What Happens Next?

           I am so scared of what this next year will bring. Everything is up in the air from work to family. Will I have to change jobs because of how daycare is going? We have 4 teachers in the building as I am writing this and we are on quarantine. Have been for 2 weeks. Will my dad be okay? Dad just spent 3 weeks in the hospital and got shingles while in there. Will I get to have that dream wedding I have always dreamed of or will the chapel close again because of this COVID?Will I get to live the life I've always wanted or will the world end before that?

           I don't want to have to wear masks again. I don't want to have to stay away from family again. I don't want a world where people are fighting again. I don't want to give up. Why give us this hope when it is going to get crushed again? I don't want to be trapped. I want to be free. I want to go places and see people smile. I don't want to live in a depressed world. A lot of questions are going through my mind because of this one small virus. It is funny how something that small can change your thinking and your life.

             I know one thing, though, that I learned from the last lockdown. Anything is possible so I am going to take time to enjoy the little things when I have them now. This delta virus is stronger then the last and that scares me because it can even tell me that people I know can pass away and I hate that. I just want things back to normal like it was 2 years ago. Well, the virus free way. Not everything that we have learned. If that makes sense. Just wish there was something I could do to make it all go away. It is too big, though, for me to handle on my own. Even wearing the masks and getting the shots don't feel like enough. What can I do to help? God, make this all go away!