As I sit here just thinking about my life, I realize that the little things I do really help me. I think I have realized that in the past year then ever before in my life. I would've gone crazy if I wasn't able to do the little things that I do now. They have now became part of my life and I can't go on a day without doing them. Yet isn't that how it is suppose to be?
Those little things are journaling and writing my thoughts out on paper. I like to do those things because I feel like it clears my mind of things that are bothering me. Yes, there is a difference, to me anyways, between journaling and writing. Journaling is when I let all of my feelings show and the real and whole truth about what is going on in my life at the moment. Writing is what I am doing on here. It is, believe it or not, and shorter version of how I am feeling. It is when I leave out names and tell only won't get me in trouble. I have learned the hard way about that.
That is why it is mostly Bible studies and what I think about things and some children. The things I write about always comes up because of what is happening in my life at the moment. You might be wondering why I called this entry "Journaling with God" so I will tell you. I am going to explain why I journal to Him and how it has helped me this year. Took me awhile to get to the point, right?
I journal to God in a prayer journal. I have a regular to big sized notebook that I use to write down all my thoughts, big and little. The thoughts could be as little as how much sleep I want to get to as big as a friendship that needs to get God back to the center of it. I don't know what I would do without journaling to God. Wait, I know what I would do I would go crazy without it. My prayer journal has been my life line these past few months and here is why.
I think God is teaching me something through all of this too. God is teaching me to be dependent of Him and just Him. I remember when I was in college and a little afterwards I was dependent on other people. By that, I mean I would ask people, that I knew, questions about things happening in my life that they had no clue about. I would also ask them what I should do in certain situations. I noticed that I had stopped doing that about a year or two after I moved to AR and that is when I started to write more in my Journal and in this. It has just gotten better and God has started to show me what He can do when I turn to Him for everything, big and small. I have stopped going to my friends and family for advice unless I really need it right away. Even when I go to them, I take it to God and make sure it is the right way.
Those little things are journaling and writing my thoughts out on paper. I like to do those things because I feel like it clears my mind of things that are bothering me. Yes, there is a difference, to me anyways, between journaling and writing. Journaling is when I let all of my feelings show and the real and whole truth about what is going on in my life at the moment. Writing is what I am doing on here. It is, believe it or not, and shorter version of how I am feeling. It is when I leave out names and tell only won't get me in trouble. I have learned the hard way about that.
That is why it is mostly Bible studies and what I think about things and some children. The things I write about always comes up because of what is happening in my life at the moment. You might be wondering why I called this entry "Journaling with God" so I will tell you. I am going to explain why I journal to Him and how it has helped me this year. Took me awhile to get to the point, right?
I journal to God in a prayer journal. I have a regular to big sized notebook that I use to write down all my thoughts, big and little. The thoughts could be as little as how much sleep I want to get to as big as a friendship that needs to get God back to the center of it. I don't know what I would do without journaling to God. Wait, I know what I would do I would go crazy without it. My prayer journal has been my life line these past few months and here is why.
I think God is teaching me something through all of this too. God is teaching me to be dependent of Him and just Him. I remember when I was in college and a little afterwards I was dependent on other people. By that, I mean I would ask people, that I knew, questions about things happening in my life that they had no clue about. I would also ask them what I should do in certain situations. I noticed that I had stopped doing that about a year or two after I moved to AR and that is when I started to write more in my Journal and in this. It has just gotten better and God has started to show me what He can do when I turn to Him for everything, big and small. I have stopped going to my friends and family for advice unless I really need it right away. Even when I go to them, I take it to God and make sure it is the right way.
I think that it also helped when I started going to a Bible study each semester and/or start to study the Bible on my own. I look up these different verses off and on and check to see what the sermons are about in different versions of the Bible so I can under it better. I am loving "The Message" and "The New American Standard" version or something close to that. I would start with the "NIV" at first. Anyways, journaling to God has just gotten better over the years and I'm so thankful for it this year. I really feel like God led me the where I am today because I talked to Him about every little thing that was going on in my life. He lead to a job and a new apartment. I gave Him ideas and He picked out of them. He gave me patience to endure some of the hard times and still does because they aren't over yet. He gave me some wisdom when I needed it the most for children and for the other people in my life.
If you think I write everything in this blog, you have no idea what I write to God and that should be the way it is. I only write half of what I am thinking and what is going on in my life here. I can still keep people guessing because of that. For those of you who think I am telling my whole life story, you are only getting under a half of it. There are times where I have to have two journals for God even and I take turns praying in them. One is my everyday journal and the other one is usually for a certain thing or person if it is serious to me and I have to keep praying about it until I get an answer for it. I am a writer at heart and I love writing. It wasn't until mid way through this blog that I realized that. I will also say that I usually have 15 drafts at a time all planned out and I write the titles down and save them but it could take me a month to actually write an entry but still I can bring back those thoughts that I had when I first wrote down the title a month ago.
It can be this long. There are times that I write down titles and take some time to think about them and whether I should write about them on here and then I delete them because one they are more personal then I thought they would be or two I forgot what I was going to write about so it must not have been that important to me. I came up with this entry, probably at the start of this month and here I am now writing it. All this to say that there is a different between journaling and just writing things down. Well, at least for me there is a difference plus you get a small look inside what my world is like and why I write on here as often as I do. I hope someday to make this blog into a story that my children can read and learn about my life for 5 years and going in AR and also learn some life lessons from as well.
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