Different Prayers

               It is hard trying to decide what entry I want to write in each weekend but this one has been on my mind and I don't think I have wrote one like this before. I was thinking that I have but I just think I was going to and never did. I feel like God keeps bring this idea back to me so I am finally going to write about it and if I already did then it is just twice as important and that is what God is showing me. Have you ever been praying something for years or months and God told you to change how you were praying? Have you ever prayed something and thought it wasn't working so you changed it but then changed back because you wanted something more? Well, I have and it has changed a lot of things.
                I know I was actually going to do a entry that was called "Praying and Believing" but I deleted it awhile back because I thought I was done with those thoughts but I feel like God has been bring them back to me. I don't want to say much on here because it is mostly personal but I want to get the idea across of how God can change the things or people we care about most and that how we pray for them does matter. I start writing about college and how I prayed during that time of my life. I am a prayer writer big time. During college, I would pray a lot about my life but there were times that I would write a sentence or two about people that I really cared about. It mainly was about keeping them safe or helping them through something.
                But then I got this idea about keeping a prayer journal just for them and their career so I started to do that. The prayers were more about the career then about the person, which was okay at the time but here lately God has been leading me back to praying for the person. It seemed like I was seeing the career more then the person and God wanted me to see the person for the person. Now I am back to praying for that person. It is strange how you can see change when you change prayers like that. I mean God really does focus your attention on what really matters and what you are praying for. I was so into the career that I would try to help and watch everything that was made and so on when I was praying for the career. Now that I am personally praying for just the person, it is different.
                 It just seems more like I am interested in the person as a person and I could care less about the career. To me, being an outsider in all of this, it seems like the person is changing too like prayers are being answered. Not only is that person being changed or seems like it but it also seems like I am being changed because I want to keep up or because I need to keep up. I am not meaning to but it just seems like God knows what I need and He gives that to me. I think God gives me the lessons He does because He wants me to understand and "keep up" with the person that I am praying for. Isn't it true that you can pray better for a person when you know what that person is going through or has been through? When that person is really busy, you don't know what they are going through unless God shows you through Him, right?
                 All of this to say that I am not trying to second guess or be over God. I am saying this to say that God does answer prayers when we believe and trust that He will. God will change people on both ends. That is how people come together, isn't it? I don't need anything but God to help me understand life because nothing else works like God does. When you try other things, they could just make life worse and make you mess up things especially things that you care about. I know when I was on meds. for my anxiety, that is when I prayed for the career and not the person. I don't know if that says anything or not but I did notice that change. Since I started praying for the person, I have noticed myself running to prayer a lot more then to people or even to that person for advice. I turn to God when things start to get confusing or I start feeling a certain way.
               I can share anything with God and that be okay. I will never regret saying things to God that I might regret saying to a person later on in life. Praying for certain things and people can be scary and make us anxious at times but we have to realize that it is for the good. Praying is a way to get close spiritually and some of us might be scared of that but it is needed at times. I don't regret praying for the career and I never will regret it. I mean I still pray for it sometimes but more then often I pray for the person in charge of it because I know it is needed more. I will admit too that I pray for things that the person would never think to pray for because I am looking from an outsider's view with other feelings too.
               It does matter how you pray and what you pray for because God will answer them. He might just answer some of them to show you and ask you, "Is this what you really want or do you what it another way?" I know for me that is what He did and that is why I am now praying for the person a lot more then the career. There is a balance between the two.