Talking to God About my Prayers

Dear Daddy,


         That moment where you just wish everything would fall into place. I don't want to sound ungrateful but why do things happen so fast. Why do I get stuck between the hardest places? Why can't I plan past this job onto a better one? I literally can't see or think past it yet I am not stable money wise. My heart desire's is to be married and have a family of my own. I think I honestly have reached the limit of being single. Why do I just get "thrown" into places to where I think is too soon? Daddy, I'll be honest here. I am scared for this year. I've tried to look at the positive side of things but you can only do that for so long. I worry because it's not my heart's desire. It is hard living by yourself and being single. People try to understand but I know some just can't. I've had all I can take this week. Sometimes I wonder if I'm not happy or wanting to stay because it's not what my heart really wants. I want a family (husband and children), house to live in, country setting, kitchen to actually cook in, and memories being made. Also, money to spend on extra things. These are only a few of my heart's desires. I could go on. Daddy, I just want to be happy and stay that way.


In Jesus' Name,


             Amen

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            That was my prayers two nights ago but I got over it and prayed another prayer last night that made more sense. I prayed another prayer because I started talking to a friend that felt the same way but because of different things going on in her life. She made me see things a little different. I have been praying for these things all along and God is now just giving them to me. It might be hard at first but I am strong enough to get through it and if not, well, I have God by my side to help me. My friend just made me see that things happen for a reason and not to get ahead of God, which I think I have been doing lately. God would give me something I just asked for and then I would want to move on to the next thing. Even though, marriage and family have always been my heart's desires, there are things I need to get together because that happens and God is just helping me with those things.


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          This is the prayer that I prayed last night to say sorry to God for how I spoke to Him the night before.



Dear Daddy,


           I'm sorry for being mad last night. After talking with a friend of mine, I realized something or was reminded of something at least. I have asked for a better paying job and to be able to use my degree. I also wasn't sure about if I wanted to be a supervisor just yet. All you did was answer my prayers and put me in a spot where I could see and learn if I wanted to be a supervisor and a higher job. Plus I really got close to home. I also see that I matter to people and that people see what I do everyday. When someone wants you, that is a good thing. You are working in my life. I just need to have patience and trust. When I see things that way, I can know and trust You are working behind other areas of my life for other things to happen like the other things I am praying about but like this job it just isn't my time, it's Yours that matter. At the most, 2 years, of praying certain ways, I finally got it. Just shows me still not to give up on my desires or certain things and people. Big lesson of faithfulness right here for me, huh? Funny how we talked about it last Saturday at church and then this realization comes to my mind. Maybe the same dream that I had yesterday morning gave me a little hope and glimpses of the future for me? Maybe it was also telling me not to give up just yet? Even though, you still wouldn't put the spouse in my dream for sure yet. Daddy, I love you and I know You are just watching over me like a Daddy should and does.



In Jesus' Name,


            Amen