My March

What My March was like:       

Word of the month: Curiosity 

          February wins: Started a Bible Study at my new church. It was an online one. 

February hiccups: Prayed less then I would have like to.

What do I want to start?: To journal at least 2 times a month. 

My Moods:

Amazed:  2 times

Stressed: 3 times

Calm: 13 times 

Annoyed: 6 times

Happy: 12 times

Helpless: 3 times

My Habits:

Filling out my journal: 21 times 

Saying prayers: 13 times

Eat healthy meals: 13 times

Talk a walk: 3 times

Go to bed at 11:00: 8 times

Question Log (questions I had throughout the month):

-Will my dad be okay?

-How will headstart run after masks are done with?

-Why after all he has been through?

-What will the world be like after masks?

-Why can't we just love people?

-When is my check coming?

-How do you cure seizures?

-Will there ever be a cure for Altimezier's?

-How much will my bears be in the future?

-Will there ever be a cure for cancer?

What am I curious about:

-I am a really curious about cancer, Alzheimer's disease, and seizures.

-I wish I knew more about how tonstar a website store.

-I'd like to be really good at woodburning.

-If I had the time and money, I'd do craft shows and markets.

-I am fascinated when I look at old bears.

-I could listen for hours to my cat purring.

-I've always wanted to see my dream wedding.

-I love talking about my family. 

-I wonder what Normal is anymore.

What I did:

-March 6th-Went to Topgolf for the 1st time.

-March 7th-Went to Dave's and Buster's for then1st time.

-March 11th-Got my 1st COVID shot. I was really sleepy and arm hurt.

-March 12th- Arm still hurt from shot.

-March 17th-Haf my 1st live observation at work since COVID started.

-March 18th-Had a visitor come to work today and the kids loved what he left them.

-March 19th-Found out how we see going back to normal at work.

-March 20th-Saw all the family or most of it since COVID. Out of state family. 

-March 22nd-Spring break starts at home in MO.

-March 24th-Back in AR for the rest of Spring break. 

-March 27th-Went to the biggest thrift store in NWA. Also, went mini golfing in the rain.

-March 29th-We actually got to go back to work after Spring break. 

-March 31st-Dad had his biopsy. 

Currently:

Feeling- Loved, wanted, annoyed, worried

Wishing-I could be thinner.

Enjoying-the new food I am trying, Spring break

Watching-A Dog with Blog, Full House, The Masked Singer

Planning-Spring break, what to spend my check on

Loving-my boyfriend 

            As you can probably tell by this entery, March was not boring at all. I can tell you that April's entery won't be boring either. It just keeps getting busier and crazier from here.

Easter 2021

           Easter have been different for the past two years. Last year it was because of COVID and this year we are trying to get back to "normal" which is strange now too. For me, that's not the only reason it is strange for me. A lot has happened over this Easter weekend. A lot that shows new life like Spring and Easter should show.

           First, Dad went into the hospital and had no idea why or what was wrong. He stayed there for about 4 days. The drs. did all these tests but we still had no answers. Finally, his regular Dr. came in and said we are going to figure this out. They went ahead with the biopsy and we still don't know. That is where I worried and waited. 

           Second, I got my last COVID shot on Thursday. Now I can be free in life and start anew that way. It is almost Iike I was born again in a strange way. It was like that shot really had to go through my body to make a difference. I felt really bad on Friday. Worse then I had felt since high school and I slept all night Friday night. Yet I woke up on Saturday refreshed and felt like new. So that was the born again and refreshing feeling for me.

          Third, my 2 youngest nieces got baptized last night at their Easter eve service. That gave me another feeling that Spring and Easter are known for. That feeling is Hope. Hope that they will grow closer to the Lord everyday. Hope that they will have a good life especially these days. Hope that they know their aunt will always love them. Their Hope that they will just have in life too. 

           Fourth, came Easter Day and we all know what that means. It means that we don't deserve the Amazing Grace that is given to us. We get it because Jesus paid for our sins on the cross and rose again to set us free. Just like all the feelings I was feeling the past few days. 

          The feeling of fear, sleepiness, worry, sickness, and many more. Jesus has set us free from all of those because we have love and hope because He lives. 

          How often is it that you feel all the bad feelings before Easter but then you get to Easter day and you burst into tears at church because you know God is good? How often is it that you feel like you are actually free? You know He took all that pain away and He still does to this day. How often us it that you want to examine the feeling but just can't find the right words? That's how it is for me right now. That is how Easter 2021 felt for me and what it will always be remembered for.