The Farm Lifestyle

         "There is no better place to live then on the farm."

          I have no words for the way I am feeling right now. I feel like my life is being taken out from underneath me and I know it is for the best though. Another big change is happening in my life right now and will continue to for awhile. When someone has lived on a farm for 30 years and I have grown up on it for the first 4 years and then every summer after that it becomes a second home. It makes you realize how that lifestyle and community is going down. Not many people farm anymore so you want to hold on to the ones that do especially if they are part of your life. I can never think of my life without a farm to run to. Without a forest to walk in or chicken to collect eggs from or so many dogs to pet.
         I'm usually not big on lifestyles but these past few years I'm seeing lifestyles and how I was raised is important and it is a part of me. No one can take the country out of me or the freedom that it gives to me. I've seen that lifestyle through people close to me and through a show and it's who I am. I am a stubborn country girl that likes to have manners and likes to do crafts and can cook and sew if I could find the time to do all those things. I'm a girl where I like to have that quite place where I can do my Bible reading in the mornings and go out in my PJs and no one sees me. I'm that girl that chases lighting bugs and loves to smell the honeysuckle.
         I'm that girl that no one really understands unless they really take the time to get to know and when they do they won't be sorry they did. Not having a farm in my life that I can't go back to will kill me if it happens. I have great memories on that farm and even though I was too younger to remember much of what happened the owners do and I know they will never forget but still it's home. I've moved so many times in my life that I really don't have a place to call home but I knew I could always go back to that house and it would be there. My home would be there. It might have changed but it was still there. It just won't be the same if the people move.
         To be honest, I thought I would be a lot older before all of this happened and be married by now but that did not happen and won't probably but I do know another great friend that owns a farm. The trick is I have to ask if I could go visit every once in awhile. :) I wanted my children to meet both of the people and have the same experience on the same farm that their "mom" did. There are so few farmers/country guys out there nowadays that it will be hard to find that but that is who I am. I'm really have a hard time living in the city that I am in because I get to overwhameld and I miss having quite time to me. Most people have a hard time understanding this and where I come from. I just want someone that can understand and relate to me without me having to explain all the details.
           Someone that knows what the country and farm lifestyle is all about and what it is really about. Someone that doesn't want to give up that lifestyle either. People might not think it is a lifestyle but the more I'm missing it and the more I'm learning about it and myself it is a lifestyle. It is an outdoors lifestyle and you can learn everything from it. Someone that has the same passion as I do for the country. I wish I could explain what I'm feeling and thinking about right now more but the main point is: I feel like my lifestyle is dieing but I know it doesn't have to. It can be something I'm passionate about and something that I push for everyday somehow in this world of business. The farm is more of my life then I thought it would be and as the days go by I am missing it more and more.