Going Natural With Anxiety

            These past few weeks, 3 to be exact, are usually the hardest for me and then seemed like they were going to be harder this year for some reason but everything turned out okay. Why you might ask? I really believe it is because the health pill (probiotic) that I am taking. Now I know some of you might say I am insane to believe that a pill like this works and that I should trust God more and I don't disagree with you on any of that. Some of you might say I can't afford it or that it is too much money right now. Let me tell you from a single person perspective trying to live on her own with a low paying job that gives her anxiety everyday, it does really work for me. I will be honest to I am a person who have tried the chemical meds. from drs. and this pill really does help better and is healthier for you then those chemical ones.
              I don't fall into a trap because I think it is the in thing. I fall into it because I know it works and I, myself, like it too. These pills from Plexus are called "Vitalbiome". It is amazing when 279 clinical studies will back this pill up as a better pill for anxiety and stress. It is suppose to help reduce feelings of stress and anxiety and promotes relaxation while taking care of your immune system and improves digestion. It also stabilizes your stress hormones. When you think about it too, it costs just as much as some of the better chemical pills but it is all natural and healthier for you. I have never felt as calm as I have in the past 3 weeks when I started this pill then with other meds. Here are just some examples of where I could tell that it was working for me.
               It started to work after the 3 days I started taking it. I didn't really have bad withdrawals from my other meds. I mean I did stay up most of the night or would wake up in the middle of the night but that is when I was trying it out in the morning. Then I thought about while I took my chemical meds. at night so why not take it at night and that is when I started noticing at difference for me. There were a few days where I did cry after some hard things and surprising things that just came up on me but again that could have been a side effect going off my other meds. The first thing I had to do was move rooms at work and usually I would get all freaked out about it not giving me a heads up but I didn't. I just said okay and moved room. Might I add that my co-teacher was there that day either but I didn't freak out about that.
                The next day, after that busy day, was a field trip day. I will be honest I felt calm on the field trip but having the tornado drill the same day not so much. I am going to share something else that I have notice too. I might still cry when I get anxious just depending on how bad and big it is but even my crying has gotten better with the pills. My crying is quite and short. It is like I can hide it better almost or wait til I get somewhere where no one is around. The weekend after this all happened was the weekend before 4th of July. I couldn't decide if I wanted to go home that weekend or not because I was just home the weekend before. I was also dog sitting that weekend. Well, it turned out that I went back home and took the dog with me. It turned out to be a fun weekend and glad I went.
                 Through that weekend though I was mostly calm. There was still some work to be done with me but it was nice to be home. Driving on the way back that Sunday night, I drove through a big storm. It was pouring down rain, winds up to 50 miles per hour, and I couldn't see while I was driving. Usually, for me, those kind of storms if I am driving in, I would totally freak out. This storm I didn't. I was pretty proud of myself. I stayed calmed and just waited til I got to the next exit and waited there for a few mins. like 20 mins. I waited til the storm calmed down a bit where I was and then I started to drive again. I drive through the whole storm like that. It didn't let up once. If it did it might have been for a few mins.
                 I did a lot of praying and talking to God during that drive though too. Those pills helped me to stay calm and talk to God in that situation because usually I would be so anxious that I wouldn't even think about that. Sad, I know. Then I just kept taking the pills and nothing big happened since until this past Thursday and I guess you could really say the days up to it. This past week I usually get anxious because it is a friend's birthday but I never know what I should do about it. I start thinking about things and what I should say or even do. In the past I felt like I had to do something for my friend. Like it was a had to not a want to. I can honestly say that this week I didn't dwell on it at all. I just said what I truly wanted to and I felt that want to not had to. On the day, I was super calm too.
                  Usually on that day, I am so anxious and thinking non stop about my friend. My mind just keeps going on and on about did I do the right thing and what if I didn't. This year I had none of those feelings. I was super calm and enjoyed that day to myself. I was more focused on my job and what I was doing then thinking about other things. These stories might sound strange to you and you might have another way you would do it and work through these stories but for me it was the pills. I know sometimes people don't really get me or understand me when I am talking about my anxiety but it does and has affected my life. Anxiety is a true illness, whether people think so or not. It does affect your life and the people around you. People don't want to be around someone who is anxious all the time but what if they can't help it.
                   It is an illness people are scared of and will run away from. It is an illness that people will say it is no big deal or just be stronger and toughen up. None of those words will make it better for the person because from experience, they will be strong all their life even when they don't need to be by putting on a front and then they will be alone for a long time. They will think that they are not strong enough and will push themselves then they hurt themselves in any way whether mentally, physically, or emotionally. Anxious people just need people to stand by them and that no matter what even when they try to push them away, don't go away. If they do that, they need you more then ever. They are pushing you away because they "think" they can be strong and do it by themselves when really they can't.
                  I'll end this entry by saying, "Be there for the people you care about, even when it is really hard." This whole entry is coming from my heart and feelings. I have been or am going through it right now. The dreams I want now, I can't have because I have to take the time to find a way to deal and/or get over my anxiety. Friends are getting married and having a family while I am still trying to deal with me. Don't give up on your love ones that have anxiety. One more thing: Let them share their feelings whenever and wherever they want to.