Yesterday was a busy day for me but it was mostly fun too. Besides the rain all day and a headache it caused, it was a God-Filled Valentine's Day because I made it that way. I kind of started a new tradition for myself this year. I had to work both jobs but that didn't bother me because it helped me keep my mind busy, even though I could of used a nap all morning.
This was probably the best Valentine's Day I had in awhile. I made excuses to do things. This was the first Valentine's in awhile that I really felt God's Love for me, if ever. I showed myself that by buying myself a coffee, some M&Ms, and a dozen yellow roses. I wasn't going to past Valentine's Day up again without any gifts. I also celebrated with other people in a way. I gave out Valentine's cards and candy to my kids at work. I had a good dinner and ice cream with my brother and his family. I gave stuffed teddy bears to my AR nieces and nephews too.
What really got me yesterday was God's Love for me? It just overwhelmed me. My friend posted something and said "God's Love is greater then any other" and I'll admit I did cry just a little but it was a good cry. This Valentine's Day was really different then last year's Valentine's Day. I looked back at the entries I wrote right before and after and it was strange. This time during last year my church was talking about suffering and I was thinking about redirecting my life to God. I did two weeks later but it was like perfect timing because I feel like I went through a lot last year and it was in a way suffering for God but now I see where I am as on. Mission for Him. I saw God's Love in a lot of ways last year after redirecting my life to Him.
Which lead me to where I am today, deeper in Love with my Father, God, so I celebrated that. It is strange too how the church and my Bible study fitted again with this month too this year. The church's theme was God's Missions and they talked a lot about God's Love and why we are here and how important we are in God's plan. Then my Bible study is the "Experiencing God" one. It just so happens that this week, the week of Valentine's Day, is about "Love and God's Invitation" to do work for Him. It is all about how loving God will make you want to follow Him in the way He wants you to go. I even day 1 and 2 and 3 before Valentine's Day which was "Know Him", "Worship Him", and "Love Him". It really got me to thinking and now after Valentine's Day it is about the invitation that God has for me to join Him in the work that He is doing in this World.
This was probably the best Valentine's Day I had in awhile. I made excuses to do things. This was the first Valentine's in awhile that I really felt God's Love for me, if ever. I showed myself that by buying myself a coffee, some M&Ms, and a dozen yellow roses. I wasn't going to past Valentine's Day up again without any gifts. I also celebrated with other people in a way. I gave out Valentine's cards and candy to my kids at work. I had a good dinner and ice cream with my brother and his family. I gave stuffed teddy bears to my AR nieces and nephews too.
What really got me yesterday was God's Love for me? It just overwhelmed me. My friend posted something and said "God's Love is greater then any other" and I'll admit I did cry just a little but it was a good cry. This Valentine's Day was really different then last year's Valentine's Day. I looked back at the entries I wrote right before and after and it was strange. This time during last year my church was talking about suffering and I was thinking about redirecting my life to God. I did two weeks later but it was like perfect timing because I feel like I went through a lot last year and it was in a way suffering for God but now I see where I am as on. Mission for Him. I saw God's Love in a lot of ways last year after redirecting my life to Him.
Which lead me to where I am today, deeper in Love with my Father, God, so I celebrated that. It is strange too how the church and my Bible study fitted again with this month too this year. The church's theme was God's Missions and they talked a lot about God's Love and why we are here and how important we are in God's plan. Then my Bible study is the "Experiencing God" one. It just so happens that this week, the week of Valentine's Day, is about "Love and God's Invitation" to do work for Him. It is all about how loving God will make you want to follow Him in the way He wants you to go. I even day 1 and 2 and 3 before Valentine's Day which was "Know Him", "Worship Him", and "Love Him". It really got me to thinking and now after Valentine's Day it is about the invitation that God has for me to join Him in the work that He is doing in this World.
That Bible study also talks about how God puts things together to experience Him and I don't think any of this was on purpose. I think God knew what He was doing when He did things last year around this time and this year at the same time. God wanted me to see what suffering was like, just like He did, and then the reward that I get when I suffer through it to get on His Mission with Him and His Deep Love. God, also, just wants me to see how much He Loves me and at the same time enjoy it while I can. He doesn't want me to think about any other person especially a guy. He wants me to think about Him, Love myself for who I am in Him, and to Love on family and the other people around me like the children.
I think if and until I get a boyfriend I made a new tradition for myself. That tradition is buying flowers, chocolates, and coffee for my on Valentine's Day if I am alone like I was this year and if it is during the week. Also, wanting to say that I did get a book and CD I wanted from my parents but I have to go home to get the CD. There is also a dancing bear waiting for me at home from a family friend of mine. I know I have other people that Love me but sometimes it is just good to remind ourselves that we can love ourselves through God loving us and for visual learners like me, I need to see things. :)
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