Crazy Part of COVID-19

            I am doing it. I am going crazy and it's only been a week for me. I don't know how I am going to make it the other two weeks. I don't know if I can take it if it gets worse. I knew the world was off  too easy of a start in 2020. We were getting full of ourselves, weren't we? Away from people. Away from family. Away from Love. Away from God. It's sad how hard this really is. It is sad how we need the rush of everyday left to get us to sleep or make us feel worthy.

              Personally, I am trying to do things and be creative but it is driving me nuts. I have a few hobbies that I am trying to start. Maybe if I knew when this all would end I would enjoy things a little bit more. Right there, lays the problem. I hate worrying about things. I want to make plans but if they are long plans I might not be able to get them done because I don't know how long this will last.

              I know I am also not talking to myself when I ask this question, Why can't we learn to enjoy the now and the present? The here and the now. Instead of being so worried about the future. Why can't I get that through my head? Enjoy and be thankful for what we still have. 

               I know I am not the only one that feels this way. The news is making it seems kind of scary. I am better not watching the news or what it is going on. I know that might settle wrong with some people but if they know me they will understand. Less knowing, less anxiety. That's how I work most of the time. That is why I am writing it out and to remember how I felt during this time. Come back when it is all over or I have been at he longer and see if I have a different view of things.