Switching Brains

                Have you ever had the experience where you had to switch your brain from one thing to another? I have been through that for about a month now and I probably have to go through it for another two weeks. I know it is a strange way to think about what is going on in your head but it is true. People think that it is easy to have two jobs that deals with children of all ages. They think that I have it easy in the mornings or afternoons wherever I am at the time but I don't. I get exhausted by Weds. if I am lucky but it is usually by Tuesday so I am barely getting by the rest of the week.
                People tell me to calm down and that everything will be okay and will come to an end soon but they don't get how hard it is switching from one place to another. They don't know the affects that has on a person, especially a person that already has and can get really bad anxiety. It would be okay if I had time to switch but I really don't. I only have a hour to go from little kids to school aged children. A hour to switch is not enough at all. I have found myself this past week thinking that I need to switch modes right here and now. I need to get into the big kids side of things before I go there and meet them for the afternoon.
                It is hard for me to explain for an anxious driven person like me, it is an actual thing. I can feel myself doing it. I don't know if it apart of the calming down process or what but there is this feeling like I am switching modes. It does take a lot out of me too because when you have to think these things and then these other things it is hard especially when you are learning new things to go with your new job. I usually need to take time and think things over especially if they are new to me but I can't when I have another job with bigger kids to go to so I push it aside. It is sad for the little children because I feel like I will need to learn everything over once I get full time with them.
                People also think that once you have dealt with all children, then you can deal with all of them the same way. That is never true and never will be. You have to get down to their level if you want them to see that you care for them. You have to make sure that you are doing everything right for that one program and not get the two mixed up. I literally have talked to myself these past few weeks and told myself that it is time to switch. That I needed to calm down and switch over to the other age. Then it is even harder when you come home and have other things to do or want to go right to bed because, and this might just be me again, I need to calm down before I get in bed or do anything else. I need that period of a few mins. to calm down a switch over.
                The way it bothers me at nighttime is that if I don't get that time to calm down, then it is hard for me to get sleep. My mind just keeps running and I just keep thinking about the things that I was taught that day or that went on with the children that day. It is just the introvert part in me. You know when you are introvert when you have the feelings of switching brains for different things. I know that is an interesting way and maybe even kind of scary to look at it but it is true and I have noticed it a lot with these two jobs. That is something else that I learned about myself while teaching both places. God is using these two jobs a lot for me to learn about me. There is no doubt in that.
                  Just please remember: "When you ask an introvert to do things, please give them some time to transfer over to that thing. Don't rush them. That is probably one of the most things that we hate, is being rushed."