Signs From God

          I have had this idea for the entry for awhile now but I am just getting to write it because I have been very busy with two jobs in the past 2 months. I am really behind on the entries that I write but it is for a good reason. I am going to write about the signs that I have been getting from God on a lot of things. Before Christmas, I saw a lot of signs from Him to change things in my life to make other things happen but also just to make it better and easier for me. Let's start out with the subbing daycare job that I got back a few months ago and where it has put me now.
          My last day at my part time after school job was the 21st of December. I do and will miss it but it was something that needed to be done espically if I am going to keep living on my own and that is not in the works to change anytime soon. While I was subbing mornings at the daycare, there was a teacher job that opened up. While saw that as the first sign from God to change my life around and I took the chance. I will say that after my Christmas break I will be working full time at that daycare and with better pay and benefits. It was so nice to see the money in my account before Christmas it went back down. That is one sign that is changing my life for the better and I hope it keeps going that way for awhile.
         For my new job, I also looked at the differences between the two jobs and count them as signs from God because most of them were things I have been praying for or wishing for. Things like less then 18 or 12 children in one group or room. Well paid and full time. Like a job that I had before. Also, a place where I feel like I am helping the parents and the children, even though I know I am helping the children everywhere I work and go. My new full time job is kind of a combination of all the jobs I have had in one way or another. That is the best sign to look for when you are trying to follow and obey God. Kind of wish that would be the way it would work in finding a future husband but that is a whole other entry for another day.
         Another sign from God was sending certain children in my life to get me to try different churches and away from the big one I was going to. I loved the never ending talk I had with some of the children throughout the day after school. They would ask me if I was coming to certain things at church. I even had to wear shoes one day because the child didn't believe I wore shoes. It went on for the whole week after I went to church. I have been wanting to change churches and needing to change because of certain situations in my life but I could never find just the right one. The ones I would try were either too big or too loud or both. I love that the child learned that she could be that opened up with me about church and I loved talking to her about it. I am still trying the church out and hopefully will do a Bible study with them and then see if that church is the place for me.
          I also have to get over certain feelings and by that I mean I just have to look past those feelings and see certain people as just people from the church. Another sign from God was when one of the little girls at the church I am trying out asked me "where my hubby was?" It was cute but kind of awkward for me at the same time because she pointed out that I was the only single person there plus she was part of a certain family. This was a little toddler girl too that asked me that question. There were really no other signs from God. Those were the main 3 signs. I kind of want to keep going to that church because I feel like I could be part of the childrens' lives there in some way.
          I will say there was a sign from God back in August with another little girl. The girl was passing out and inviting her friends to her church and that is when I started to think about trying that church out because it was one that I never heard of and then I heard that this family went there so I am trying it out now. It is like God put all of those people in my life to lead me out of the big church into a smaller one that I would like better. It also feels like it is God's timing and not my own. I think I was just in a rush after the situation happened that I was trying all kinds of churches and couldn't stand any of them. I felt like I had to get out of that church so I was getting furstausted with myself at times and just stopped looking altogether until this church came up in my view.
         There were also little things and saying that I thought could be signs from God like the little girls asking me to come to their church and Christmas church party among other things. The little girl even told me about the Christmas Eve Services but I told her I was going to be at my parents' house then. The hugs never get old from either of the girls, whether they are at church or school. It is funny how we miss those little signs a lot in our life but yet they could be a part of something really big in it.
         For some reason, I think all of this is leading up to something but I don't want to get my hopes up too much and then get disappointed when things don't happen. I am trying to focus on what is best for me right now and only me and if other things tend to fall in place then that is even better.
         Knowing what are signs from God and what aren't can be hard to see but I am trying to have that discerment and turn it into strong feelings. I want to do what God wants me to do, not what I think is right or makes me feel comfortable. I will say right now going to the church that I am is a little uncomfortable but I am trying to look past that. There are reasons for that and I am trying not to think about them or act differently because of that. It takes a lot of my energy but hopefully in the long run it will pay off somehow. I love all of these signs so much that I am wanting to keep my eyes and heart open for more signs from my Father in Heaven.