The Promise of Understanding

"Jesus replied, "You don't understand now what I am doing, but someday you will."-John 13:7


          I saw this verse on my Facebook front page and it was on the rapper's TobyMac's Facebook Page. He was the one that put it up and I just reposted it because it is true for me right now. This verse fits my life perfectly right now. I forgot where it was in the Bible so I looked it up this more and it is in the story of where Jesus washes the disciples' feet. As strange as my life is now, I can relate to the whole story when I was reading it.
          The disciples were question Jesus and they wouldn't let him do it before the knew the reason way he was doing it. He gave them this answer that I have up above but then he went on to explain something. He went on to explain what he had done and why. Even though, I am your Master and Teacher, I washed you feet. Now you must wash other people's feet as well. I was the example and now you must follow me in this. No one is more special then the other person and if we can understand that then we are blessed.
         I like how Peter said that Jesus wasn't going to wash his feet ever because Peter felt like Jesus didn't have to do it. This is what Jesus said to that, "If I don't wash your feet then you have no part in what I am doing for you." Then, of course, Peter was like Ok, Lord, wash everything then (my words). It was an act of holiness and how to be holy for Jesus. I will admit this story and verse got to me really bad this week because I wasn't treating people the way I should have and I was doubting a lot of things in my life, things I didn't understand right now.
        I have been feeling like I have to be better then the other people around me. I have to be strong and supportive and so on, when really all I have to do is just love on them like Jesus does. Loving on them could just mean praying for them for awhile and that is all I do. It could also mean helping others out by listening to them rant on and on about things because I get what they are saying. I can just be there for the people around me. I don't have to push myself on them or into my job to make me more popular or look better. I can just be me.
         That's what I get from the whole story. Now just from the verse that I put up on this entry is a whole other thing or maybe not. I will let you guys be the judge of that. Before Jesus explains why he is washing the disciples' feet, He says this, "You don't understand now but it will be clear to you later (my words). I will admit that through my jobs and some of my friends, I don't get what God is doing right now. I don't understand it at all and I hate it. I liked back in the older days when you knew college would come after high school and easy plans like that. You could just go on with your life and not have to think about anything.
           Well, here I am close 30, a couple more years and I still have no idea what I want my lifetime career to be. I am also the non patience type when it comes to planning. I am the type that wants everything done now, not 3 years down the road. I want to move on now but I realized you can't do that in real life. You have to take your time and be patience even if it means taking one college class at a time to get that future career of yours. I think I am also realizing that I want to live a bigger and better life and/or that I will be living by myself for longer then I thought I ever would be so I need to have a career where I can make some decent money.
           It is hard for me because I don't want it all to be about the money and living situations and think that I am greedy but then again I need to live where I feel comfortable on my own especially if it is going to be for loner then I thought. Right now, I don't feel comfortable with where I am in my life. All this to say, that is why the verse means so much to me right now. I don't know what God has in store for me or what He is doing right now because it just seems like a mess.
         There is a promise at the end of that verse and it is: Someday I will (understand). I can't wait to look back on the olden days and see where God has brought me in the future. I want to look back at the days I was struggling and see the blessings that God has given me since then. I want to see what God has planned for me and what He can do in my life because I know it is going to be something bigger and better then I have ever thought of in my life. He is doing what He is doing right now for a reason and though I might not understand it now, I will someday and that is a promise from Him.
         I think that verse is going to be my new life theme verse until I feel like things are under control again. It just might be my new favorite verse of all time now. I guess all this to say: "Don't give up hope because God is still working on you and He will still be working on you until the day that He comes. Life is a process and you will only get more dependent on Him as it goes on." :)