Some Dreams

       "Some dreams are worth dropping other dreams for sometimes."- Tiffney Wilson

        It is amazing what I come up with while talking to friends whether it is face to face or over the computer to them. I say things to them, sometimes, that I need to take into consideration myself. Those words of wisdom or great ideas don't come out until I can tell or write them out. One of my friends had to give up one of their dreams to do another dream that they want to accomplish. I know that we have all our life to live and that we, hopefully, have time to make all our dreams to come true but we never are for sure about that.
       This dream my friend had was a dream that they have been doing for awhile but decided to do something for one day in a different way.  My friend had to give something up to accomplish another dream and it was a personal dream. A dream that needed to be done for my friend, not for everyone else. Sometimes we need to do things like that. It is nice to do things for people but often times we forget about ourselves and let ourselves down but we need to learn not to.
         When I thought about what I said to my friend, I thought about my life and what I have given up to move onto the dream I really want. The dream that I really want is working at a "normal" preschool and being a stay at home mom. I never really appreciated my "normal" preschool job until I found another different job way off of what I am use to. I really appreciate the job that I have now and I love it. I wouldn't trade it for the world.
         I had a dream about being a missionary and going to different countries and take care of other children but then lately I have been thinking about something different. Yes, that traveling would be neat to do but we have children here that need that same about of care. Plus I found a job that was kind of like being a missionary and I liked it for the 2 and a half years I was there but it really wore me down as a person. I got really sleepy every night after work, I didn't care about my friends or spend time with them, and I gained a lot of weight because I was stress eating. I had really bad anxiety and I worried about the children non-stop.
          I had to leave the children behind at the shelter, when at a preschool, the children leave me to a good home and I know that for a fact. It is just a better feeling that I can live with plus I can spend time with my friends and people that matter to me. I can say the right things to and encourage people again. I can use my energy to get to know people and just invest more in people. I feel more alive with a preschool job. Some dreams are great for a few months or years but sometimes we have to give those dreams up to go where God wants us to go and who He made us to be. I know for a fact being a missionary was on my plan, not God's. Being a preschool teacher at a real preschool was God's plan for me for now. Then next I know it will be a stay at home mom or I hope that is what God has planned for me next.
          I gave up a lot when I worked for the shelter and right now I don't think I can give up anymore so that is why I moved on. That is one of the reasons why I found a "real" preschool job.  I feel like I'm saying the same thing over and over but you all get it.
          "Some dreams are worth dropping other dreams for". That quote can also say: "God can lead you off the road and put you on another road" or "We try and know what is best for us but God knows what is better and the best."