A Missed Opportunity

            I know this past week God has been reminding me of one thing that I am thankful for and that is a missed opportunity that I could of had but didn't and He showed me the reason. He showed me that His Plans were better then mine. This past week was the week that I could have gone on another mission trip to Honduras with my church but God had other plans for me instead of that. God answered my long time prayers of getting another full time job. Yet I'm still waiting to start it and for it to be finalized, it is an answer to prayer.
           This might be a short entry but it is one that will be filled with hope and inspiration or that is what I am hoping for at least. If I did go on that trip to Honduras, then I wouldn't have been able to have an interview and get the job that I have now. I would still be stress about making enough money and my life choices. The interview was this past Tuesday and they called Weds., if I remember right, and offered me the job. Everything happened so fast but it was prefect and is prefect. If I went on the trip, I would still be holding onto that part time job I have now and would be for a longer period of time. I know I probably can't make it sound amazing as it is but it was pretty amazing.
          This new job is like the job I have been working towards all my life. It has the same ratio of children that the college daycare did. It is a 1 to 8 ratio so it is a lot less children then I have had in the past 8 years. The position is a infant/toddler lead teacher position. It pays a lot more then I have ever been paid in childcare. It is hooked on with the school in Bentonville so that means it is also a contracted job so I get all vacations off but the summer one. We work during the summer. It is mainly for the high school students' children but some of the teachers' children go there too. We get to help the students with their children when needed. We have programs for them when they ask. It is also volunteer work for the students like they can come in and help us with the children for credit.
            It is a place where I am hoping to make a difference. It has all my daycare jobs plus my children's shelter job and teaching jobs all in one. It is like what I have been working towards all these 8 years plus a dream come true for me. It is strange but I might stay here for a longer while. Maybe even past 4 years? All this to say that God took a missed opportunity for me and turned it into something more meaningful and fit for my life. There are people around here that I can touch. I don't need to go all the way to Honduras to do that. The stranger thing is that I feel like AR is becoming more of a home for me. I put a lot on this job when I said, "Yes" and I knew that but I think I will be okay.
             I mean my next dream to reach is to get married and have a family and right now I am nowhere near that. Maybe I can start to focus on that now since I got a full time job that I love and can handle for a few years. But then again, I can't decide what happens when and this here should remind me of that. I have been through a lot and missed a lot of things because I was so caught up in my lifetime job search. Like some people, would say I have given up a lot to get to this place that I am know like a lot of missed opportunities. It could be with trips, health, other jobs, family time, buying things I want and so on and so forth. I am thankful that God knew what He was doing though and kept me in the states for this one thing.
               Whatever it might be an unanswered prayer, which I have gotten millions of, or a missed opportunity, a sacrifice, whatever you want to call it: "It is worth giving up when you are really following God's Lead on His Path that He has for you and your life." I will say this too that if you do have those things in your life, then keep doing it because better things are ahead. They should just keep encouraging you to go full force. See what you are doing differently to see what caused that thing to happen so you can keep doing it.
             I know for me there were times this past week that I had to look at something to remind me why I was doing what I was, why I was going for what I was going. I even had to look at the things I were fully committed to even. I mean the people that interviewed me made me do it by what they said about my job past. I spent all day thinking about why can I commit to something for so and so long but not to a job yet for that long. I am a person who will commit when she finds the things she loves to do or on. We do things sometimes just to move on with our life and hope things and people will get the clue and follow. I say that in the nicest way possible.
            The question they ask me and you could probably ask yourself this too in other situations of life: "I see you only spent 2 or less years at your other jobs, why is that? It just concerns us because we are looking for someone for the long term." Yeah, jobs might look that way but if you look into my life and the opportunities I did miss because of committing to something I love or liked. If you looked into my life and see what the things and people are the I am fully committed to right now and don't even have to be committed to some of them, then you will see what kind of person I truly am.