Being at Peace

         Being a peace with where God has me is nothing like I ever felt before. I have spent the past few days at my parents' house and it was totally peaceful there. I have been through a lot of things these past few weeks but any way I look at those things, those things are good for me. I am just getting stronger because of those things and getting to know the real me and what my purpose is here on this earth.
         I tend to stress out a lot about things especially when they are not the way I have planned them but as the days go on I am seeing that maybe God does have a way better then I do for me. Maybe God's way is the best way. I know and believe I am getting a million of prayers from out around me because of things that have happened and I am thankful for that. I can feel the peace from those prayers. I have had the time to look back and why the recent things have happened in my life and been able to talk to people about those things. Both of those things have helped big time.
         To me, at this moment in my life, being at peace means a lot of different things. It means that you can spend days out in the country with your family and not having to worry about getting back for a job on time. You can spend however many days you want there. It means spending time with your parents after someone you all loved passed away because you know people are meant to go away from this earth. It means that you take time for the small things in life because you never know what is going to happen the next day or even year. Right now, I could care less about having a job as long as I have family and friends that can take care of me and that I can support right back.
          Being at peace means sitting in a swimming pool at night and watching the fire flies come up from out of the ground at a certain time. Being at peace means being able to sit on the back porch and listen and watch the rainstorm come down in the cool of the weather. Being at peace is know that a friend of yours is living their dream even when you are not right at the moment. Being at peace means you have hope and can see that hope in your life.  Being at peace is knowing that a loved one that as passed away is in a better place now.
          Being at peace can mean a lot of things but I know at this moment in my life, I have never felt it more then I do now. It is hard to explain at times but it is a good feeling. My mind seems empty in a good way and I just feel more free then I have ever been before. I can lay down at night and go to sleep without thinking anything. I can pay attention to what matters most and that is the people around me. Being at peace means that as far as you can see and hope into the future, that things might take time but they will happen like your heart desires.
          I can tell you, for sure, that what I am going through in the past, now and have a feeling that I will be going through, I didn't ask for but God knew what was best for me to grow. The more that I live my life the more I see it unfold and that gives me peace. Seeing what I am seeing now also give me the courage to pray for the things I want to happen but only if it will bring God glory and that is what I pray too. God has shown me so much this far in my life and I can only think of what more He can show me. I think one thing that I learned from the events that have happened in the past few weeks in my life right now is that a ministry does not need to be in your career. It is a blessing if it can be in a career but a ministry is something that you love and are willing to do for the glory of God, not for money.
          You can live a life of ministry while working at a job where the pay means nothing. It is kind of like having a human job (aka career) and then a spiritual job (aka working for God). I was trying to fit both into one and when you do that, it can stress you out big time. Trying to please the people around you plus God is not an easy thing to do.
         My question to myself and you can ask yourself this too is: Do I have a career and then do I have time and the energy to do something for God outside of my career? Now don't get me wrong you can glorify God at your work but that is not the only place you can give Him the glory so don't let your career take all of your energy away.