Sometimes people ask you "what is your worst nightmare?" Before yesterday, I would have said "I don't know" or I would randomly say something without even thinking. That all changed when a situation happened earlier this week that I just found out about yesterday. I've thought about it too and it would have to be it. Sorry if this scares you but isn't this a nightmare to most of us anyways.
My worst nightmare is that someone I love and/or care about deeply gets shot at. You never think about that until it almost happens to a person you know. I won't say much about the situation because I don't know much yet. I'll be honest, though, I stayed awake thinking about this whole thing when I heard the news. My anxiety also went up to 150% when I heard. I'm not the person who needs to know these things. I'm already a person that cares deeply for other people so I am already worried about the little things so hearing things like this makes it much worse for me.
I stayed awake for a hour almost talking to God and playing the what ifs in my head even though I was trying not to. Couldn't help it though. I woke up this morning and went straight to that thought and back to thinking about it. I had to go get some coffee before work. The coffee would keep me up and keep me busy at other things so I didn't have to think about it. Because my mind wasn't thinking straight, my coffee spilled in my car and on me on the way to work. What a way to start a morning right?!?
I'll admit too that I thought about my family,while laying in bed, last night too. It is sad that you have to think about that but with today's world you do. I have such a diverse family that it is something to be thought of. I love everyone in my family and if something happened to them, I would be hunting that person or people down too. Don't think I don't want to do the same thing to the person in the situation that I heard of now. You don't come near anyone that I know.
But being like Christ, I know I can't do that. I can't really have feelings like that either. At the same time, though, we are all human and you would be lying if you said you haven't thought thoughts like that before. It is in our nature to response that way but we need to be trained in responding like Christ would. That would be really hard for me. I will tell you that now.
You really don't know what your worst nightmare is until you see or hear it has happened to the people you care about. Another sign could be until you admit it out loud to the person that it happened to, no matter what they might think. I will say that I let this person know that I was concern for them. That is just in my nature. If you know me, you know that. I just have this need, too, that I need to hear or see that this person is alright.
It brought me to humbleness again in a lot of ways. I will write about those ways in the next few entries I write. One way is that it taught me that everyone has a worst nightmare and it can happen too. We don't need to take life for granted at all. You need to live out our dream and leave something behind, whether it is our character, passion, or material things or all three. I know this person would have done that. This person is living out the dream and would have left great memories and things behind.
My worst nightmare is that someone I love and/or care about deeply gets shot at. You never think about that until it almost happens to a person you know. I won't say much about the situation because I don't know much yet. I'll be honest, though, I stayed awake thinking about this whole thing when I heard the news. My anxiety also went up to 150% when I heard. I'm not the person who needs to know these things. I'm already a person that cares deeply for other people so I am already worried about the little things so hearing things like this makes it much worse for me.
I stayed awake for a hour almost talking to God and playing the what ifs in my head even though I was trying not to. Couldn't help it though. I woke up this morning and went straight to that thought and back to thinking about it. I had to go get some coffee before work. The coffee would keep me up and keep me busy at other things so I didn't have to think about it. Because my mind wasn't thinking straight, my coffee spilled in my car and on me on the way to work. What a way to start a morning right?!?
I'll admit too that I thought about my family,while laying in bed, last night too. It is sad that you have to think about that but with today's world you do. I have such a diverse family that it is something to be thought of. I love everyone in my family and if something happened to them, I would be hunting that person or people down too. Don't think I don't want to do the same thing to the person in the situation that I heard of now. You don't come near anyone that I know.
But being like Christ, I know I can't do that. I can't really have feelings like that either. At the same time, though, we are all human and you would be lying if you said you haven't thought thoughts like that before. It is in our nature to response that way but we need to be trained in responding like Christ would. That would be really hard for me. I will tell you that now.
You really don't know what your worst nightmare is until you see or hear it has happened to the people you care about. Another sign could be until you admit it out loud to the person that it happened to, no matter what they might think. I will say that I let this person know that I was concern for them. That is just in my nature. If you know me, you know that. I just have this need, too, that I need to hear or see that this person is alright.
It brought me to humbleness again in a lot of ways. I will write about those ways in the next few entries I write. One way is that it taught me that everyone has a worst nightmare and it can happen too. We don't need to take life for granted at all. You need to live out our dream and leave something behind, whether it is our character, passion, or material things or all three. I know this person would have done that. This person is living out the dream and would have left great memories and things behind.
Some things to think about are:
"Why do we just sit around not doing anything, when we aren't promised tomorrow?"
"Why do we wait and take the next step in our lives if we aren't promised tomorrow?"
"We have to be following God's plans for us, all the way, even if there are things we are uncertain of but feels like God is calling us to do. We don't know what will happen next."
I will say, too, that the older you get the more your worst nightmare might change because you understand how life works better and better and it also depends on the stage of life you are in.
I will say, too, that the older you get the more your worst nightmare might change because you understand how life works better and better and it also depends on the stage of life you are in.
Will you think about these things during your life?
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