Two Baptisms

         I know it took me almost a week and a half to write this comparison and that is because I have been busy with other things in my life. I was going to compare my two baptisms and how they are different and how I feel afterwards. I first doubted if I should get baptized again because I mean how many people get baptized twice when they don't have to. I never heard of anyone getting baptized two times because they just wanted to. It was usually to become a member of a church or something along those lines.
         My first baptism was when I was 9 years old. That was what I would call me "basic" baptism. That is when I understood what was right and wrong and that Jesus died on the cross to save me. I remember going over the 10 commandments with my parents before the baptism. I also remember that it was in the summer right before we moved to another city. I think that was part of what made me get baptized. I want to remember that I was somewhere in the middle of wanting to for sure but not quite yet but then we were moving so I said yes.
         I was also baptized in a non-finished church because the church we were going to was adding on. There was no walls up and no pews in the building where I was baptized. It was all wooden walls and ceiling. I also remember that the baptism tub was out on some stairs where the front was suppose to be of the new church.
          I have always know that I was saved and loved. I found the church here in AR that I could grow with in a relationship with God. Fellowship Bible Church. Growing up my family didn't have a "home" church. Where I was baptized first, I call that my home church because I remember everything about it and met some of my 1st friends there. Two other girls by the name of "Tiffany". This church in AR is my home church in this state. I will not go to any other church here in AR. I've tried a lot of them and I really love Fellowship Bible Church. I could have gotten baptized in college but I had to go to the church on campus for so many times and then I kept switching churches with my friends so I didn't stay at one there either.
            The Relationship with God is what my second baptism was really about. I have felt closer to Him with the things I have gone through here in AR by myself then anywhere else. I have had difficult jobs, a lot of family members passing that I had to deal with on my own throughout the years, between jobs, a job with abused children that no one else really understood and never will. I know people were around me and God sent me people to comfort me but still doesn't say how much I needed God in these situations. I knew I always had my family around me for all of these things but with me I really have to think about things and really get rid of them and if I'm around any people I will care for them and not myself.
            Not only the Relationship with God that I wanted to continue to grow but the Love for Him and the Trust in Him. I never really understand His Love until my eyes were opened by the children's shelter I worked at. Working there and seeing what this world was really like put me to shame when I notice how much I was kept safe at home and part of that was my choice in high school. I wasn't much of an outgoing person. Of course, the trust in Him just grew stronger with every new job and overtime I had to get through the hard times to see that He was there for me.
           I wanted a Closer, Deeper Relationship with God. That is my goal now. Yes, when I was 9 years old I understood who He was as the Savior but now I'm starting to understand who He is as a personal Savior to me. He does work out all things for my good no matter what it is. He does care for me through the hard and good times. He does place me where He wants me to be for a reason and then lets me leave if need be. God does all of those things and I just have to understand why when He does and trust His Timing more then anything else.
           So far now that I look back His Timing has been right on with everything, whether it be jobs, friends, life situations I had to get through or learn, and so on. He is taking me down the right path and for that I am truly blessed and I never want it to end.