Easter 2021

           Easter have been different for the past two years. Last year it was because of COVID and this year we are trying to get back to "normal" which is strange now too. For me, that's not the only reason it is strange for me. A lot has happened over this Easter weekend. A lot that shows new life like Spring and Easter should show.

           First, Dad went into the hospital and had no idea why or what was wrong. He stayed there for about 4 days. The drs. did all these tests but we still had no answers. Finally, his regular Dr. came in and said we are going to figure this out. They went ahead with the biopsy and we still don't know. That is where I worried and waited. 

           Second, I got my last COVID shot on Thursday. Now I can be free in life and start anew that way. It is almost Iike I was born again in a strange way. It was like that shot really had to go through my body to make a difference. I felt really bad on Friday. Worse then I had felt since high school and I slept all night Friday night. Yet I woke up on Saturday refreshed and felt like new. So that was the born again and refreshing feeling for me.

          Third, my 2 youngest nieces got baptized last night at their Easter eve service. That gave me another feeling that Spring and Easter are known for. That feeling is Hope. Hope that they will grow closer to the Lord everyday. Hope that they will have a good life especially these days. Hope that they know their aunt will always love them. Their Hope that they will just have in life too. 

           Fourth, came Easter Day and we all know what that means. It means that we don't deserve the Amazing Grace that is given to us. We get it because Jesus paid for our sins on the cross and rose again to set us free. Just like all the feelings I was feeling the past few days. 

          The feeling of fear, sleepiness, worry, sickness, and many more. Jesus has set us free from all of those because we have love and hope because He lives. 

          How often is it that you feel all the bad feelings before Easter but then you get to Easter day and you burst into tears at church because you know God is good? How often is it that you feel like you are actually free? You know He took all that pain away and He still does to this day. How often us it that you want to examine the feeling but just can't find the right words? That's how it is for me right now. That is how Easter 2021 felt for me and what it will always be remembered for.