, I am at a place that I enjoy and with children that I can have fun with instead of getting onto them all the time or so it seems. I'm at a place that I enjoy each and every co-workers and get along with each of them great. Where each of them digs in to get the job done. I'm now at a place where I can rest and enjoy myself instead of telling others what to do or do it so it will, for sure, get done. I can't ask for a better place to be once again or better people to be with.
I felt things being lifted off my shoulders as soon as I hit the school's driveway. I mean it litually felt like someone was lifting all of that weight off of me. The weight I was carrying for the past two months. In a strange way, it felt like my soul finally got a chance to rest, yet my physical body didn't but that was okay. It is strange how you think something is so little and can't bother you, actually does but you don't notice it until it's gone.
God knew what was best for me here for now and He did answer my prayers. I just hate how I can't handle certain things even when they're not related. Just the thought of those thing being related brings me stress. Brings me blame and shame. Realizing how I felt yesterday, the move was more for me personal then anything else.
The thing I noticed that I missed from my first school was the hugs. Now that I think about it, I would maybe get one hug twice a week from the same child at my second school. When I went back yesterday, all the kids that I had last year came up to me and hugged me. All the girls anyways. Even the ones I just saw last year and weren't in my group were happy to see me again. I even had a couple of the parents, on the 2nd day, tell me that they haven't seen me in awhile or that they are glad I am back. I got comments from at least 2 or 3 parents. It was a total change of environment!
The school is bigger. The teachers are nicer. The parents talk more and are nicer. They also came in everyday with a smile no matter how their day went. I had one set of parents that did that at the other school that I left. That same set of parents also would start talking to me if I didn't say anything first or at least the dad would.
The school I work at now might be one of the richer schools but it is also one of the nicest in my book. You can tell parents have more control of their children at that school. I thought last year I can't wait to compare schools. Here I am comparing school earlier then I thought I would be. Just never thought my personal life and feelings would be involved. Big step of learning for me. It is amazing how two school can be so different only miles apart. When I say miles, I mean maybe 6 1/2 miles apart. It also shows you how different families and people can be too. That is one reason I am not a big fan of the city. I like where everyone acts the same and in a friendlier type manner.
I don't know if this says how I feel like something has been lifted off my shoulders but something has. It is really the parents and the homes these children grow up in and as a nation we are letting our children down so bad. I will say that the set of parents and child that stood out in my group, and I might be a little bias but it is true too, was those who I knew had a strong Christian, God believing background and showed their children how to live in that way too. It was that family that I got along with the best and that girl that made my day everyday. She was the reason I kept going every day, even when I wanted to stop and believe me there are days that I did want to do that.
Now, I am at a place that I enjoy and with children that I can have fun with instead of getting onto them all the time or so it seems. I'm at a place that I enjoy each and every co-workers and get along with each of them great. Where each of them digs in to get the job done. I'm now at a place where I can rest and enjoy myself instead of telling others what to do or do it so it will, for sure, get done. I can't ask for a better place to be once again or better people to be with.
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