A Whole New Look at Guarding Your Heart

            I wrote this entry out first because it was a very sensitive one for me. I also thought about this entry for a long time. I am still working out some of the things but I wanted to get something out there for other girls/women. Let's just say that guarding your heart is a lot easier said then done. The Proverbs Bible verse makes it seem so simple but it really isn't. I've had my high school crush and college crushes. During those times, everyone world either quote the verse or tell me to guard my heart or both. They either didn't understand me and the depth of things or they didn't care. I will go with the first one for most people towards me.
           Yeah, you want to guard your heart from those crushes but what about guarding it from your first love. What about guarding it from that crush that the possibility is there? My eyes have just been open a little bit more lately when they should have been opened a long time ago. I found someone, a friend, that explained it to where I could understand the deeper things better. The deeper things that has to go on in relationships. I've learned that little things can happen over a long period of time that can get you off guard. Funny that I say it that way but it's true. You can fall for a person without knowing when or how it happened. You can just think as that person as a crush when really they mean more to you. I'm still trying to figure out why I am learning about these things now when I should have known better back then.
             My friend told me something that totally made since to me these past few days. She said, "It is easy to have more of a cloudy view in your mind and follow that one instead of the one we should follow. " I don't know how many times I could look back and pin point situations that I should have changed or not done at all. I remember hearing a voice saying "don't do it" but I would anyways. Now I am paying for it. Little things like sharing something on your page or commenting to your crush or other little things can true bad without you knowing it.
               To be honest, I was supporting something because I wanted the same feeling back and I got mad when I didn't get it. I was only sharing certain things too. I blamed the other person when really I should have been blaming me all along. Supporting things and people can be great but it could also turn into your life. You just have to be careful and really think why you are doing the actions that you are. That is one way to guard your heart. When you take a step back and realize what you are doing to yourself and that other person, it really changing things. I can tell you that it has changed my perspectives a lot lately. 

              Taking a step back is not only for leaders and people in charge of other people but it can be for everyday people too. I heard a sermon on it this past month and it really dawned on me and I think that this realization is part of that sermon. That sermon is one of the last sermons that I wrote about this month. It is either the second to last or the last one. It is funny too in a way because that is when I told my friend the truth was after that sermon.
              Another thing is we what to be desired and pursued so bad that we will end up doing the pursuing without knowing it. We will think that we are not good or worthy enough for any guy to pursue so we start looking and working for guys' attention. We try to fit into a mold that we think the guy will like when really he might have liked the way we were already. We just didn't give them the chance. We didn't really get to know them like we should have or at least I know I didn't do that or that I could have done it better then I did. I think this right here was my biggest problem. I have never felt like I was worth pursuing. I never felt like I had what it took to get a guy to like me for me. We have to remember too, that we are being pursued and it is by Our Loving God. 

             I do blame my high school years for that because I was always trying to be someone I wasn't. I was trying to fake it through everyday and I made it most days. I didn't know what it really felt like to be me and live in God's worth for me. It is hard to explain but for us, women, it usually does start in high school and if not there then college and we take in on into the rest of our lives if we aren't careful. It is something that I wish guys of all ages would understand and care about but we are all humans and we all have our ways of messing up. That is sin for you. 

             It's not til now that I realized that I have been living a lie most of my life. I have been trying to push and pull on my own when I shouldn't be. There is one thing for us, women, to remember though. No matter what goes on in our lives, we always have Someone looking out for us and Loving us like no one else can and that is God. God is there with us but we have to be able and willing to listen to Him and do what He says. We can't think we are better then Him and just go about our ways. We have to step back and let God take control of everything in our lives, even the things we are scared to let Him have. He knows better then we do about our own lives.


Here is a summary that one of my friends said this entry meant to her:

             "It is a good reminder that we all are supposed to guard our heart because it is so easy to lay it all on the line for someone who doesn't even know... We are worthy of love and worthy to be sought after."

Commitment in Today's World

             I know I usually do a sermon entry on Sundays but this entry idea came from my morning small group today at church, not the sermon. It might have some ideas from the sermon but not all of it.
           "We ask you to commit to a church membership for 4 reasons and this is one of them. One of the reasons is the cultural reason. Church membership is an antidote to our society."

             Why is it an antidote to our society, you might ask.
             Commitment and Contentment is a hard thing to do in today's society.

           
             Commitment is a trait that America is losing through everything. We are losing it because people are not trying to be content with what they have anymore. People can have head knowledge and not heart knowledge. Head knowledge is a lot more popular these days. No one wants to get down to heart knowledge because it is way too personal. No one has deep rooted convictions anymore. It only goes through the head and out the mouth. We say it but we really don't feel it because we don't take the time to feel it. I know this is strange but it is true. I see it in people even the people that I really care about at times. They will say it but will they really do it or are they trying to cover up their true feelings with the busyness of this world.
               We think about losing or be less committed to jobs and churches then we do relationships but even these days relationships are with the less committed. There are more divorces because people are not wanting to commit to fixing things when they go wrong. If someone doesn't like a job or when they find out how to work the job, they move on to another job. When a church is not up to their standards, they go church hopping and try to find one that pleases them. Then about relationships, no one wants to commit because there are so many more options out there or they just want to have the fun that comes with it and not the responsibility.
               As a nation, we are losing the art of commitment, we are going so worked up over the little things and so busy with the non essentials, that we are forgetting why God made us the way He did. God made us for relationships and commitment. That is one way people can tell that we are following God. If we are committed to the things we do, good or bad. The problem is our stubborn Will gets in the way when we are trying to do the right thing. This whole concept is new to me and I am still thinking and learning about it too. I mean take a look at our children these days too. Sadly, we are not committed to making them the best that they can be either because we are worried about making the money or reaching the top job. We would rather have them take meds. then really work and spend time with them.
               We let our stubborn thoughts get in our heads and think we can do everything and anything when really we can't. I will say that at times committing to something is hard. I'm going through a situation now that I want to give up because I have messed up and there is no way things can get fixed but I am not the one to fix it or even try. God will fix it when and if He wants it fix. I have tried to push myself on so many people when I just need to stand back and need to commit to knowing them and who they truly are. I need to get to know their True Spirit because that is the True person. People will take the time to get to know the outside person but they won't commit to getting to know the person's spirit and their deep rooted convictions.
               Getting in and on that level with a person is a scary thought because it is a kind of commitment. I mean just friends do it, right? If you have a really close friend. You have to share your ups and downs, your dreams, your beliefs, your family, and so on and so forth. Yet, at the same time, it is scary to stick with and get on that level with a job or church because you don't know everything. You might get bored with it for a few months or years.You don't know and probably won't like everything that is going on but if you are true to that person, place, or situation then you will be rewarded for it in some way. Might not be the way you want and might not even be right away but God will reward you for sticking with it.
             I will even say that my pastor used the picture of a family when he was talking about this today in class. He said, "It makes sense when we call each other brother and sister in the church because it is like one big family under God." And it is. That is why we look for the good in people, places, and even jobs. We know there is good in everything. We just have to look for it. We look for the good in those things so we can keep going. Yes, you might have a bad day at work or with your spouse but that is when you remember the reason you started working there or the good things your spouse has done for you in the past.
            In today's fast pace world, people don't take the time to sit and talk, they just call or text or email. They have everything at their fingertips and they want it like that in every part of life. I am sorry to say that you can't have that in every part of life, especially when it involves people because that is not how our God made His People. That is not a trait of our God and when I say "that" I mean being fast paced and just passing through. Our God's trait is wanting that relationship, wanting to get deep with the people He loves so much that He would die for us. 


Remember this saying: "Our God's trait is relational, not unavailable/instant (for lack of better words)."

The Red Sea Road-A Song

The Red Sea Road

We bury dreams
Lay them deep into the earth behind us
Said our goodbyes at the grave
But everything reminds us
God knows we ache
When He asks us to go on
How do we go on?

We will sing to our souls
We won't bury our hope
Where He leads us to go
There's a Red Sea road
When we can't see the way
He will part the waves
And we'll never walk alone
Down the Red Sea road

How can we trust
When You say You will deliver us
From all of this pain
That threatens to take over us
Well, this desert's dry
But the ocean may consume
And we're scared to follow You

Oh help us believe You are faithful, you're faithful
When our hearts are breaking
You are faithful, You're faithful
You'll grant us eyes to see
You are faithful, You're faithful
Teach us to sing
You are faithful, You're faithful, You're faithful

 Ellie Holcomb - Red Sea Road Lyrics 

Daily Bread

"Take God at His Word."

"Believe in miracles but trust in Him."

"Another desert opportunity to trust God."-Mark

"Each day trust God for daily bread."

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John 4:53 New International Version (NIV)

53 Then the father realized that this was the exact time at which Jesus had said to him, “Your son will live.” So he and his whole household believed.

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Psalm 37:5-7 New International Version (NIV)

5 Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,

    your vindication like the noonday sun.

7 Be still before the Lord
    and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
    when they carry out their wicked schemes.

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Exodus 16:11-15 New International Version (NIV)

11 The Lord said to Moses, 12 “I have heard the grumbling of the Israelites. Tell them, ‘At twilight you will eat meat, and in the morning you will be filled with bread. Then you will know that I am the Lord your God.’”

13 That evening quail came and covered the camp, and in the morning there was a layer of dew around the camp. 14 When the dew was gone, thin flakes like frost on the ground appeared on the desert floor. 15 When the Israelites saw it, they said to each other, “What is it?” For they did not know what it was.

Moses said to them, “It is the bread the Lord has given you to eat.

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           This was my 2nd to last sermon from the big church that I was going to. It is funny how God shows you what you learned or heard in church the week afterwards. I feel like that is part of that He has done for me. God has shown me what "Daily Bread" looks like. It is so simple yet so hard. It just depends on the situation you are in that day. I will say that this week has been hard in all ways. Work got loaded up and kids misbehaving. Then there is stuff about my personal life that was added on to that or vice via.
           God does give us our daily bread/strength for each day. We need to stop trying to control each day before it gets here. We need to trust that God will give us what we need for that day and that day only. We need to trust that He has got the future under control and knows what is best for us. He will guide us with that daily bread. Just like He guide the people out of Egypt. He will provide what we need for each new day and that should be enough for us. We shouldn't ask or want anymore then that. Living in the moment is more important then living in the past or future.
            I am writing this while I am getting over a really bad cold so God really has to give me strength for each day and what is funny about this is that it is Spring Break for me. I had all these plans and things I wanted to do for work but God had other plans I guess. Plans that made me rest for awhile and not be able to think about the things that I wanted to think about over break and probably really shouldn't either. God knows what He is doing and His Ways are the Best Ways. We just need to Trust Him completely and I know that is hard sometimes.

Walking Up

          This is a fast entry but I hope it really make people think. I am sitting in my car thinking about what took place on this day and I can't be more thankful and it can't be more true. I was in high school just 15+ years ago and it wasn't easy at all. I went to a country school and got through everyday because of my family and God.
          It's not about the gun contorl or more or less guns. Coming from a person that felt like a loser and weak everyday in high school, it is more about the love and the people you have around you. I always regretted having my parents at school but it was good because I could go to their office or classroom when I got overly stressed. Now that I look back I kick myself for doing that because it showed I was weak and would run to my parents for every little thing but it could have been worse in so many ways.
           The classmates around me had no
Idea what they were really doing to me  because I was one of the quiter ones but I would go home and cry. I know there were times that I even got really mad but I knew other people cared. I had to keep reminding myself I was there for however many years and then life would be better. I would also be the girl in the bathroom crying at times because my anxiety and depression would get the best of me. I think it was more anxiety that I wasn't taken care of them depression. I was the one that got made fun of for every little thing. I was the one everyone picked on for everything. I was the target if you want to call me that.
            I have fought over a lot of things in my high school years and it's because of the family and teachers I had around me. It was a teacher that sent me to my dad's office to get away. It was my coach that encouraged me everyday. It was another teacher that I knew would be there if I needed someone to talk to and he would listen. Granted it was a small school but that is just as bad if not worse then a big school.
            I am not taking a side but I am saying that then problems start with the people around the kids. The families and friends. Funny I don't even talk to any of my so called "best" friends from high school anymore and I only really talked to a few maybe less then 5 on Facebook. I am also saying kids are good at hiding things espically when they have a mental disorder. Yes, anxiety is a mental disorder.
               Yet, I am over that and I am who I am because of all of it. I am stronger then ever because of what the kids did. I beat them. I didn't let them beat me up at all. I rose above and beyond what they ever thought I could do and did it because I had to prove them wrong in the back of my mind. Look at where I am today! So walk up, not out!

The Exhausted Leader

           This is probably one of my last sermon writings from a big church for awhile because I am going to take a break from the big church style for a bit. I just need to take my mind off of it and think smaller, I guess. I need to look under things instead of at and above bigger things if that makes sense. I am all the more for quality then quantity if that makes sense. Those two things are also coming in an entry soon. I will example it more of what I am meaning. 

Ex. 17:8-16

The Amalekites Defeated

8 The Amalekites came and attacked the Israelites at Rephidim. 9 Moses said to Joshua,“Choose some of our men and go out to fight the Amalekites. Tomorrow I will stand on top of the hill with the staff of God in my hands.”

10 So Joshua fought the Amalekites as Moses had ordered, and Moses, Aaron and Hur went to the top of the hill. 11 As long as Moses held up his hands, the Israelites were winning, but whenever he lowered his hands, the Amalekites were winning. 12 When Moses’ hands grew tired, they took a stone and put it under him and he sat on it. Aaron and Hur held his hands up—one on one side, one on the other—so that his hands remained steady till sunset. 13 So Joshua overcame the Amalekite army with the sword.

14 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Write this on a scroll as something to be remembered and make sure that Joshua hears it, because I will completely blot out the name of Amalek from under heaven.”

15 Moses built an altar and called it The Lord is my Banner. 16 He said, “Because hands were lifted up against[a] the throne of the Lord,[b] the Lord will be at war against the Amalekites from generation to generation.”

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-The task is too HEAVY, you are not able to do it alone.

-Jethro
       -a mentor who loved Moses well.
       -listens to Moses' heart.
       -knew something wasn't quite right but listened first
       -Then, grace and truth from the Lord.

3 Ways to be a Good Leader
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1. Stay connected to God.
2. Teach God's Word.
3. Produce and Release.

      -Seek, Counsel, Listen

      -Exodus 19:4 New International Version (NIV)

4 ‘You yourselves have seen what I did to Egypt, and how I carried you on eagles’ wings and brought you to myself.

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            I love the verses that are above everything. They just tell us about a battle that is being fought but yet even the leader of the battle, Moses, had to ask for help at times. It just reminds us that even when we think we got it all together, that we will don't. As humans, we might take this story and turn it into ways leaders should be or how we should teach and raise up leaders but in a way I think this means a lot more. 

             I think it means that, even though, human leaders will get exhausted and sleepy, our Leader never will. I mean when you think about it God loves to connect with us by listening through prayer and then He will do his work with us. He wants us to admit things through prayer first, doesn't He? Then, God teachers us what His Word means whether through sermons or through Him showing us Himself through actions and thoughts. Last, He wants us to use the things that He taught us as a Leader and produce and release more people for Him. Sometimes, He will even give us the words and actions to lead those people.
           Right now, I will say that I have been in situations where people try to keep control of things themselves and those things fall to the side. I, myself, have been keeping ahold of one important thing but now I am learning that I need to let go and trust God with it. He is a better Leader then I ever could be. As humans, we can fight for all it is worth and still not get what we think we deserve. We can fight the battle but still not get what we want. But if we keep fighting the battle without God by our side, then we just get worn out and sleepy. We get to worrying a lot about things. It takes good things out of our everyday life. 
          If we stay connected to our One True Leader, then things will go as planned, I guess is the best way to say it. They won't go easy that is for sure. We need to let Him teach us and show us the little things that we are doing wrong and that the other person/people might be doing wrong too. When He shows us that, we, then, need to step back and take a break. We need to see what we can do differently and how that we help all of the people involved. 
          Let's try to let Our True Leader be ahead of us and do all the right things for us. Let's try to be a student of the One True Mentor. Let's try to listen to Him and see if we can't follow Him to everlasting life. 

Help for the Hopeless

          This entry is my take on the sermon that I heard this morning from church.  Bolder Ridge Fellowship Church, that is. I will say that these past two weekends/Sundays have been really helpful for me and that I can feel God working in my life because of where I am going now. I have moved out of the old and big and into the new and small. Last Sunday and today have been really hard for but I have felt the Lord talking to me and challenging me through this church. It is like with this sermon today. Below are the verses that we went over and below those are my ideas and what I took from the sermon. This is no way the true translation of the Bible. This is just how it applies to my life and maybe someone else's out there. Maybe it will get them to come to Bolder Ridge Fellowship Church? Maybe I can do this every week/Sunday and put it up somewhere where more people can see it? Whatever the reason, I just hope that it will change a few lives or make people think at least.  

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John 5:5-6 New International Version (NIV)

5 One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6 When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?”

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John 5:7-9 New International Version (NIV)

7 “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.”

8 Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” 9 At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked.

The day on which this took place was a Sabbath.

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John 5:10-14 New International Version (NIV)

10 and so the Jewish leaders said to the man who had been healed, “It is the Sabbath; the law forbids you to carry your mat.”

11 But he replied, “The man who made me well said to me, ‘Pick up your mat and walk.’ ”

12 So they asked him, “Who is this fellow who told you to pick it up and walk?”

13 The man who was healed had no idea who it was, for Jesus had slipped away into the crowd that was there.

14 Later Jesus found him at the temple and said to him, “See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you.”

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Romans 13:14 New International Version (NIV)

14 Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.

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              I love the question that verse 6 gives us to think about. That question is: "Do you want to be made well/whole?" I was thinking about that question during church today and the situation that I have been in lately and I do want to be made well/whole in Christ but I can't do that without God's help. I can't do that when I am holding on to the things of this world and trying to run them my own way, which I think is best. I would be neat if we could ask this question to ourselves daily and every time we have to make a choice in life, big or small. 
               Now verses 7-9 are some tough ones but they show us what can be done once we give the thing/s that we need to over to God. It is about doing the impossible. The guy at the waterside couldn't get in the water by himself because he was hurt. When he tried, someone always beat him to it. He was trying to do the impossible himself without any help. Well, let's just say in my life, right now, I have tried that and it doesn't work at all. All it does to us humans is make us tried from all that worrying and stressing about it. it also makes us miss out on the important things in life and even the little things that are good sometimes. 
               In those verses too, there is a part where Jesus says, "Get up! Take up your mat and walk." Another way to look at it is this: "Chose to obey God's command." Jesus gave that man something to do and believe. Because that man did it, he was healed of his sickness and made well again. Again, for me, it meant telling a friend what I thought because I needed to get it off my chest. That thing was weighing me down in so many ways. I would worry some nights and be happy all of the sudden. It was like I was on an emotional roller coaster almost. I was also always wondering things. When I was doing those things, small things and chances passed me by. I notice when I give it over to God and obey His Commands, things got better, I was more at peace and I could think straight and use what I knew to get the jobs done that I needed to in that moment. I wasn't worrying about what tomorrow held but instead was focused on today. 
                Then in the verses 10-14, Jesus was saying to this man, "Get away from there and unattached from it because you have a new life in my." I am phasing it. It was hard for the man to get away and become unattached to it because he had been beside that fountain for so long hoping to get in it some day. As humans, we can get attached to objects like that, still could happen today, people that we are close to, things that we have like car, money, clothes, and so on. We can get so attached to things that we lose sight of God sometimes. We lose sight of what the "REAL" Thing is. We don't notice that we lost sight until that thing or person doesn't make us happy anymore or doesn't care. We fill those holes in our hearts with things and once those things are gone we try to fill those holes up with something else when really those holes need to be filled with Christ.
              I know for me, personally, things have been holding me back from a lot of things in my life. I didn't do things because of this one thing. Now that I have let go of the things, there are holes that need to be filled with something greater and that only God can fill really. When God fill those holes, it will only make be stronger for Him. Better then anything or anyone can ever do. I need to get off of the merry go round that I have been on for years. I need to stop wasting time when it doesn't matter to people and turn to God and see how He wants me to live. Yes, I do need to make some big and small changes in my life but if it gets me closer to God, then it is all worth it in the long run. 
            That is it for this entry but like I said at the start of this one, I hope I can do more of these kinds of entries every Sunday from now on. That is my goal at least because I want to reach people out there and I even want to get people to come to the church that I do. I know it might be hard to reach people in Bentonville or even AR and get them to start coming/going to church for that matter but the least I can do is try. Oh! by the way, the title of the sermon today is the title of this entry and that is how I will title the entries from church on Sunday. 

The Small King

            This entry is my 800th entry and it is about one of the children that I am teaching now. It seems like every daycare/preschool has a small king in each classroom I am in. I have noticed that id a child is the king of the house then he will to be the king everywhere else. That's fine with me I love to be stubborn and have a challenge at the same time. It almost took me 2 months with this small king but I think I finally got through to him. It took getting hurt a few times and talking stern with him. It also took help with another teach being involved and watching his behavior carefully too.  Took my toes getting hurt and him slapping me. Also there is special experience that need to be had when being involved with a king child.
            Another things that it took other teachers and me to do were: telling him he was the only one in the class, me telling him that he needs to listen to his Nana, and trying the massager on him for nap time only once. After that time of massaging, he is letting me rock him to sleep every so often. But other teachers did point out other important things to me. Things like pushing and lifting heavy things around to calm him down, gets mad when classmates yell in a high pitched scream, and that he needs a bigger area to run and play in. He can't have a routine because he is too smart for his own good. He knows what the teachers plan to do and he avoids them. He also likes to do messy things like paint and slime. He really calms down with those things and he spends a lot of time messing with them too.
            Since we have found all of these things out, he has been a lot calm and easier to get along with. He has also greeted me some mornings at the door, which is surprising for him. He has also played with me more in the gym and even in the classroom. He will let me help him pick things up and he will do it if I am with him helping him. He also listens to me more too. He would even take the sensory pokey balls for an afternoon to calm him down. We just rubbed them on his back, up and down the middle of his back. It was so neat because after the week of this them a weekend, we came back on Monday and he seemed happy and he would even let me rock him to sleep. It's moments like these that I teach even the hardest children.
            It does take time for things to work out for the best. As I am writing this, I am thinking of a few situations that I have struggled in or am struggling in right now in my own personal life. It is funny how God works that way. I wanted this child to like me right away but it took him some time to get to trust me and see that I was there for him no matter how he treated me. Sometimes, it isn't just the child that we need to do that for and with. Sometimes it is our friends and dearly loved ones too. We need to step back and look at the situation. Leave it alone for a couple months to a couple of years and then look back on it and see what really happened. Was it for the best? How did it change? Did I change because of it?
          There is always a story somewhere if you just look for it. I am also a big believer in pray in these situations. God working in the child's life while He is giving me patience and wisdom along with anything else I pray for. God does work in our lives everyday lives when we open our eyes to realize it. Not just with children but with everyone around us. It is time for me to step away from some things and let God work how He wants to work. It is time to honestly trust God with what I haven't been trusting Him with for years.
           

Those Moments- A Poem

Those Moments

"There are those moments in
life that you just have to trust
God with. Those moments when
you can't see the outcomes." It's
heard but we all have those
moments throughout life. Some
of us live like that daily.

Those moments after 40 days
are up. Those moments where
you let go but hope that child
saw the happy life. Those
moments where you hope they
don't lose everything you taught
them and the way you made them
feel. Those moments where they
first felt like someone cared for
them.

Those moments where you see
the hardest child in the class.
Where you see it has a challenge
you want to get passed and later
the reward is greater. Where you
finally got through to that child
and they love you back. They
never want to leave your side.

Those moments where you try to
get through to the ones you love.
Where you try to support them
in everything they do yet they don't
give anything back. Yet you don't
expect them to but it would be nice
without saying anything to them
about it. Where you have mixed
feelings all the time. Where you
can't sleep at night because you
are worried about them.

Those moments where you catch
people doing bad things. Where
you show them some Grace. Where
you don't judge them for what they
are doing. Where you are grateful
for what you have and how you have
been raised. Where you can see if you
can help them with anything. Where
you really learn a lot about yourself.

Those are just some moments that
you would have to trust God with.
In other words, we need to trust
God with our whole life because
there is never a moment where it
is okay or safe to be without God.
You should turn to Him when you
have questions that need to be
answered. In the hard moments,
turn to God and not people.



Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: March 2nd, 2018