It is unusual for me to start a month with a poem, espically when I just wrote one not too long ago, but I felt that it was needed for this topic. I felt like I can express myself better in a poem form then a typical blog form. Here is the poem:
What If It's Me
What if it's me? What if
All the waiting that I am
Doing is because of myself?
What if it's been me all along
And I am just not realizing that?
All of these what if questions in
My head.
Doing is because of myself?
What if it's been me all along
And I am just not realizing that?
All of these what if questions in
My head.
What if it's me that isn't ready
To commit? Not ready for that
Kind and that long. Don't know
If I could live with someone for
The rest of my life.
To commit? Not ready for that
Kind and that long. Don't know
If I could live with someone for
The rest of my life.
What if it's me that doesn't
Understand what a marriage
Really means? Marriage is suppose
to be all about finding that one
special person right? The only
one that completes you. It is
suppose to be easy and happy
all the time. We can't mess up
in it because if we do, then we
have no idea what it is about.
Understand what a marriage
Really means? Marriage is suppose
to be all about finding that one
special person right? The only
one that completes you. It is
suppose to be easy and happy
all the time. We can't mess up
in it because if we do, then we
have no idea what it is about.
What if it's me that is just really
Scared? Scared of what the future
holds? Scared of not knowing what
is next in the marriage life? What
would it be like if I just lived in a
marriage all scared and not really
happy and helping?
Scared? Scared of what the future
holds? Scared of not knowing what
is next in the marriage life? What
would it be like if I just lived in a
marriage all scared and not really
happy and helping?
What if it's me that can't be the
Helper that you deserve? I know
I am weak and not what you want
me to be. I know I will never measure
up to your expectations of a women.
You see me as a weak person that
needs help when really I am strong and
can help you just as much. What if I am
too stubborn at times because I had to be
living by myself?
Helper that you deserve? I know
I am weak and not what you want
me to be. I know I will never measure
up to your expectations of a women.
You see me as a weak person that
needs help when really I am strong and
can help you just as much. What if I am
too stubborn at times because I had to be
living by myself?
What if it's me that is holding you
Back. I feel like I am holding you
back from all you can be. I feel
like if you like me then you won't be
able to do what you want to do on
your own. I feel like it will be me
and the things that a marriage contains
holding you back from your dreams
and ambitions. Not only will I be
holding you back from your dreams
but maybe even your relationship with
Christ.
Back. I feel like I am holding you
back from all you can be. I feel
like if you like me then you won't be
able to do what you want to do on
your own. I feel like it will be me
and the things that a marriage contains
holding you back from your dreams
and ambitions. Not only will I be
holding you back from your dreams
but maybe even your relationship with
Christ.
What if it's me that messes up all
The time? I can't be perfect like you
want me to be. I am human too. I will
mess up a lot. Will you be okay with
that? Will you let it slip by? I will make
the wrong decisions and have the wrong
ideas but yet will you still stay by my
side?
The time? I can't be perfect like you
want me to be. I am human too. I will
mess up a lot. Will you be okay with
that? Will you let it slip by? I will make
the wrong decisions and have the wrong
ideas but yet will you still stay by my
side?
What if it's me that can't be all that
I know I can and need to be? What
if I break when you need me the
most? If I don't see that chance to
help you, will you get made at me?
I am human and I get down and
discouraged sometimes too. What
if I get that way when you need me
the most?
I know I can and need to be? What
if I break when you need me the
most? If I don't see that chance to
help you, will you get made at me?
I am human and I get down and
discouraged sometimes too. What
if I get that way when you need me
the most?
What if it's me that misses that
One chance to really love. All of
These what if questions in my head.
They must mean that I really love a
Lot. If I am thinking this much about
things, do you think? Yet there is one
thing I know and it is this: There is One
Person who can Love us both without
ever changing and that is God, Himself.
As long as we each are complete in Him,
then we can work through things together.
Might not be easy but at least we know
Who to look to when the time is right.
We will know that we are never alone
either because God is always on our side.
Always has been and always will be.
One chance to really love. All of
These what if questions in my head.
They must mean that I really love a
Lot. If I am thinking this much about
things, do you think? Yet there is one
thing I know and it is this: There is One
Person who can Love us both without
ever changing and that is God, Himself.
As long as we each are complete in Him,
then we can work through things together.
Might not be easy but at least we know
Who to look to when the time is right.
We will know that we are never alone
either because God is always on our side.
Always has been and always will be.
Written By: Tiffney Wilson
Written On: September 5th, 2018
Just a little side note to say that I am still learning about completeness in Christ and what marriage really is. Yes, some of these questions, if not all, go through my mind a lot of times. I know if I trust God and look to Him and work on my relationship with Him that I won't worry about it as much. Yet, I would still like to say to the people out there that think singles are just crazy when they think these questions: "Yes, we have God on our side and He is as close as anyone could ever get even a husband but yet as humans we have those humans needs that God cannot fill." That I strongly believe in.
I will say this on here too that I know people are trying to help when they say, "God is with you and will get you through it" but there are some things that just can't be filled by Him. Some people might think I am crazy for saying that on my blog but it is true. God also made us human with human needs so He understands too. Yes, I agree that we shouldn't make other people our idol or depend on them for everything under the sun but God will give us the wisdom to tell those things apart. At least, that is what I believe right now.
If you are a real life friend of mine and would like to talk to me about what I just said I am willing to listen because like I said I am still learning but right now this is where I stand.
Just a little side note to say that I am still learning about completeness in Christ and what marriage really is. Yes, some of these questions, if not all, go through my mind a lot of times. I know if I trust God and look to Him and work on my relationship with Him that I won't worry about it as much. Yet, I would still like to say to the people out there that think singles are just crazy when they think these questions: "Yes, we have God on our side and He is as close as anyone could ever get even a husband but yet as humans we have those humans needs that God cannot fill." That I strongly believe in.
I will say this on here too that I know people are trying to help when they say, "God is with you and will get you through it" but there are some things that just can't be filled by Him. Some people might think I am crazy for saying that on my blog but it is true. God also made us human with human needs so He understands too. Yes, I agree that we shouldn't make other people our idol or depend on them for everything under the sun but God will give us the wisdom to tell those things apart. At least, that is what I believe right now.
If you are a real life friend of mine and would like to talk to me about what I just said I am willing to listen because like I said I am still learning but right now this is where I stand.
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