How Does the Holy Spirit Work?

         How does the Holy Spirit work? That is a question that I have been asking myself ever since I have moved and started going to church here in NWA. When I was growing up, you never would here much about who and what the Holy Spirit was or how it worked in your life. It was a topic that was usually left out in church sermons and Bible lessons/studies. I really remember first hearing about it when I started my life here in AR and at Fellowship Bible Church. Since then, I have seen how it has worked in my life and the lives of the people around me.
          I am going to give you an example of what happened just recently in my life that made me think about the Holy Spirit and how it does work. When I was growing up, I always knew that the Holy Spirit moved in some way and form. For me, it would be getting the shivers or crying but I never heard of it as talking to a person. I guess you could say that those two things were kind of like talking to me but I can even here the Holy Spirit more since I have learned about it more and more through these past few years. I have also learned a lot about myself in these past few years too.
           I was talking to a friend last night after our prayer meeting about a lot of different things but we got on the subject of boyfriends and marriage. She was telling me about on of her old boyfriend and how she didn't feel right about marrying him. Something that hit me, when she was telling me the story, was this: She felt like the Holy Spirit was telling her to break it off with him. She knew something was going on and that he wasn't the right one for her but she didn't know why. She, of course, learned later on why and thanked God that she did break it off. She gives all the credit to the Holy Spirit for leading her to do that.
             I recently had an experience where I could have and should have been the first one to call it off myself. It wasted so much of my energy these pat few months but I was just scared of how the situation was going to go. I'm not the kind of person that let people down but why can't I be especially if they aren't treating me right. I see this kind of pattern in my life when I look back at my crushes. When I really get to like a boy, things happen. I start to really get to know them and get close to them and then I feel like the Holy Spirit is telling me to push on or stop what I am doing. I was very stubborn with this last guy.
             So stubborn that he had to tell me how he felt and where I said that was all I needed to know. In the past, I have let guys know right off the bat that I have a crush on them or ask if they want to hang out sometime and they always say "no" or "leave me alone" and I am fine with that. Might take me a few days to get over it depending on how long I have know the guy but still it was fine and easy. There was something about this one guy that I was stubborn about. I guess I just kept hoping that he was different then all the other guys that I have known but again he is a guy so not really.
               I do respect him for telling me straight out finally that he doesn't feel the same way I do about him. It was when I could get my feelings out and be fine with it but I should have done it a lot sooner then I did. I made myself wait and it just got worse by the moment. I done things that I probably should't have and asked things I probably shouldn't have just because I was trying to keep a hold of him when really I should have been letting go. He find this interesting or be mad, who knows, if he found this out but it has been 6 months to a year that I have felt something in my body saying that I just need to tell him and get it over with so I can more on with my life.
                Over the 6 months to a year and maybe even longer, it wouldn't happen every day but there were moments where I would think about "what would happen if I did tell him", "should I tell him", "how do I tell him", and more. At those moments, I just thought I was going crazy and/or just having a bad day which could be both but know that I look back I knew it was something else. After listening to my friend's story, I know it is something else. It was/is the Holy Spirit speaking through me about the relationship. I should have told him instead of the other way around like it did happen. God was just, probably, trying to keep me safe from something. Even though, it might take me awhile to find out or maybe I never will find out but I knew that God was keeping me safe from something.
               As I look at it this way, I am glad he told me straight out because not only is he saving me from something and maybe for someone else but at the same time it shows me how much God loves me. It shows me that no matter how many times I hear God and am too stubborn to do what He says. He will always find a way to get through to me. God will always keep me safe, even when I don't know what He is doing or don't like how He is doing it. It also shows me that I better hear Him the first time or the second time because the third time will be in a tougher way.
              It could be as little as either one of us are ready spiritually for a relationship to something as big as him not wanting me involved in any part of his life because he has all the people he needs in his life. I just realized this last night so I am still working on it a little bit and trying to understand things but it is only helping me grow in God and to see things from God's point of view, which is the best point of view ever. God does keep us safe all the time but sometimes it will look different then what we would have expected. We might not even know from what just yet but God see the bigger picture of our lives and He knows what is to come next.
              He can see both paths, the good and bad ones, if we make a certain choice. He does his darnest to make sure He can get us on the good path. He takes things away that will lead us down the bad path. Ever thought about things that way?