Christmas Eve with Children

      One of these days I will get to enteries about me and more devos but I have one more I really want to share that just broke my heart last night. One of my little girls were just having a hard time yesterday. I try to leave her alone and let her cry it out but my heart couldn't take it on Christmas Eve. I took a break from all the work and let her sit in my lap a little while while watching a Christmas movie before bed.
     After supper, she just broke down crying and screaming and wouldn't stop at all. We tried to leave her alone in a room where we could still watch her to see if she would calm down but it just kept getting worse and louder. I gave her a chance to go watch the movie by herself but that didn't work. I tried having her sit on my lap and that worked wonders. She just needed that one on one time at Christmas but I don't blame her at all.
     I rocked her to sleep and had a little talk to her before bed and she said that she missed her mommy and daddy and told me some other things that I can't say on here but it makes you wonder sometimes what goes through those children's minds. It makes you wonder the things that they see too. I will never understand it but God does and I can only do so much in 3 months and I have to trust that God will do the rest. It is sad because I'm off the rest of this week and she leaves soon after this week.
      Sometimes I think that I would love to just be a fly in a house of these children to see what was really going on. I chose a fly because if I was a person I would really have to control myself. No kid should ever be treated like these children are. It was hard for me to leave last night and to come to my parents today. I just wanted to see the faces on their faces when they opened their presents but maybe next year. It was sad too because yesterday was just another day for them. I tried to make it Christmasy by stamping with Christmas stamps and putting a Christmas movie but it just isn't the same without a family. We had cookies to cut out and bake but we didn't get to that because there was only 2 staff to do both preschool and babies/toddlers.
       That little girl made me wonder does she know what it feels like to have Christmas with her parents. Does she remember and if she does is that why she is upset? I'm sure it is. The sad thing too though is that she didn't want to call them last night either. She is really upset about something when that happens. This is another little girl that I could take home with me espically after what she told me last night. Let's just say it was another Heaven story like the little girl before her. I don't want to take a long time to write on here today but I just wanted to tell you all what my Christmas Eve was like where I work and this was it. The most hard yet speical moments for me because hopefully I was giving them a present last night by being there for them.