Believing a Lie

        Believing a lie is probably the biggest problem is this world today. As humans, we let things get to us that really shouldn't get to us. We call those things lies. We believe because they are told to us over and over again whether through TV, magazines, or other people. The worst time that a lie or few lies can come to you is when you are all by yourself. That is when the devil gets you at your best and at least to him anyways. I am a person that believes those lies and when you do they can really mess you up as a person. If you believe too many at the same time you can have high anxiety at times. I know my anxiety come from believing lies and trying too hard to not make them or make them happen depending on what the lies was.
        There is a big lie that I am believing and that lie is: "I am the one messing everything up in a relationship. If only I did this or that things would be okay. It is all my fault."  I am sick of thinking that it is my fault. That the big important decisions that I make or don't make are my fault. I know that the devil likes to try to blame us for something that isn't true or that we didn't do ourselves. I feel like he is really getting to me this time and he has been for a few months. I know we all believe a lie without knowing it at times and then we might know that we are believing other lies. A lie that we believe is that we have to believe a lie if we are going to be humans, right? I feel like I believe at least one lie every season of my life and this season is that it's my fault things aren't working out.
         I know it just can't be my fault and only my fault in this and I am not blaming anyone else. I don't want to. That is probably why I am taking it all on myself. That is why I am believing that lie. I am covering up for the other person. We are all humans and we do that from time to time but is that really right? Is it right to cover up for a person so much that it makes our lives misable to live. In a way, it is my fault because I am getting too into it and letting it over take me when really I should give it all to God and go deeper with Him.
         We need God so that we can put Him in the faces of these lies that we believe with our human flesh and of this world. We need God so that He can give us truth to face those lies head on. It is funny for us to think that a lie will go away in a day or few weeks when really it won't. If we let Satan get a hold of them, they can go deeper and deeper. I don't want this lie that I am believing right now to do that because it will tear me about if I am honest with myself. I am trying to be stronger then that. I am trying to learn what I can do to get rid of this lie and become stronger in Christ. I am trying to grow in Him.
            I am thinking the more I grow in Christ the more that I won't believe lies like "it is my fault" or "I am not good enough". I will have Christ on my side and know that no matter what He is always going to love me for me even when I do mess up. He sees the really meaning behind everything even if the person we talking to doesn't. He sees the good and bad intentions. When I look at it through a real way glass way, I know I am trying my best to listen to and follow God. There is so much I want to say but yet I don't know how it will come across. There is so much around me but yet I am focusing on this one thing when I shouldn't be at all. I mean I am even reading this book and thinking about this one situation and seeing how it is all working out in that person's life.
             Yet who I really should be thinking about and focusing on is me and how I can get closer to God during this hard and free time. Guys, I don't know if I speak for you but I know I speak for most of the girls out there when I say those 2 lies that I just mentioned are the most common one in our lives. We tend to compare ourselves to a lot of people when really we don't need to because we are already beautiful and cared for in the One's Eyes that really matter for life. When we believe that TRUTH, we can do so much for God. But that is the problem, Satan wants to keep us back from doing anything for Him.
              So this is how I look at it: "So what if we do feel like we have messed up here on earth or if other people think we did. God knows the truth and if it was right in His Eyes, then we are headed to a place better then here. Am I right?" Don't let Satan tell you that it is your fault because you are trying to be a friend or nice to someone who isn't nice back. You are doing your part and that is all that matters.