I have been thinking a lot lately about how strong of a woman I am and can continue to be. I even woke up this morning thinking about it and that is why I am writing this blog at 6:00 in the morning. Along with the strength, I can also be pretty picky too. I thought about it more this past weekend and discovered that I can make it on my own if I had to. I still have graduate college to go to and keep me busy and then settling in that new career field after that.
It is also strange how guys these days are scared of the strong woman around them. They would rather have a weak one that they can walk all over. I can tell you one thing a guy, no matter how good looking, will never do that to me. I would rather be single then have that for the rest of my life. It also makes me wonder why do guys distance themselves away from a good, strong woman without talking to them about things first.
A strong women seems like something a guy doesn't want in this day and age. It seems like they don't want a family to raise or be in charge of. I guess I am just a little strong on this subject because I have never had a good guy friend in my life and when I try they always take my kindness to mean something else. I have a caring heart for people in general but I think guys take that in another way. We talk about not being more then friends and then that's it no more talking to him. In today's world, it is all about business so if you are not in a business, you are not living.
I would love to even talk to a guy about the things he does face to face and if need be explain my side of the story. It is funny how sometimes a guy won't even let you do that. The world today just seems to put a downer on girl and guy friendships. It is always perceived as the two going out or dating. I mean I know there is a line for safety at some point but you have to give people a chance.
They want to work til their heart is content and they want their wives to do the same. The type of women I want to be might be a picky one and an old style but that is just how I was raised and want I love. I am all about the family style life and having one or two simple jobs/ministries that let people stay in the country. I am for having an 8-5 job and then bing home together as a family but now days it is hard to find that lifestyle. It is, for sure, not a lifestyle in the big city so we might need to do something about that in life but still it can be done in it.
Call me old when I am only 28 years old and maybe my heart is old because those are my passions. I miss the good old days when nature and outdoors were everything. When you weren't see children on phones and computers or iPads. Where the children could go outdoors with bare feet. A strong woman can live in a business world but I'll be honest sometimes this strong women gets weak and can't take it anymore. She can only take so much of it too. It has made me to where I am at the point of just crying my eyes out to God. I need that country setting to keep my strong. This city setting is not for me at all and never will be.
I am just in that awkward stage in my life right now. I am trying to get use to being single and be okay with it but at the same time I want to be married and have a family. It is like if I am going to be single the rest of my life what will I do with it and will I be happy doing it. I am scared that I might be single for the rest of it because that is how it feels right now. In a way, I am feeling like I am doing it alone here on earth but I know I am not totally alone.
Single or married. Strong man or none. I will always have the Strongest Man by my side that will love me always. That Man is Jesus Christ for better or for worse. For sickness or health. He will always be my One and Only. :) I am OKAY with that.
I will keep this entry short because I want it to stay to the point. I hope it makes some sense too and people could, kind of, understand what I am feeling right now in life.
It is also strange how guys these days are scared of the strong woman around them. They would rather have a weak one that they can walk all over. I can tell you one thing a guy, no matter how good looking, will never do that to me. I would rather be single then have that for the rest of my life. It also makes me wonder why do guys distance themselves away from a good, strong woman without talking to them about things first.
A strong women seems like something a guy doesn't want in this day and age. It seems like they don't want a family to raise or be in charge of. I guess I am just a little strong on this subject because I have never had a good guy friend in my life and when I try they always take my kindness to mean something else. I have a caring heart for people in general but I think guys take that in another way. We talk about not being more then friends and then that's it no more talking to him. In today's world, it is all about business so if you are not in a business, you are not living.
I would love to even talk to a guy about the things he does face to face and if need be explain my side of the story. It is funny how sometimes a guy won't even let you do that. The world today just seems to put a downer on girl and guy friendships. It is always perceived as the two going out or dating. I mean I know there is a line for safety at some point but you have to give people a chance.
They want to work til their heart is content and they want their wives to do the same. The type of women I want to be might be a picky one and an old style but that is just how I was raised and want I love. I am all about the family style life and having one or two simple jobs/ministries that let people stay in the country. I am for having an 8-5 job and then bing home together as a family but now days it is hard to find that lifestyle. It is, for sure, not a lifestyle in the big city so we might need to do something about that in life but still it can be done in it.
Call me old when I am only 28 years old and maybe my heart is old because those are my passions. I miss the good old days when nature and outdoors were everything. When you weren't see children on phones and computers or iPads. Where the children could go outdoors with bare feet. A strong woman can live in a business world but I'll be honest sometimes this strong women gets weak and can't take it anymore. She can only take so much of it too. It has made me to where I am at the point of just crying my eyes out to God. I need that country setting to keep my strong. This city setting is not for me at all and never will be.
I am just in that awkward stage in my life right now. I am trying to get use to being single and be okay with it but at the same time I want to be married and have a family. It is like if I am going to be single the rest of my life what will I do with it and will I be happy doing it. I am scared that I might be single for the rest of it because that is how it feels right now. In a way, I am feeling like I am doing it alone here on earth but I know I am not totally alone.
Single or married. Strong man or none. I will always have the Strongest Man by my side that will love me always. That Man is Jesus Christ for better or for worse. For sickness or health. He will always be my One and Only. :) I am OKAY with that.
I will keep this entry short because I want it to stay to the point. I hope it makes some sense too and people could, kind of, understand what I am feeling right now in life.
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