Hearing God Speak

         It never felt better then now to be writing again on a computer instead of my phone. I got a new computer this past week. You don't know how much you miss something until you have it again. I'm hoping to start up my writing back to every other day now but we'll see. I'm pretty busy with work and other things. I do have a lot of stories to tell about my life and work. We have some interesting children this go around and I'm excited to see God work in a lot of ways through me and the children.  In fact, God is already working through me with one and that is the reason I am writing now.
         We have this little boy that has had everything done under the sun to him. Ok, that might be a little lie but just a little. He was taken away just like that with no explanation.  He has no idea what is going on. He says everyday that his daddy is going to come get him and that he wants to leave the place. He wants to go with sister because he thinks sister is going with daddy. He is just a mess and poor baby, so confused and angry. I have never see a child this confused or angry. He has words to use very good words.
          Not to brag, but I seem like the only one that he will talk to. He has told the other staff that he hates them but then again you have to remember what this children hear and just shove it off. We have had this little boy for about a week now and it doesn't seem to be getting any better so I did something last night instead of working on the computer like I usually do. I noticed that he didn't want to go watch the movie with the other children. He just wanted to sit by himself and talk to himself or anyone that would listen to him. When he was talking to himself, he started out fine and nicely but then he started to get mean again.
          That is when God tugged on my heart and said, "Tiffney, the computer work can wait. This little boy needs someone to just talk to and listen to him spill things out. He likes you enough. Why don't you try to talk to him?"
           I went and got the little boy and rocked him while he talked during movie time. Boy, did he have things to say that I can't share on here. He is smarter then we think. I mean he used the words "vehicle", "copper pipe", and other words that you would not expect to come out of a 3 year old little boy's mouth. He talked for the whole hour while I was wondering him. I got bit and pieces here and there but he is also hard to understand especially when he is just spilling out things.
           He gets in his hateful moods and wants to leave and go back and I don't understand it but I feel sorry for any child that has to go through that. I'm sure that if I was treated the way he was, I would be hateful too until someone showed me that they loved and cared for me enough to listen. I might need to do that every night for a few nights and you know what that is fine with me. I love to listen and figure things out. I love that kind of "challenge".
            He didn't cry or anything. He just talked and talked to me. It did take him a little while to get to sleep after that but it got his mind off of crying and wanting to go see sister and brother since they were busy doing an activity.

           People that know me say that I care a lot about these children and that they cling to me from day one. They do but I wonder sometimes do people get why they want me. I see the need for a listening ear and gentle spirit within me and I use those two things first instead of other things because listening to a child is way more important then any house chore.