I thought this would be a good entry to write on the 1st day of the New Year, especially after writing the entry about having faith. I can tell you now a lot of my entries are going to be about the subject of faith this month. They will be worded different but I am thinking about having faith when I write each one of them and if you really think about each of them you can see the faith behind the entry. Then maybe in Feb. I will move on to something different or something more then just faith. I had this thought of an entry for a long time but just now got to where I could write it so the thought right after this was a thought I thought in Dec. while listening to some co-workers talking.
"It it funny to hear younger (18-21 years old) people talk about their "planned" out lives. I used to be that way but now, being 28, learning your life never goes like you had planned it. Strong Christian or not. There is no such thing as a stable life. You have to allow change in your life or you will never make it."
If you read my last entry you will find out that I am really in this trying to have strong faith in God this year. I ask this question: "Is life ever stable?" because for me this past year it hasn't been and it was because some of the little things that went on and that I worried about. This year I have big things planned out for me and those big things are so big that I need to have faith for them. To tell you the truth, it will make my life unstable for a few months or all of the year. I mean they are so big I will have to take time to get use to the things one by one and I might not even get to where I want to get to this year but I can start. That's all that matters.
Since I have been in AR for the pat 4 years, my life has never been stable because I haven't had a planned out life like a college student or a child living with their parents do. I have to make my own decisions and then if I don't like what I'm doing I would change or going away from it. It is like I always have a new thing on my mind to try and most of the time I try it and I don't like it or I get bored with it. I started in Ar with the thought of my life is never going to be stable and by that I thought I would travel and move away from AR soon but I haven't and there is a reason for that. I think I am coming to the thought of I want to be stable in AR and content here. I like it that much that I wouldn't mind living and working here.
It is scary to think that but at the same time that doesn't mind that everything else when be stable in my life. Yes, I might have the place down and later on my own home but then is a career that I need to get stable in, I need to start dating and get stable in that, and then family and so on. You see life is never stable no matter where you are in life, even after having the family that you want you have the stages of human beings that you have to go through and change your relationships with everyone and by everyone I mean family and friends. So the answer to the question: "Is Life Ever Stable?" is No.
That is why it is called an adventure. There is always some changes going on. I thought I would want an adventure where I would travel and have fun while doing it but I think a lot of this past year God has shown me that I can be happy where I am and still have an adventurous life. That is good because while I'm not a big fan of really big changes like moving to another country, I can take little changes here and there. I mean I have for the past 4 years with God by my side. I'm just looking forwards to an unstable life because that is the only way to really live.
If you want a stable life, then you don't really want to live or you really don't have the faith in God that God wants you to have and that He has given you to use. God knows life is an adventure, that is why He gave His Life for us so we would have Him by our sides. He knew we would need help so He went before us and "smoothed" it out but He has to be with us. He gave us the Holy Spirit to help lead the way for us. It just really worries me when people think that life will ever be stable because it won't be because it wasn't meant to be. It is strange because when I am thinking about this, I am thinking about a quote from a friend a few years ago that was like, "Life is not always perfect, but who would want that. If that was the case we would have boring lives." It goes right back to the idea that life isn't stable either, that's just my way of wording it instead of my friend's way.
I would like to challenge anyone that read this to think: "Is my life stable? If it is, then what am I missing or not seeing?" As a Christian, life is not meant to be comfortable or stable, that's why we have God on our side. He will work in our lives when we feel like we can't do it all, which should be most of the time. It really wanted to say something to those girls when they were talking but I didn't get the chance too. I only thought, "Only if they knew what were in the years ahead for them. The older you get, the harder life gets for most people and you will need someone to depend on whether it is God or a person." 
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