Saturday, July 30th

        It is strange that I am just writing about one day but this is not the first time. I have wrote about another day before but that day had more meaning to me then this one and it was more memorable. I want to write about yesterday because It is the last Saturday before starting my 5th year in AR and I took it has a relaxing and fun day because of that. I'll talk about my 5th year in AR in another entry later on but there were just some God-moments yesterday that I didn't want to forget about so I decided to write an entry about the day. 

        I woke up yesterday already had some small plans like going to the farmer's market with a friend in the morning and then spend a boring afternoon by myself until church that night. Then come up and go to bed like I usually do. I think God had other plans though yesterday for me and I could see them very clearly. I had some errands to run like going to the library and do a little bit a shopping so I did that in the morning when I found out I wasn't going to the farmer's market. While I was doing some shopping at Wal Mart, I thought about getting a red box movie because it had been a long while since I have watched one of those. 

        I thought about getting a movie because it was going to be raining off and on all day or at least be cloudy all day so why go outside. I did rent a movie to watch and that movie was "Zootopia" and I think it was one of the best that Disney has come out with for a long time. It had a good message behind the acting and everything. The sloths did get on my neves a little bit because they were too slow. The bunny cop was my favorite character. The message that I thought was in it was "no matter who you are, you can do great things" and "Follow your dreams all the way" and one more thing "don't judge people by their race or a type". 

         I just think it is neat how you could get three lessons out of one movie like that. After the movie was done, it was time to go to church. Wow! What a sermon! The sermon was on the book of  Habakkuk. It really challenged me and seemed like what I needed for this moment in my life and going into my 5th year in AR. I was sitting in church just thinking, "Really, God, You knew what I need for the next month and year". It was all about fighting with God but at the same time resting in Him. Knowing the truth He gave us and also knowing that if we trust in Him, we can see Him do things that we can't even think of. That is just the short version of the book. 

           I might write a longer version entry on Habakkuk later on in the next two weeks. I did a lot of things at the moment yesterday, which is barely even me, because I like to have things planned out and then do them. I had been thinking about going to this concert at the AMP all this past week but I didn't know anyone that was going so I didn't think much of it. Then at church I realized one of my friends were going so I thought, "what the heck! I'll pay for a ticket because Mercy Me and Jeremey Camp is a great concert to be my first at the Amp" and it was. The grassy area ticket cost $31.00 but I ended up getting my ticket for free because the I got there there was a guy that was giving away one free ticket. I guess he had an extra one. 

          I felt bad without taking it without paying something for it but he lifted before I could say anything so I got to go into the concert for free. The next miracle was that I got to sit by my friends too. See they actually had chair seats closer to the stage and I didn't know that until they got there. So we quietly tried to get me in by them on the seats and it worked because there was one chair between them and another group of people that would have been empty if it wasn't for me. Nobody came up to clam it so I guess no one brought that sit. I mean it would have been strange if one person was there alone by themselves, right?

           Then I just felt like all that was spoken about that night was just trusting in God and that He is in control no matter where you are in life. I also felt they put a big deal on our identity in Christ and who we are in Him. I guess I just needed a reminded of that too. It almost went along with the sermon I just got done hearing. It seemed. I just thank God for all of this but at the same time it kind of scares me because if I am learning this now and everything that has happened this past year, then what path is God going to take me down during my 5th year in AR? Something big I feel like. 

          Anyways, there is a day in the life of me entry. I know it has been awhile since I have wrote one of those types so here is one now. Just remember that God is always in control and He is working behind the sences even we don't know it or can feel it. That is another lesson I learned last night. God is always fighting the devil for us and watching our backs. He loves us that much and more then we could ever think of. 

Trust God and He Will Take Care

"You won't be where you are forever. God promises when you trust him that he'll take care of you wherever you are and get you where He wants you to be."-Holley Gerth


         This saying was in my daily calendar today. It really hit the spot for me and what I am going through right now. I can take it bit by bit and just explain a paragraph of what that means in my life right now. I think that is might be how I write this entry. I'm starting with "You won't be there forever". I don't know what it is with me but for some reason I can stay in a place for more then, what seems like, 5 years by myself. I don't know if I moved around too much while I was growing up or I get to bored easily but it isn't fun. Sometimes I get into places where I have only be a year or two and then after those years I fell like I am ready to move on already.
        The next sentence is my hardest one to do in life but yet it should be so simple. It is: "God promises when you trust Him that He'll take care of you wherever you are." The hard part about that is just the trusting part. I know God will take care of me in a way but it is the trusting that is it where I am suppose to be or is this what is next for me that really gets me. It is stepping out of my comfort zone and fear of the unknown. I have felt that a lot lately because I don't have a plan from this life forwards right now.
       It is also hard because of the word "promises". I now that seems strange but it is true. It is just that I think, "promise" or "promises" is a lose term in so many ways in life. It is just hard to know what it really means but I did look up to see if it would help me understand it better. Here is what it means: "a declaration that something will or will not be done, given, etc., by one" and it also means "to engage to join in marriage". The meaning is still confusing for me a bit. I guess in my words it would be this, "when someone tells you or speaks to you something that they will do or not to, ect. by that person. 
       I also like the marriage explanation because that is a good one to think about if you plan on getting married or already are. People are joining in on marriage, not getting married to be apart. You are engaging with the other person while living with and being apart of them. You are promising to be One. If that makes any sense. Sorry, kind of, got off topic there. 
        The next sentence is a good one to remember too. It is: "Get you where He wants you to go". It is a reminder that God is never going to leave you along. He just has a different path for you then you probably planned. It could be a greater one. I know the path I am on now is a greater one for me then I ever planned. I have got to experience a lot of different things that I never thought I would and I'm learning a lot about people and me. Even learning a lot about God and growing closer to Him because of the path He chose for me.
          It is also a promise, though, from God. God is promising that He will get us where He wants us but just in His Timing, not ours. Some may think about getting us to Heaven and that is true but He also wants us to do certain things here on the earth to help His Kingdom grow. God has certain places and things He wants us to be and do so He will get us there and help us get things done. After, we have done the things God wants us to do, then He might have us move on to another place. God has put promises and desires in our hearts for a reason and He will answer them in His Time. We just have to be patience and obey the path He has for us to take. 
          Like the title says (in a shorter version of the quote), "Trust God and He will take care.......of you."

My New Favorite Anxiety Verse

Zephaniah 3:17New International Version (NIV)

17 The Lord your God is with you,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
    but will rejoice over you with singing.”

Zephaniah 3:9-15

God Is in Charge at the Center

9-13 “In the end I will turn things around for the people.
    I’ll give them a language undistorted, unpolluted,
Words to address God in worship
    and, united, to serve me with their shoulders to the wheel.
They’ll come from beyond the Ethiopian rivers,
    they’ll come praying—
All my scattered, exiled people
    will come home with offerings for worship.
You’ll no longer have to be ashamed
    of all those acts of rebellion.
I’ll have gotten rid of your arrogant leaders.
    No more pious strutting on my holy hill!
I’ll leave a core of people among you
    who are poor in spirit—
What’s left of Israel that’s really Israel.
    They’ll make their home in God.
This core holy people
    will not do wrong.
They won’t lie,
    won’t use words to flatter or seduce.
Content with who they are and where they are,
    unanxious, they’ll live at peace.”

14-15 So sing, Daughter Zion!
    Raise the rafters, Israel!
Daughter Jerusalem,
    be happy! celebrate!
God has reversed his judgments against you
    and sent your enemies off chasing their tails.
From now on, God is Israel’s king,
    in charge at the center.
There’s nothing to fear from evil
    ever again!

Living Within the Means

       I never want to go shopping in my life again until I have "real" money to spend. Shopping is getting to be work and more thinking for me then it should be and I don't like that. Call me a weakling but I hate it. I used to enjoy shopping even if it was just for food and even school supplies but now everything is getting out of hand in this world even the cost of things. You almost have to be a CEO of some company or in the business world to make it here on this earth and I'm not being smartalike about it either.
      The more money I spend on the things I need to keep living a healthy life and alive, the more I don't want to keep doing that and I mean the cheaper I want to live, which means more fast food for me. It does help me to see how much more blessed I am then other nations and even people around me like my siblings and I don't want to think about the politics or what nots when I go shopping. I put my siblings in here because of the loans they have to pay back from college along with everything else they have to pay for in life. That really goes for anyone that goes to college now.
       I was blessed enough to go to a college where I worked for my education and I loved my jobs there. The more I live in the real life and get older and dependable in my alone life, the more I see how blessed I am because I went to that college. I would be so freaked out and not have the job that I have now if I went to a "real" college with loans to pay. I'm just freaking out about how I can even pay my apartment anymore on the paycheck I am. I'm also seeing that I am blessed or was blessed to go on the trips I have been on and to help other ministries and people/friends with their dreams when I could.
       I'm helping two girls through Compassion International right now. I have helped a friend reach their dream beyond anything they could ever think of. I have gone places that I never thought I would have gone. Yet, now that I'm going to be 30 in the next two years is setting in my mind, I don't have a real job that I can live on at all. I have to start "living within the means" and I don't think I can do that by myself. I mean I am still single and can do anything that I want and go anywhere that I want if only I had the money to do that.
        God has dinfantly been providing for me over the past few months and I am thankful for that but even that won't help in the long run. I don't want to sound ungrateful because I am and I can hold on just a bit longer to where I am but someday something is going to have to change. I went shopping for needs today like food and higene projects because I had $20 on me and I thought that would get me what I needed and no more money spent over that. Well, I was wrong. Everything I brought was over $30 dollars and I only brought 8 items from Wal-Mart. That is how bad the world is getting these days.
         Yet, the people higher up don't see that because they can get all the money and spend it however they want. While, the people down here trying to raise the next generation right can't even live right on their own. People and parents wonder why the teachers get so stressed and upset at times. Well, maybe it is because we are working two jobs or some days barely trying to get by on what we have. We could be sleepy because we ate the cheaper food instead of the healthy gluten free food and so on. To me, it doesn't make sense and I'm thinking about all of this when I went shopping today.
         It is no fun thinking about this while shopping. Shopping is suppose to be a stress free hobby for the most part. I know I am on my soapbox but all this is true. It is just really dumb when you have people that care about other people and put them before theirselves and yet those people don't get anything in this world. That is how I am feeling. I mean I have even spent money on my daycare children just to do some new project with them or any projects at all. Somehow I am living with and supporting 14 children and me plus a few friends from time to time on my under $600 paycheck just barely.
         When you think about it that way, it should change the way you look at the teachers around you, whether the teachers teaching you or your child because when they get home, they are just under another different kind of stress. We have a life that we are living or that we want to live but we are giving that life up for your children in a way or at least I know I am. I bet you that any teacher that reads this and anyone that knows a teacher will think that this is true and will change their point of views or at least I hope it does.
        We have the hardest jobs, espically the early childhood teachers, might be a little bias, but still it is true and yet we get litautlly another in return. Look at it that way and when you do try and thank a teacher very often and in different ways.

Ever had that Feeling?

       Have you ever had that feeling where you just want to give up and let go? Where you want to drink but know it is wrong and it does not help? Have had people tell you God is in contorl but does not feel like it? You just want them to be quite for now? Scared of what is next for you? I have all those feelings this past week and will for maybe a month?
          Also, have had enough change in all of your area of life that you want nothing more but life to be stable? I do not know what to do with these feelings. I feel like I need to travel a whole month and just settled for something afterwards. I just need that stability in my life these days. I hate going into work or starting any day without knowing what is ahead for me. I like routine. I am a person of routine and it takes me awhile depending on how big the change is to get use to it again. It could take me a week to a month to get back on track.
         I know I am suppose to trust God and all of that but the words seem so simple but the action is so hard especially when you are the kind of person that like routine and to make plans for down the road. I have all these questions that I never thought I would have at this moment of my life because I didn't think I would ever need them but boy, was I wrong. I was suppose to be married or on my way to getting married and having a family or that was my plan in high school. I still want a husband and a family. That is a desire of my heart but how am I suppose to get those things when I can't even run my own life.
         I want to be firm footed in my life. I want to get to a place where I can be happy all the time. I want to be at a place that doesn't change every 6 months or 3 years. I am a person of long commitment for all things not just marriage. Then, again, it also doesn't help that it seems like I have it all together from the outside. I might seem like this stubborn, determined, country girl that has it all together even at the hardest of times but I don't. I just know how to hide it at best because I have been doing that all my life. Then I get to thinking, "What guy would want a girl that is determined and stubborn?" A guy can't save that type of girl because they don't know how she really feels. The guy would have to get thinking and talking deep to me and no guy has came along yet that wants to do that.
        It is just another feeling that I have. I can be independent all I want but I will never get a husband that way. Another feeling is that I feel alone a lot of the times and not just my living or job situation but also my stage of life. I feel like no one understands me or they are all too busy to really care what I am feeling. I know they are not but it downs't help when there is also a lot going on in your family and everybody is spilt every which way and yours is the least important right now. That is how I feel at least because I am just moving down the street, maybe? Everyone else's events are in place and set on a date and I am just here waiting like I have been doing for half of my life.
       I'm single but I am ready for any kind of commitment and when I say any kind I mean: in a job, in a relationship, and all the other areas of life. I just hate thinking about moving every 5 years again and again and then it would take me a year to get use to the new place. I just people would just understand me right now and try to keep my life as stable as possible. Why can't I start a dream of my own and just stick with it like everyone else does? Whether it is starting my own business or going back to college? Why am I thinking that I can't stick to something while I am single and keep busy? Guys like girls that are "settled down" but up for an adventure, right?
        Yes, I am up for new adventures but not all at the same time and not every other week or every month. I need them spread out so I can enjoy life more instead of being stressed out and anxious all the time. I don't remember a time lately that I actually felt peace come over me and I know I haven't had time to read a book or do a craft. I am either sleepy from keeping up with the week and trying to do everything right at work to coming home and packing or worrying about work. I just don't know if it is just my personality but I know I need to work on trusting a lot more but how can I trust someone when they let you down or always take people away from me.
         How can I trust them when they don't listen to what I have to say? How can I trust them if they don't do what I say? I might get a lot of comments about this entry but people need to know that I am just stressed out with everything and instead of telling me what to do and giving me all the load. I need half of the load and a lot of encouragement because it is hard when you are 28 and not where you thought you would be at this time in life. It is also hard when you have to prove to people that you knew 10 years ago that you did make something of yourself for those 10 years but now you have no idea what is going to happen for the next 10 years.
          I guess I don't get this whole guy/girl thing and I really wish that I could just have a guy friend that would answer these questions but no guy ever wants to talk to me because I get deep really fast and they are all too busy. Deepness and being real is my personality and I would and do do it with anyone. Girl or guy? Might not be good in the long run but there are other ways I can show a guy I like him besides just that. Anyways, that is my mind speaking for the day. Sorry it is so long and that I am only writing personal things on the weekends lately. Hopefully, I can get back to writing every other day very soon.

Psalms 23 for Anxiety

Psalm 23New International Version (NIV)

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2     He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3     he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.
⁶ Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

Psalms 27 for Anxiety

Psalm 27New International Version (NIV)

Psalm 27

Of David.

1 The Lord is my light and my salvation—
    whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life—
    of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked advance against me
    to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
    who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
    my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
    even then I will be confident.

4 One thing I ask from the Lord,
    this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
    and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
    he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
    and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
    above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
    I will sing and make music to the Lord.

7 Hear my voice when I call, Lord;
    be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
    Your face, Lord, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
    do not turn your servant away in anger;
    you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
    God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
    the Lord will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, Lord;
    lead me in a straight path
    because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
    for false witnesses rise up against me,
    spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord.

The Armor of God

      I am going to spend some time writing another blog this morning. It has been over a week since I have written one on here and I am already behind on my entries for this month. I portably won't even have 10 entries because this month has been so busy for me and a little stressful. What I am going to write about today is the Bible study that I have been going to this summer. It is called: "The Armor of God" by Priscilla Shirer. I can say that it has changed and challenged my life in ways that not every Bible Study as. I think this is the strongest study that I have taken in awhile. It is my new favorite.
       "The Armor of God" Bible Study is based on the verses in Eph. that tell you about the basic armory of God. Each week is about one part of the armor and how we can actually put in on and live it out in our lives. To be honest, I have heard verses 10-19 over and over in my Christian walk because that is one of the main stories that is peached throughout the churches but Priscilla took it deeper, which knowing me that is what I need on most things. Preachers would usually take one Sunday and just talk about the verses as a summary but Priscilla takes 7 weeks to describe each part of the armor.
         Week one was prayer, which really got to me because that is my stress reliever for life. Week two was loins with truth, which explained a lot more about what Truth really is and that there are 3 or 4 different kinds of truth that we could be living but only one is the best out of all of them. Week 3 was the breastplate of righteousness, which is explained the word and idea of righteousness better for me. Week 4 was shoding your feet with the gospel of peace and boy, do I ever need to understand what real peace is from God, even in the mist of chaos. I really learned a lot about it that week.
         Now we are on week five, which is the shield of faith. I haven't done any of the study yet but I have a feeling that it is really going to challenge me to get out of my comfort zone. It is so strange how, for me, God knows what Bible study I need at the right time and for that chapter of my life. I have never really thought about looking deeper into the Armor of God but there is so much more behind every piece then we really know. I am seeing that Paul knew what he was writing about when he challenged the people of that time to do. It isn't really all Paul's doing because God gave him the idea and words to speak to those people.
            I know I used to think that the armor of God was just something for those people during Paul's days. Yes, I knew we were supposed to have faith, peace, righteousness, and so on but I didn't know how we should really get it. I didn't know that we could actually pray to have those things put on us. I didn't know why Paul picked the Roman soldiers' armor to describe what God wanted from us. When you really look into the Roman soldiers' armor and at the verses it all make sense in an odd way but isn't that how God usually works.
             In this study, Priscilla even describes the words "shoding" and "girded", which we don't hear a lot in today's world but yet again it makes sense. "Girded" means you gather things up in a belt or band of some sort. It also means to "enclose" or  "in hem". The meaning I like to use, since it is used with Truth, is "to prepare oneself for battle". "Shoding" means to me "standing firm in place" or "not moving one bit" or "really good stability". Funny because I couldn't find that word in my online dictionary. These are just some examples of this strong and life changing study.
            As you can see, the verses in the Bible have so much more meaning behind them but today's world is just so fast that we don't take time to think about the deeper meaning of things that are the most important. I will say to that this study comes with videos of Priscilla Shirer teaching the lessons and getting us started with the lessons. It is like she talks about the faith chapter and then we do it for a week and then come back and talk about it in small groups. Then it is watching the video for the next week and so on. I would also like to say that Priscilla Shirer has became my new favorite women's Bible Study speaker, even for me, past Beth Moore and all the others out there for this moment in my life.
              This is the second study that I have done of hers with my church. The another one was just about taking things one step at a time. It was about learning how to "Breathe" (aka take a break for God every once in awhile). I hope this shows you a little of what I am learning in my life right now and kind of where I am at in my life too. God knows what I need right when I need it. I am scared that He is teaching me to actually put on the Armor of God but I know I shouldn't be because God is with me all the time especially if I have the Armor on.
              Hope you will take the time to look deeper into the Armor of God, whether on your own or with this Bible study. It is also a good one to do alone. Digging deeper in God's Word always makes us stronger. This is a Bible study that I can say has grown me and challenged me a lot. I felt like I have grown in just these 4 weeks that I have been going to it. Just with what I am learning with it. Hope you grow in your Walk with Christ with it too.

How Does the Holy Spirit Work?

         How does the Holy Spirit work? That is a question that I have been asking myself ever since I have moved and started going to church here in NWA. When I was growing up, you never would here much about who and what the Holy Spirit was or how it worked in your life. It was a topic that was usually left out in church sermons and Bible lessons/studies. I really remember first hearing about it when I started my life here in AR and at Fellowship Bible Church. Since then, I have seen how it has worked in my life and the lives of the people around me.
          I am going to give you an example of what happened just recently in my life that made me think about the Holy Spirit and how it does work. When I was growing up, I always knew that the Holy Spirit moved in some way and form. For me, it would be getting the shivers or crying but I never heard of it as talking to a person. I guess you could say that those two things were kind of like talking to me but I can even here the Holy Spirit more since I have learned about it more and more through these past few years. I have also learned a lot about myself in these past few years too.
           I was talking to a friend last night after our prayer meeting about a lot of different things but we got on the subject of boyfriends and marriage. She was telling me about on of her old boyfriend and how she didn't feel right about marrying him. Something that hit me, when she was telling me the story, was this: She felt like the Holy Spirit was telling her to break it off with him. She knew something was going on and that he wasn't the right one for her but she didn't know why. She, of course, learned later on why and thanked God that she did break it off. She gives all the credit to the Holy Spirit for leading her to do that.
             I recently had an experience where I could have and should have been the first one to call it off myself. It wasted so much of my energy these pat few months but I was just scared of how the situation was going to go. I'm not the kind of person that let people down but why can't I be especially if they aren't treating me right. I see this kind of pattern in my life when I look back at my crushes. When I really get to like a boy, things happen. I start to really get to know them and get close to them and then I feel like the Holy Spirit is telling me to push on or stop what I am doing. I was very stubborn with this last guy.
             So stubborn that he had to tell me how he felt and where I said that was all I needed to know. In the past, I have let guys know right off the bat that I have a crush on them or ask if they want to hang out sometime and they always say "no" or "leave me alone" and I am fine with that. Might take me a few days to get over it depending on how long I have know the guy but still it was fine and easy. There was something about this one guy that I was stubborn about. I guess I just kept hoping that he was different then all the other guys that I have known but again he is a guy so not really.
               I do respect him for telling me straight out finally that he doesn't feel the same way I do about him. It was when I could get my feelings out and be fine with it but I should have done it a lot sooner then I did. I made myself wait and it just got worse by the moment. I done things that I probably should't have and asked things I probably shouldn't have just because I was trying to keep a hold of him when really I should have been letting go. He find this interesting or be mad, who knows, if he found this out but it has been 6 months to a year that I have felt something in my body saying that I just need to tell him and get it over with so I can more on with my life.
                Over the 6 months to a year and maybe even longer, it wouldn't happen every day but there were moments where I would think about "what would happen if I did tell him", "should I tell him", "how do I tell him", and more. At those moments, I just thought I was going crazy and/or just having a bad day which could be both but know that I look back I knew it was something else. After listening to my friend's story, I know it is something else. It was/is the Holy Spirit speaking through me about the relationship. I should have told him instead of the other way around like it did happen. God was just, probably, trying to keep me safe from something. Even though, it might take me awhile to find out or maybe I never will find out but I knew that God was keeping me safe from something.
               As I look at it this way, I am glad he told me straight out because not only is he saving me from something and maybe for someone else but at the same time it shows me how much God loves me. It shows me that no matter how many times I hear God and am too stubborn to do what He says. He will always find a way to get through to me. God will always keep me safe, even when I don't know what He is doing or don't like how He is doing it. It also shows me that I better hear Him the first time or the second time because the third time will be in a tougher way.
              It could be as little as either one of us are ready spiritually for a relationship to something as big as him not wanting me involved in any part of his life because he has all the people he needs in his life. I just realized this last night so I am still working on it a little bit and trying to understand things but it is only helping me grow in God and to see things from God's point of view, which is the best point of view ever. God does keep us safe all the time but sometimes it will look different then what we would have expected. We might not even know from what just yet but God see the bigger picture of our lives and He knows what is to come next.
              He can see both paths, the good and bad ones, if we make a certain choice. He does his darnest to make sure He can get us on the good path. He takes things away that will lead us down the bad path. Ever thought about things that way?