Different Point of View on Proverbs 31

        I've been reading and looking at Proverbs chapter 31 with a different type of view. It is about how to be a Godly women usually but I saw it in a different view this time. The view is how to organized my life to be a Godly women. I found a lot of steps that I need to start doing.
         Here are the steps that I pray for for myself because it is my heart's desire to be a women of God.
          - Enrich people's lives
          - Be trusting
          - Not hinder but help everyone
          - Gets up before draw and prepares   for the day
          - Energetic and strong
          - Hardworker
          - Watches for bargains
          - Lights burns late into the night
          - Extends helping hand to the poor
          - Opens arms to the needy
          - Husband is well known
          - Clothed with strength and dignity
          - Laughs with no fear of the future
          - Her words are wise
          - Kind when she gives instructions
          - Carefully watches all of her
          Household
          - Goes out of the to inspect a field
          And buys it, with her earnings she
          Plants a vineyard
          - Dresses like royalty in gowns of
          Her finest clothes
          - Makes belted linen garments and
          Sashes to sell to the merchants
          - Not lazy
          - Fears the Lord
This is from the NIV version of the Bible. I will write a prayer and more enteries from The Message version of the Bible. It is straight forwards on more things.

The Farm Lifestyle

         "There is no better place to live then on the farm."

          I have no words for the way I am feeling right now. I feel like my life is being taken out from underneath me and I know it is for the best though. Another big change is happening in my life right now and will continue to for awhile. When someone has lived on a farm for 30 years and I have grown up on it for the first 4 years and then every summer after that it becomes a second home. It makes you realize how that lifestyle and community is going down. Not many people farm anymore so you want to hold on to the ones that do especially if they are part of your life. I can never think of my life without a farm to run to. Without a forest to walk in or chicken to collect eggs from or so many dogs to pet.
         I'm usually not big on lifestyles but these past few years I'm seeing lifestyles and how I was raised is important and it is a part of me. No one can take the country out of me or the freedom that it gives to me. I've seen that lifestyle through people close to me and through a show and it's who I am. I am a stubborn country girl that likes to have manners and likes to do crafts and can cook and sew if I could find the time to do all those things. I'm a girl where I like to have that quite place where I can do my Bible reading in the mornings and go out in my PJs and no one sees me. I'm that girl that chases lighting bugs and loves to smell the honeysuckle.
         I'm that girl that no one really understands unless they really take the time to get to know and when they do they won't be sorry they did. Not having a farm in my life that I can't go back to will kill me if it happens. I have great memories on that farm and even though I was too younger to remember much of what happened the owners do and I know they will never forget but still it's home. I've moved so many times in my life that I really don't have a place to call home but I knew I could always go back to that house and it would be there. My home would be there. It might have changed but it was still there. It just won't be the same if the people move.
         To be honest, I thought I would be a lot older before all of this happened and be married by now but that did not happen and won't probably but I do know another great friend that owns a farm. The trick is I have to ask if I could go visit every once in awhile. :) I wanted my children to meet both of the people and have the same experience on the same farm that their "mom" did. There are so few farmers/country guys out there nowadays that it will be hard to find that but that is who I am. I'm really have a hard time living in the city that I am in because I get to overwhameld and I miss having quite time to me. Most people have a hard time understanding this and where I come from. I just want someone that can understand and relate to me without me having to explain all the details.
           Someone that knows what the country and farm lifestyle is all about and what it is really about. Someone that doesn't want to give up that lifestyle either. People might not think it is a lifestyle but the more I'm missing it and the more I'm learning about it and myself it is a lifestyle. It is an outdoors lifestyle and you can learn everything from it. Someone that has the same passion as I do for the country. I wish I could explain what I'm feeling and thinking about right now more but the main point is: I feel like my lifestyle is dieing but I know it doesn't have to. It can be something I'm passionate about and something that I push for everyday somehow in this world of business. The farm is more of my life then I thought it would be and as the days go by I am missing it more and more.

         

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

          I was going to write more about God's Love and more devos. but I've been thinking about something a lot lately today because of what I've been doing throughout the day and it is something to think about a lot. I've been worrying about my future lately and where it is heading. I have all these ideas and decisions to make. It is like adult life is catching up to me for once. I also have a friend that is out West of vacation and I'm thinking how nice that would be just to get things sorted out. Get the courage to tell everyone what I really want to do and then do it.
           I've been thinking a lot about grad college now for behavioral therapy. That costs so much money though and it is nice not to stress so much about money and being in debt. No matter what I do I feel like I will be in debt if I go back to college. It wouldn't take me so many years to get that degree but then I think about afterwards. Would I use it? How would I pay off my debt? Would it be better to have a family without debt or with debt? What are the benefits of getting a job to match my Master's degree?
           In my mind, I'm wanting to do it because there will be more money involved but with the debt, does that make a difference? It will also be one on one with children and people which I love more and think I can handle better then a classroom of children. It also depends on the type of child. I'm thinking of going back to grad school because I think there is no way I can make a living by myself on my degree I have now much less with a house and then a family that I want down the road. Not only that but what if my husband what's to run his own business full time and not work? I mean I will marry a guy who works but it would be so hard for him to provide everything for the family. I would want to help out a little bit.
            Not only is there the house and family to pay for but then the cars and everything else. It is not cheap to live these days which is sad but true. Everything is going up in amount of money yet the people that matter most are not getting paid enough. I do have more money then people my age would usually have and I'm blessed with that but I'm already worrying about how to spend it with just myself. What will it be like when I have a family? I will be more freaked out. I'm learning how to handle my money and different ways of spending but it is so hard because of those ways I feel like I'm growing up. That feeling is good but hard. It is also hard for me to remember everything I am being told. I'm the kind of person that has to go through it first hand and experience it even if I messed up the first time.
            Do I want to go to grad college so I can get paid more in any job and maybe get a higher paying job or do I want to stay at the job I am at now and be happy with what I'm getting there? The more schooling the higher pay you get anywhere. I just wish I could make a decision. I have all these great ideas but all of them are scary. I have two decisions I know that will never change and that is getting married and being a stay at home mom in the country/on the farm. If that is your true dream, then how can you work towards that? Look for the "right" guy? There is no such thing as the "right" guy.
             I also know you have to get stable with yourself before you can bring anyone else into your life. You have to know what you want and how life runs before you even think about other people. I've tried getting ready in the only way I can but that seems hopeless some days too. Yeah, I can learn to eat right, feel emotionally right, how to organize, how to cook, how to manage my time well, and so on but honestly woman does it feel like a waste of time some days? You can find yourself (aka the hobbies you like, ways to make you happy, what you want in a guy, and so on). You know what it is harder to do when you don't have guyfriends by you, encouraging you on. Letting you know that yeah you might not be right for them but keep doing what you are doing and the "right" one will come along.
              That is my rant right now. I'm just feeling confused and like I have a lot of decisions to make and it is hard when you feel alone in every decision. Life is hard when you have to do it alone. As a Christian, I know you don't do it alone because God is with you and you could and should depend on Him but in ways it is just not the same.

1 Cor. 13 for a Friend

        Here is another version of the Love Chapter only it is geared towards friends.

        Love is patient. - Do I give them enough time to answer back or get things done before we hang out?

         Love is kind. - Do I have a servant's heart towards them?

         Love is not jealous. - Do I like what my friends have or what they are doing? Do I think "if only"?

         Love is not boastful. - Am I prideful when I share my ideas or life with them? Am I too prideful to share with them?

         Love is not proud. - Do I ask for help or advice when I need it? Do I let them live my life with me?

          Love is not rude. - Do I watch what I say about them to other people and when I'm around them about other people?

          Love does not demand it's own ways. - Do I respect their dreams and beliefs and culture? Am I giving back what I take?

           Love is not easily angered. - Do I get mad when they don't have time to spend with me right now or tells me the truth when I ask them?

           Love keeps no records of wrongs. - Am I forgiving when I need to be?

            Love does not delight in evil but rejoices when truth wins out. - Am I sad when my friend is sad and rejoice with my friend when they rejoice?

             Love protects. - Am I there to keep my friend and their dreams safe?

              Love hopes. - Am I there to believe in and with my friend during their hard times? Do I push them through those times?

                Love trusts. - Do I trust my friends enough to tell them anything and everything?

                Love perseveres. - Do I put my friend to the best of their abilities and beyond?

                 Now how neat would it be to compare the two that I did on my blog and then do a couple of your own for whoever. It is just a good thing to look back on when having a hard time or day with people. I was thinking about doing one for family so that might be on here next month sometime. I was really thinking about a certain friend on this one but then I thought it would be neat to make it more in general and put it on here but you could even pick like 2 certain people and do it.   
                 That's your homework from me and it would be neat if I could get some comments back doing that. Maybe a few of the statements not all of them because then that would be too long. Let's do this! Make it my first interactive entry!

Love Chapter for a Child

        I will give the credit and some of the question ideas to a women's company called "Proverbs 31 Ministry". I wanted to do something like this and next thing I know the ministry comes out with a devo like it. I tried to make the question for my job so I could ask them to myself during a hard day at work.

          Love is patient. - Am I patient with the same child on their level?

          Love is kind. - Am I kind when I have to wait for a child or repeat something over and over?

           Love does not envy. - Do I wish that the child was "normal" or that a child would like me better then the other worker?

           Love does not boast. - Do I share my thoughts and ideas in a helping way or a hey, look at me way?

            Love is not proud. - Do I hesitant to  ask for or admit that I need help with  certain child?

             Love does not dishonor others. - Do I ever put other people down at work even the children?

              Love is not self-serving. - Am I working for money or to make a difference in the children's lives?

               Love is not easily angered. - How much energy do I waste being mad at the children or co-workers?

                Love keeps no records of wrongs. - Do I keep track of things a child does wrong throughout the day or week?

               Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. - Do I keep my mind focus on how God sees these children and not how humans see these children?

                Love protects. - Do I protect this special child God gave me for so long even when the child is testing me?

                Love hopes. - Do I hope that this child has a better life ahead of him?

                Love trusts. - Do I trust that God has this child in His Hands?  Can the child trust me to the point where he can tell me anything and everything?

                 Love perseveres. - Do I keep my mind on what a wonderful person this child could go up to be? Do I keep thinking it is a great day and time for this?

                The last four love statements really get me because that is the reason I'm there for the children. I'm there to protect, hope, trust, and persevere for them and with them. That's my job. :)

My Princess Belle

       "Love doesn't have to be spoken in words."

       I had another God moment at work yesterday. I really saw and felt God there. It was a really great reminder of what love really is. Love is not just an "I love you" every now and then. It is more through the actions a person does for another. Yes, we can say it over and over but until we can prove it, it means nothing. It is a simple 4 letter word but yet as an action it's so hard.
        Another one of my little girls came back but she with the big girls now because she is 5 or 6 years old. I saw her back for the first time at supper last night and she gave me the tightest hug ever. At first I don't think she noticed me because of my new haircut so she looked at me strange. I started to smile at her and that's when she noticed it was me and she smiled back really big.
          She wanted to run to me but her staff wouldn't let her. She did though walk up to me and hugged me tight. I hugged her tight right back and not a word was said by either of us. I did not want to let go of her again. It was a moment that showed me love doesn't have to come with words every time. It can be quite and really in the heart. Actions can mean everything when they are done out of love.     She has really grown into a beautiful girl and she was in a yellow summer dress with yellow flip flops on. Her hair was shoulder length so it grown out a little.
          We get so caught up in thinking love is just show through words but that is not the case. This is the girl that I had by herself most of her time in preschool.  I got to spend time with her,  rock her to sleep, she is the first one I read the Bible to, even gave her a Bible to take with her. She told me everything. She was a talkative one at night. She was the first one that felt like my own child. Honestly  if I could adopted now, she wouldn't be where I work.
           She was my first princess and having a yellow dress on yesterday made her Belle to me. :) She is the 6th child that I've had since I've been there for a year and a half that came back. Just sayin'.

Lesson from this enerty: "Love has no words and no limits when it is Godly Love."

The Love Chapter and a Little Boy

        I really dislike not having a computer to type on but I'll get over that. I'm going to take you on a journey of love. My next 3 or 4 enteries will be mainly about love. This one is where the thought all started about love and looking deeper into it. It is about a little boy from work and loving him.
        There are times and moments where I really need to have patience and a lot of it with this little boy at work. Strangely enough, though I didn't know I was really loving him and that I could have done a little better at it. One night after a hard time with him I came home. Well, really it was the next day during my devo time with God, that God asked me how I was loving this boy and if I really was. I remember looking at one of my all time favorite chapters of the Bible and that was the Love Chapter.
           As I was reading it, I remember thinking to myself am I really loving that boy that way or could I do better? Am I really loving him with patience and kindness? Am I really keeping no records of wrongs? Do I really hope he can make it and do I give up on Him some days? The answer to all those questions were "yes" sadly. So the next day I kept repeating that chapter in my mind and it seemed to make the day a little easier. The little boy seemed so much calmer. Maybe it was because I was calm too and not so uptight about everything. I just remember thinking during that next day "am I loving him like I should? "
           Sometimes we get so caught up in the days or months that we just want to get through them. I realized with my job you can't just get through them. You have to watch how you love and how you are building a relationship with each child. It does take a lot of time and energy but it's worth it to see the changes in them. See how much of a blessing they can be to you after all your hard work.
            God shows us how do love anyone and anybody in that one chapter. We can take that chapter to mean many different things and that is what I'm going to do in the next enteries. I think that chapter and the story of Him dieing on the cross is the two most important stories and examples of Love in my book.
          Love is more then a feeling. It is a life process because everyone needs to be loved in a different way at different times in their lives. We just have to stop and understand that way and do it if we really do love them.

God's Desire Above Mine

        Trying to find somewhere to write at times can be really hard espically when everywhere you go there is a wedding going on. I finally ended up on my apartment lawn. Anyways, have you ever read the book "Kisses from Katie"? I'm reading it for the second time with with a different view then the first time. The second time seems more possible for me. I could see myself in the story here in AR. I could write my own story. I could see God's Desire for me being fun! :)
         The first time I read the book I got back from Guatemala and excited about what the Lord could do with me there. At the same time all the things Katie went through I knew I would go through some sort of the same things. Was I ready for that and could I handle it? Of course the only orphans too that were on my mind was what most people think orphans are.  That is children overseas that do not have parents to live with.
          Well, now that I have worked in a children's shelter with abuse and neglected children for a year and a half I have a different view and idea. I can do what Katie is doing only here in the states. I can build up a home setting for some abused and neglected children. Learning a lot about the foster care system and what it is really like plus the DHS (department of human services) is not okay with me. I always thought those service took care of the children and in a way humanly possible they are but in other ways I think they can do better.
           I never thought I would hear the phase "bad foster homes" but I do more then I should. People can be so choosy on the child they want. I know everyone is human and there is sin in this world and sometimes I just have to let go and pray.  In a way, I could be doing my part too and my hearts desire now is to be an actual house parent and then maybe a single foster parent or make my own children's home. Own a big house, maybe one with 10 rooms, and take those many children in plus help them with other needs and get the community more involved.
            The problem I think espically where I live in AR where Wal Mart  is is that people are too focused on business and doesn't notice the problems around them. Doesn't notice the need. No one speaks out if you want to know you have to get on the inside and or educate yourself on the children. While wal mart is a sponsor of places like these, community needs to see the big problems. Churches need to see the children has a chance to reach out.
              It is a touchy subject but one thing I know for sure is that God did put me in the right place.  My mom always said, "there are children here in the states that need our help too" and that was coming from a teacher's point of view but now I understand it more a lot more. I will do everything in my heart's desire to help the children around me and will Love on them with everything that I have. I'll be a missionary in the States!

Letter of God's Love

       I sponsor a little girl from Compassion International and have sponsored her for about 8 years since she was at least 5. She is about 14 now and she just wrote me a letter that I got this month. We write back and forth every so often but this letter really got to me. She just got done celebrating "Love month" which is the month of March so I guess love was on her mind.
          The strange thing about this letter was that she asked me,  "How's your love life?" Well, for those who know me I don't have a love life with a human but I do with the Heavenly Father. She just said "Love life" and I'm not sure if she knows the Lord yet so I told her about my love life with Him. That question did challenge me too for a few days. I had to stop and think about it but it is good to do that in any relationships. Where are we going, how am I growing, helping the other person to grow, and can I do more or something differently.
           Here is the letter that I wrote her:
                   Dear (her name),
                           Hi! I'm glad that you are doing good and staying busy with school and Compassion. Strange question but what is love month? What do you think matters most when it comes to love? (Theme of love month) To answer you question, "How is your love life", I don't have a man on this earth that I love yet. I'm still waiting for God to bring me the guy He has for me in His Timing. I believe if it is God's Will for me to marry then He will bring me a guy when the time is right.
            If it is God's desire for me to be single and live just for Him then I'm great with that too. It would be great to have a guy to love on this Earth but no guy can ever reach the love Jesus has for us. We all will sin and fall short of the glory of God but He never will. Just think of that kind of love. A love that will never lose sight of you, a love meeting your every need, a strong love that you can always count on, and would die in your place. A love that would take your burners and sins on Himself because He loves you that much with an Unconditional love that no human can match.
            I would rather be in a love like that and a relationship like that then be in an earthly one. Jesus died on the cross with your sins because he loves you that much. He wanted you to be free of all the bad things that hold you down and wants you to live for Him forever. Keep getting in the Bible to know His Love for you.

In Christ's Love, Tiffney

        Did this letter make you think more about God's Love for you?

God is God

        This is a little story about one of my little girls and a moment I have with her at bedtime one night. Children can say the darnest things sometimes without even knowing it. Most of the time it is something meaningful at least to me.
         One of my little girls is leaving today but I'll never forget what she said one night while we were reading the Bible together. She said, "God is God". Here is the whole conversation I had with her. We were reading Noah's Ark and of course it mentioned God. It said, "Noah loved God". The little girl said,  "I love God too". Then I asked her, "do you know who God is?" She replied back,  "God is God."
            How simple is that answer: God is God. So easy to say, but yet do easy to forget. God is God which means He can do anything He wants to. He can pull us through anything. He can provide us with whatever we need. He is there and by us all the time.
            It was funny because I was looking for this big, long answer and she went straight to the point. She thought child-like. She said it when I needed it the most. God is God and we can't do anything without Him. God is with us yesterday, today, and tommrow. It was also really cute when she said "I love God" too because it was random. I wasn't expecting that at all.
              Noah's Ark was the first story I read to her her 2nd time back. Surprised she remembered our talks and stories before this time.

REMEMBER: God is God!
        

Living Sacrifice Prayer

     Put your name in the "I" places if this is you or you can pray it like it is.

     God, make me a living sacrifice for You. Lead me in the way that would give You Glory. I want to live for You. A sacrifice is something you have to give up completely to someone or something. It is something valuable. Let me give up unimportant things for You.

       I know being a living sacrifice is not easy. I might have to go through a lot of sufferings for God. It is all for His Glory, not mine. That is the mission for me here on earth from God.

         When I'm a living sacrifice, I give up what I thought my life purpose was. Then I say,  "Here I am, send me." He has a purpose for each person to fulfill. We need to ask Him what it is and listen for the answer.

          In Christ's Love, Amen

        
        

God Shakes

        Have you ever wonder "does God shake us and if so for what"?  I've been looking at verses this past week with the word" shaken" in them or another form or word meaning the same. I compared the Old Testament and the New Testament. There are more verses in the Old Testament with that word in them. Don't take it has that's all if the 33 verses in the Bible with that word. That is just how many I found in a week.
           Here is what I learned from the verses in the Old Testament. Every time I would read one it would be about a person being shaken (aka in trouble) and God coming to save them. The phases "lean on God" and "God wants us to really depend on Him" came to my mind. It shows His grace and mercy for us. There was a lot of verses in the Psalm from David struggling.  A man after God's own heart.
            Now here is what I noticed in the new Testament. When the word "shaken" was uses it was mainly when God or the Holy Spirit was coming down to help or show people something. That could be taken as God loves us enough to come be with us and help us in time of need.
          It is just strange to me that people think the Christian life is easy but it's not. It seems easy because we have a God that we can depend on and he wants us too. We have our struggles too whether physically, mentally, emotionally,  or even spiritually because the devil will try anything to get to us. We do have to rely depend on God if we want anything done at all. God loves us more then anything in the world ever will.
          If you look these up it will help you see the story of salvation or it did me anyway. God was not there (aka He let us get to the point that of struggling before He came to help) in the old testament but He was there (when we called to Him) in the New Testament.
         Here are some of the verses if you want to look them up: 2 Samuel 18:33, 1 Samuel 28:21, Psalm 16:7-11, Psalm 21:7, Psalm 30:6-7, Psalm 55:21-22, Psalm 55:18, Psalm 62:2,6, Psalm 125:1, Isaiah 24:19, and Isaiah 54:10. Now New Testament verses: Luke 21:26, Acts 2:25, Matthew 24:29 and Mark 13:24-25, Acts 4:31, Acts 16:26, and Hebrews 12:26-29.

God Tugs on my Heart

      "I hope God Puts the answers on your heart...... All in His Timing of course."

        It has been almost a week since I last wrote in here but that doesn't mean my life has not been crazy. That is all it had been so that's my reason for not writing as much. I do have a lot that I need to write though because God has been teaching me one thing after another. See if I can remember them all and get them out the next few days.
          I've been thinking a lot about friend lately and how we came about to be friends. The answer I came up with was: it was all God's prefect timing. It was God tugging on my heart and sending me to my friend when my friend needed someone the most. Some people might think I'm crazy when I say I can really feel or realize when the Spirit of God is tugging or pushing at my heart. I like to say God has given me that kind of discerment and when you follow it enough you can tell what it is.
          I won't go into detail about each situation but I will tell you each of them. I've known this friend for about 8 years now. Scary. :) This friend was a college friend and that's where it all started. The situations might be out of order some but I'll get close to what I can remember.        There was one day I saw my friend on the sidewalk. The friend looked upset so I wrote a Facebook message that night to see what was wrong. I've heard though people and my own observations that things changed.
          I did get a message back telling me what happened but that was it. Next time God was tugging at my heart was when my friend was putting up the feelings about life at that moment. My friend wanted to talk to someone so I wrote back and asked if breakfast at 7:00 in the morning would be a time to get together and talk. My friend didn't get back to me but I got up and ready and went thinking and hoping my friend would be there. My friend came a little late but showed up. We were both hoping each would be there and we were.
          Then another time I saw my friend really down and that is after coming back after my friend was gone for a week. Again I wrote him a message and he wrote me back. A relative had passed away. Another time I saw my friend crying during and after a Bible study that we went to and I went up afterwards and asked if everything was okay. Then during one of our college's open house (that's when we get to visit the females get to visit the male dorms and vice via) my girlfriends and I went to my friend's dorm and my friend was working on an app for being an inter somewhere. That was kind of on the spot moment too.
            Those were all during college but it is still going today. I have given my friend money when he would put the request randomly out there. I have prayed for my friend multiple of times and left comments and emails of encouragement. Like here recently I asked if I could pray for my friend and my friend responded back with some prayer requests a few days later. Each time I do or have done those things it's because I felt the Spirit tug on my heart because usually espically at the start of the friendship I wouldn't have done those things that easily.
            It is strange when you build a friendship like that because in either way you never want to let go. Both of you have been through too much together without maybe even knowing. I know there have also been times where me and my friend is learning the same God given lesson at same time but different ways like now. Learning to trust and lean on God because He has a Plan for our lives. Might not be the same one but God has a plan and is getting us ready for it. Things will come about in His Timing. I know too that we are both big on pray and God's Timing.

What is Unconditional, Friendly Love?-Part 2

         "We Love because He (God) first Loved us."

         I have so many entries to write still but this one has to be the other longest and the others can be short. This entry is another story I promised about the way God is showing me that unconditional love can be given and/or received. I will try to tell it the best I can with out giving out any names or situations that has happened recently but doubt if I can do that especially with the situation part.
         One of my friends has this business/ministry/ TV show that he runs and is the founder of. It has been going on for about 4 years and it encourages me a lot to go after my own dream because everything he is doing was his dream to start with. It has to do a lot with huntin' and to make this story even more interesting I will say I had my doubts like any other person but that is when I was still in college and I didn't want it to happen because he might be moving from where he was and I might have been moving to where he is now. We would have missed each other by a year in other words. To be on the safe side I had my doubts.
         Once I moved to AR and things were back to normal for me I started to encourage and talk to him a bit more and follow him too. I would watch his little videos that he would make and put on youtube and so on. As I was living in AR and still to this day, his show is still growing bigger and better everyday but in some cases I would like to think it is because of prayer that I did along with the hard work him and his team did. He wasn't pushing it much at the start but as the years went on and he was learning more of what to do and getting things he needed he started doing a lot more. He really got to me when he went on TV last Fall for a season. Didn't get to watch any of his shows on TV so it is still hard for me to believe but it happened. :) Now the show and ministry is one of the biggest huntin' shows online.
           The show is mainly about huntin' and land management for deer mainly. It is full of Christian based and family based vaules. It has his family in it and the team is not to share their faith in it. It is about God's Creation and the time spent out in it while huntin' and plantin'. The staff has grown up some way in the outdoors and loves it. It can give you tips and ideas on how to hunt or plant things for deer to come to. It has grown to 5 people to 19,000 people and 4 staff to 10 staff. It is growing and I'm proud and it makes me what to start my dream.
            Back to the unconditional, friendly love and what it has to do with this show is a lot with me sitting on the sidelines and watching it grow bigger and better every season. They are in their 4th season. I'm supporting them behind the big picture. I don't care if I ever get to be on the show or if I ever get to see the land or other things. I'm just supporting through my words and prayers for them. It has been hard in ways for me because there is that hope that just someday maybe things will die down and get easier for the host and he could focus on other things but then I have to remember it's not about a person, it is about God and for his Glory. Yes, I am his friend and I'm there to support him but I don't want the frame. The team and God deserve it, not me. I support it because I want to do it. I have seen the impact it has made in other people's lives, my life, and his life and I want that to happen for other people. I want a impact to be made on people and this is just a different way to reach a different group of people that are passionate about huntin'. I just have to remember and get back on track and I am fine. I might not be getting any response back or I will every once in awhile but I have to remember it is not for me. Hopefully, it will help that person and that is all that matters. GOD KNOWS AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT NEEDS TO KNOW THAT PERSON'S HEART.
            We all get into that selfish desire about what is in it for me if I support them or do this and that for them and really it isn't about that. In this situation, it is about showing and telling people God's Glory and that the show is growing because people are liking that. Unconditional, friendly love is being there for your friend or people even through the hardest times whether it is for them while they are trying new things to grow or waiting on things to you wanting what is not yours right now or may never will be (aka selfish desires). You are there for them for a reason right now and it might be for 4 years or it might be for a 4 months. GOD HAS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING AND AS GOD'S PEOPLE WE SHOULD LOVE JUST BECAUSE THAT IS HIS PURPOSE AND MISSION FOR US, TO SHARE HIS GOOD NEWS WITH ALL THE WORLD! Other people might get things out of that love or they might not it is up to God and them in the end.
           
             I will go ahead and give you all the names if you want to look the show up:

Website: www.thg-tv.com

Facebook at: The Huntin' Grounds

YouTube at: search "The Huntin' Grounds".