Being a Voice for the Children

      Yesterday was just another day with blessings pouring in from right and left. It was sad blessings most of them but it helped me understand the children more. I'm starting to see to that I can love all the children at once but I can only really focus on one one at a time like really talk to them and hold them at night, which is sad. I need more arms to hold all of them and mind space and ears to listen and take in everything they are saying.
       Start out with the good one that happened to me. I think one of my little girls will be a real encourager if she gets with the right family. She says the sweetest things that are so encouraging even to us grown ups. It was the same girl that called me adorable Weds. that called me sweet yesterday. I just want to take this one home with me but can't. She keeps telling me that she loves me every time during bath like 3 or 4 times and then adds something like "you're sweet" on the middle of it.
        Then I saw where my understanding came in twice yesterday and it was good and then bad. The good one was that one of my boys were having a melt down over what we thought was nothing at all but to him it was a big something. We tried everything that we were told to do with him and when he behaves the way he did but it didn't work. Finilly I thought about how some people don't like their food touching because it could be OCD or part of Autism. Well, this little boy did not what his gravy on his busicut at supper time. We had breakfast for supper. That was the only thing touching each other on his plate and when we got a plain busicut he stopped having the melt down.
        The other thing that took my understanding was with a little girl. She has been really stubborn and throwing fits a lot more lately but loves to be the big helper. I'm learning that the stubborn ones like to be the helpers because it gets their minds off of things. She threw herself down on the floor at bedtime because she wasn't the first one that was going to get rocked. I changed my mind because I felt like she need to talk about her feeling so I did rock her and talk to her about how she was feeling and why she was feeling that way. I asked questions like: How are you feeling?, Why are you feeling that way?, and What made you feel that way?. She explained it to me and what she mainly said was that her daddy lost her and that is why she felt mad. I told her that she needs to try and use her words to tell the teachers how she feels instead of throwing her fits so we know how to help because we want to help her feel happy and have fun where she is now.
          I see a pattern here for myself too lately. I have the patience to deal and work with the ones that can't or won't speak for themselves. I'm there to encourage those type of children because I know what it feels like to not speak for myself or having a hard time talking because people can't understand me as well. I see me in some of those fit throwing segments even though I had a great amazing life compared to these children. I had a hard life at the same time because of who I was and how God made me. It wasn't anyone's fault it was just how I was made. Couldn't speak right and very easily upset. I remember when I was young that I would get so upset because no one would understand me so they didn't know what I wanted and that was just the way I was born. I have a great family and they tried so many things but it was just the lineage and the way God put things in order for me and I'm glad He did because now I can reach a lot more children this way. My family taught me compassion and love and through everything I had to learn patience with myself which is rolling over now. They also listen when I have a problem if I'm not to stubborn to go ask for help with it.
          I see that some people give up too easily with those children who can't talk or have a hard time talking so I take over to see what I can do. Sometimes all they might not is calm talking to or a listening ear which I have. Sometimes I think if I shouldn't have a higher job like a case manger or social worker where I could really speak for them and be their voice. We'll see I like where I am right now though so I'll stay. :)