God's Love is Amazing! God's Love is Great! God's Love is Unconditional! This is what I'm learning at my Bible study especially this week. I don't know if I can recall how many times God showed me His Love this week in the strangest ways. I'm going to try though.
It has been a hard week for me. I have worked extra hours and would get upset over the little things. Things like payments due, worrying about the cost of meds, and getting help. I also worked to extra mornings, which made me really sleepy. God showed me in those little ways that He will and can provide. A payment got paid off because I finally humbled myself to let it get paid off.
The meds. were less then I thought they would be once I got my insurance to work. I could afford them after that. I also got a 2 and a half hour nap yesterday. Those were the small things but it was at Bible study last night that changed my outlook on a lot of things. It was about having a "Real" Love relationship with God. I took a lot of notes in the margins of my book last night of what was said.
It has been a hard week for me. I have worked extra hours and would get upset over the little things. Things like payments due, worrying about the cost of meds, and getting help. I also worked to extra mornings, which made me really sleepy. God showed me in those little ways that He will and can provide. A payment got paid off because I finally humbled myself to let it get paid off.
The meds. were less then I thought they would be once I got my insurance to work. I could afford them after that. I also got a 2 and a half hour nap yesterday. Those were the small things but it was at Bible study last night that changed my outlook on a lot of things. It was about having a "Real" Love relationship with God. I took a lot of notes in the margins of my book last night of what was said.
One thing that I noticed about me: "I am a person who likes to keep really busy during the day like working a full day but yet I can't at this job. If I do work a full day it is because I am subbing at a preschool and then going to my main job. God tells us to take the time. through, and spend it with Him. That is another thing I got from last night. You don't need to be busy for God but you do need to take the time for Him. It made me think about my time I have between my shifts. I know I have barely enough money to live on right now with my job but did God give me this job so I can spend more time with Him. I actually have time now to read the Bible and pray more then I ever had before because I worked a full time job. Is God wanting me to get closer and Love on Him more during this season of my life?
I've also been doing this Love thing all wrong all of my life. Towards God and towards people. If I got one thing from last night, it was "God can put people in your life to show you what you need to work on in your life." I can say God has done that for me all my life when I look at my life and I have been responding the wrong way all that time too. He puts people in my life that I try to encourage and talk to them but that talking turns out to something that I needed for myself. It is something that I write down so I can understand because overtime I'm thinking that could be me. I think, "Hey, I needed that too" but it doesn't hit me until I write it out as encouragement to someone else.
I've also been doing this Love thing all wrong all of my life. Towards God and towards people. If I got one thing from last night, it was "God can put people in your life to show you what you need to work on in your life." I can say God has done that for me all my life when I look at my life and I have been responding the wrong way all that time too. He puts people in my life that I try to encourage and talk to them but that talking turns out to something that I needed for myself. It is something that I write down so I can understand because overtime I'm thinking that could be me. I think, "Hey, I needed that too" but it doesn't hit me until I write it out as encouragement to someone else.
As I think about it and my past, I noticed I have been doing it since high school and so has God. God has been putting people in my life to teach me things about myself but I turn it back on them. I noticed I was bad at it when I went to my friends for every little question I had and I got better at that part but not the big emotions part. I need to work on that part now. I need to try and understand God and what He is doing in my life. I need to turn to His Love for me because He cares that way for me. He will use people but I don't need to say anything to those people unless they ask. The strange thing in my situations is that the people have the same or almost same personalities and they have a dream that they are going towards.
I need to stop looking at the person like they need help or encouragement from me and look at them as a gift from God that He gave me to help me through some of my hardest times and growth. That is why I write those random emails sometimes to my friends because I just need it down on "paper". It also helps seeing how they live their lives for God and how I should live my life for him too. God works through them to me. There was also something else that caught my attention last night and that I couldn't agree with more. One of the lady leaders told me something that confirmed something I already felt. She told me, "That there is something big that God has planned for you and it will happen soon."
For me, that could be so many things because I want to do so many things but now that I know something big is going to happen, I can start asking God, "What is it?" Is it this or that? Does it have to do with them or just a person? I can start down the path God wants me down, now that I know something is going to happen. I see it too because I feel like I have reach the very rock bottom as it can get. I have experienced it now it is time to bring me out of it. I think with starting this new and understanding of a Love Relationship with Christ that "thing" will happen because my outlook is being changed. I am focusing more on God and who He wants me to be then anything else.
"Loving God is the most important thing we have to do in life. When we do that, everything else falls into place." "God should be our 1st and foremost thing in this life."
No comments:
Post a Comment