Being in the Moment

          "Being in the Moment". If I got to pick how I wanted to end the 2017 year and start 2018, this saying would be it. I have been learning that a lot these past two months and you can tell if you read my past two entries. I give credit to my mom because she has espically been reminding me of this in the past few weeks. Her way of putting it, though, is "Take it one day at a time". If you know me at all, you know I am the kind of person who gets stressed out easily and worry a lot about things.
             For some reason, lately though, this saying has hit and stuck with me. I know it's not the first time my mom has said it to me. Maybe it's because I'm going between two jobs? Maybe it's because something big is about to happen in my life? Maybe it's because I need to pay attention to people and things around me more? I don't know the reason but I can't think of any other saying now.
             "Taking one day at a time." You might be thinking what does that look like. I'll tell you what it looks like to me in this season of my life. In this season of my life, it is working two different jobs and enjoying them both. It is switching my mind off and on for the children that I take care of right now. It is enjoying this Christmas season with my nephews, nieces, and other family members. It is also gone of anxiety and worrying. I am at peace knowing that things are going the way that they are suppose too for now. It is enjoying that one day and only that one day even if it means playing it by ear, which I have done a lot of lately too. 

               "Being in the Moment" also just means spending time with the children that I teach now. It doesn't mean I have to learn every new things right away. It means that I have to get on the child's level and get them to like me first. Then I can learn all the paper work and other classroom things I need to know. It is about sitting down and playing with the children calmly. It is about enjoying the Christmas parties. It also means taking time for myself and relaxing before I go to the other job or on to do something else. It means to rest. It could even be said like this: "Rest in the Moment". It is taking in all the time that you have at one job before going onto the next job. 

                It is the things you like about the job you are at now but remember that you are changing jobs because it is what is best for your life right now. It is about not thinking about what is ahead for the next year but what I can do do make the last month of this year great! It is about letting God lead you where He wants you to be in your life. Down the path He wants you to go down. It is about not taking anything even the smallest thing for granted because you don't know when change will happen. I was not planning for this subbing job to turn into a full time job but it just happened to open up and I took the chance and got it. I think about changing the jobs everyday, when I work both jobs right now, while I'll miss the children at my after school job, I know I can and will make a difference at the daycare. 

                  When we are not "being in the moment", things just seem to get all messed up and that is when worry starts to kick in. That is when my mom started to tell me this. I was so worried about the money side and not having things planned out for Christmas. Things like that were blocking my mind and feelings where I didn't get to know the new children and was not having as much fun as I should be with the older ones. I was also trying to get to both jobs on time plus going back to my house and having a little lunch. It was just a mess. It was then that I didn't care if I was just a few mins late. going or showing up. I just needed time to get myself in the moment I was in or going to be in and enjoy it until it was over for that day.

                If you don't take the time to spend those last few days or mins. with what, later on, you will know as a good thing and/or blessing in our lives. Then we will regret it and want to go back. That in itself is just wrong because we should be living everyday like we were to die the next day or that the Lord is coming back the next day.