"I'd be packin' my bags when I need to stay
I'd be chasin' every breeze that blows my wayI'd be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away
It's true
That's me without you."- "Me Without You": by TobyMac
I'm using a song title and some song lyrics from TobyMac because they fit my life perfectly right now. TobyMac never fails me when it comes to the meaning of his songs. He has always been one of my favorites and always will be. I will explain what each of the song lyrics mean to me. Even though, the song is mostly repeated, it has meaning behind it for those who will listen. I was just looking at the lyrics this morning and noticed that they are all the same. For some reason, while listening to it, that never dawned on me. The part the really gets me is the course.
I think He meant for it to. He meant for people to hear the course over and over because that is the most important part and needed to be repeated. I copied it from a website and part it on the top of this entry in bigger letters because I wanted it altogether for people to read. Now I will take it apart piece by piece. "I'd be packin' my bags when I need to stay" is really a good one because that is how I feel at times in my life. I feel like I just need to pack up and move on. This is not the first time this song got to me with it meanings. The first time was when I first moved to AR and things were so hard and just not going right. It was then that I really wanted to pack up and go back home but here I am 6 years later still in AR so I stayed.
Lately though, it is a whole other meaning for me. I have been thinking about changing churches the last few months because of some situations I have been in and am in right now. There isn't packing that needs to be done but I do feel like moving on to another church. Then I got to thinking about that this past weekend because of talks I had with friends and with God, even, and I'm thinking that I just need to stay because if I go it is like running away from what is hard and I can't do that in life every time things get that way. "I'd be chasin' every breeze that blows my way" means almost the same thing too. It just means that I am chasing every good thing or every thing that I think is good and easy and not really doing the Will of God or not really where God wants me whether it is easy or hard. It is easy to pack up or chase every breeze especially if it is every good and easy breeze but sometimes God doesn't want us to do that. He wants us to stay where we are and make an effort and if that doesn't work, just humbling give it over to Him and see what He does with the situation. As humans, we tend to like easy, but God made us for the challenging times because He will be with us all the way.
Staying where it is hard too, will humble us if we let it, there is no doubt about that. I know that the situation I am in right now and will continue to stay in and with will humble me straight back to God where I needed to be in the first place. "I'd be building my kingdom just to watch it fade" is really want is getting me right now in the mist of everything. I honestly think I am trying too hard and I should just leave everything alone right now. I think I got too caught up with where my other friends were in life that I was trying to get there too and in a hurry like within the next few months but it won't happen that way for me if God doesn't want it to whether I do it by myself or with God. I don't have the timing, God does. It is hard to remember that sometimes but when you do it is worth it. I just think I wanted to build my own kingdom in my own time and it doesn't work that way.
If I built my own kingdom, aka, family or anything, on my own time and that means finding a husband or hurrying up the process then it will fade later on in life and I don't want that at all. I want God to be at the center of it and bring us together when it is time for the both of us, not just one of us. Building your own kingdom, whatever it may be, is not a smart idea because we all know, if we are Christians, that only God's plans prevail and ours never does. We can't stand on our own strength and rules because if we do, or kingdom will fade, just like it says in the song. We are nothing without God. It is all true that is us without God. I will also say here, that God wants to be part of our lives, He loves us enough to care about every little thing in our lives if we just let Him. He will build on top of every little things. That I truly believe. He will build His Kingdom off of the most annoying and sadness person if we just let Him. He can turn that person around and make them happy and caring.
He can take our dumbest mistakes and turn them around for the good for us and/or even for the people we meant for them to be for, we just did it at the wrong time or in the wrong way. He can build, even, on those dumb mistakes. The person that did the mistake can learn from it or the person that is receiving the mistake can learn from it but the lesson might be different then we thought it would be because God had another plan for it. Let me summarize it for you. If we live our life by packing up our things when things get too hard, if we chased every breeze that blows our way just because it is easy, if we build our own kingdom just because we can't wait on God, we won't have much of a life to live at all. To be honest, it would make us so stressed and crazy that we might do things we would regret later on in life.
God knows we mess up that is why He sent His Son Jesus to die for our sins but we have to be careful at the same time because we just keep messing up when we know it is wrong, just because God made a way for us. So don't go packing when He tells you to stay, don't go chasing every easy breeze that comes your way, and don't build your own kingdom because God knows what He is doing every step of the way. He has you where He does for a purpose. He wants to challenge you to help you grow in Him. He wants to be a part of your life by helping you build a Kingdom for Him to be a part of. That is the Loving and Caring God we serve!
I think He meant for it to. He meant for people to hear the course over and over because that is the most important part and needed to be repeated. I copied it from a website and part it on the top of this entry in bigger letters because I wanted it altogether for people to read. Now I will take it apart piece by piece. "I'd be packin' my bags when I need to stay" is really a good one because that is how I feel at times in my life. I feel like I just need to pack up and move on. This is not the first time this song got to me with it meanings. The first time was when I first moved to AR and things were so hard and just not going right. It was then that I really wanted to pack up and go back home but here I am 6 years later still in AR so I stayed.
Lately though, it is a whole other meaning for me. I have been thinking about changing churches the last few months because of some situations I have been in and am in right now. There isn't packing that needs to be done but I do feel like moving on to another church. Then I got to thinking about that this past weekend because of talks I had with friends and with God, even, and I'm thinking that I just need to stay because if I go it is like running away from what is hard and I can't do that in life every time things get that way. "I'd be chasin' every breeze that blows my way" means almost the same thing too. It just means that I am chasing every good thing or every thing that I think is good and easy and not really doing the Will of God or not really where God wants me whether it is easy or hard. It is easy to pack up or chase every breeze especially if it is every good and easy breeze but sometimes God doesn't want us to do that. He wants us to stay where we are and make an effort and if that doesn't work, just humbling give it over to Him and see what He does with the situation. As humans, we tend to like easy, but God made us for the challenging times because He will be with us all the way.
Staying where it is hard too, will humble us if we let it, there is no doubt about that. I know that the situation I am in right now and will continue to stay in and with will humble me straight back to God where I needed to be in the first place. "I'd be building my kingdom just to watch it fade" is really want is getting me right now in the mist of everything. I honestly think I am trying too hard and I should just leave everything alone right now. I think I got too caught up with where my other friends were in life that I was trying to get there too and in a hurry like within the next few months but it won't happen that way for me if God doesn't want it to whether I do it by myself or with God. I don't have the timing, God does. It is hard to remember that sometimes but when you do it is worth it. I just think I wanted to build my own kingdom in my own time and it doesn't work that way.
If I built my own kingdom, aka, family or anything, on my own time and that means finding a husband or hurrying up the process then it will fade later on in life and I don't want that at all. I want God to be at the center of it and bring us together when it is time for the both of us, not just one of us. Building your own kingdom, whatever it may be, is not a smart idea because we all know, if we are Christians, that only God's plans prevail and ours never does. We can't stand on our own strength and rules because if we do, or kingdom will fade, just like it says in the song. We are nothing without God. It is all true that is us without God. I will also say here, that God wants to be part of our lives, He loves us enough to care about every little thing in our lives if we just let Him. He will build on top of every little things. That I truly believe. He will build His Kingdom off of the most annoying and sadness person if we just let Him. He can turn that person around and make them happy and caring.
He can take our dumbest mistakes and turn them around for the good for us and/or even for the people we meant for them to be for, we just did it at the wrong time or in the wrong way. He can build, even, on those dumb mistakes. The person that did the mistake can learn from it or the person that is receiving the mistake can learn from it but the lesson might be different then we thought it would be because God had another plan for it. Let me summarize it for you. If we live our life by packing up our things when things get too hard, if we chased every breeze that blows our way just because it is easy, if we build our own kingdom just because we can't wait on God, we won't have much of a life to live at all. To be honest, it would make us so stressed and crazy that we might do things we would regret later on in life.
God knows we mess up that is why He sent His Son Jesus to die for our sins but we have to be careful at the same time because we just keep messing up when we know it is wrong, just because God made a way for us. So don't go packing when He tells you to stay, don't go chasing every easy breeze that comes your way, and don't build your own kingdom because God knows what He is doing every step of the way. He has you where He does for a purpose. He wants to challenge you to help you grow in Him. He wants to be a part of your life by helping you build a Kingdom for Him to be a part of. That is the Loving and Caring God we serve!
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