Selfless Love is Hard

         Selfless love is hard and that is an understatement in itself. Loving someone or something so much that you just have to give up everything for it or let it go, really. When you selflessly love more then one thing at a time that is even harder. That is what I'm going through right now. It just seems like God puts all the stressful things together and I knew big changes were coming even before they came like a week or two before. They mainly have to do with friends and my job. Some I like and some I don't but it is better for the people involved. I have no say at all.
         Selfless love is giving up the person that you think you like to do their dream and make it come true. Giving up that person yet you spent most of your time into that person. You're happy for them but yet at the same time it is breaking your heart to see them move on. You want them to be happy before you are happy and if that means giving up them to their dream so be it.
          Selfless Love is caring for a little child that you don't even now anything about or that you do know at least half of their family. When you would do anything to make that child's life easier, and if they have a family, their life easier too. You would offer your services and much more if you could. It's not easy giving something up to a sickness when they are your whole life.
         Selfless Love is seeing the faces of those orphans, abused, and negeteled and loving and giving them anything that you can and have. You don't care what happens then and there as long as you know you are making a difference in someone's life.
         Selfless Love is a lot of giving up things you love. Some people are just made that way like me and it's hard at times but I care enough about people closest to me that I want the best for them no matter what.  Selfless Love is putting other people before yourself.
          I'm going to speak to the woman here because I know that way kind of. Guys are going to look for that women who will give themselves up. Love when there needs to be love no matter what. Encouragement where there needs to be that. Woman we are the nurturers. We are by the guy's side to cheer them on in time of need. Lately, I've seen that in my life. I'm cheering guys on to reach their dreams and for health for their families. I'm left here doing what I feel like nothing with my life yet I'm doing so much more then I can think of.
            It's hard to have selfless love and be on the sidelines using it but at the same time it is rewarding to see the rewards if you get to stay around that long. I have tried to give up and forget a million of times on certain things and it feels like God is always taking me back and telling me, "you need to be here for a reason". "You are here for a reason". Like today at work, a old lady told me that "God has a reason that he let a certain thing happen to her". We need to believe that everyday and just go with the follow and not miss a chance.
            Right now, I'm just amazed at my discernment lately. I have thought stuff a year or even few months back and it has happened at this moment. Remember, that not where I was fighting with the devil woke up just screaming and head hurting and I threw up. I swear it was a fight against me and what is happening now because all of this is God-driven for some reason. I still want to make sense of it but we'll see if I can.