The Holy Spirit

            Holy Spirit convicts us of our righteousness. For God, it's not at all about out performances or our perfection. It is all about His Son. The Holy Spirit is in our lives to remind us of that. He can say, "Here is part pf your Son" (for lack of a better wording) to God when we need help or don't. God loves us no matter what so we can stop worrying. The things you want or plan to way you want but better. You might not know how it will turn out but that's not for you to know. If you do, it is because God has blessed you by letting you know it.
            It is only the matter of the heart that matters and your heart to God. We can't always think about our actions because we might do something God wants us to do but seems out of touch with the people around us. If you did it out of the right reasons and it lines up with God then why care about anything or anyone else or what they think about you. When we unveiled everything by pulling those 2 things away, it does an amazing thing. It changes who we are into who Christ is. For me lately, it has been messing with my anger issues. I say that like I have them bad but let me reassure you I don't. Yet I have moments where I hide and think angry thoughts. Now I would say the surroundings made me do it but we all know we like to blame other people and things.
           I usually pick out one thing of the Gal. 5 chapter that I need to work on for a year or month. I even will pick one out if I notice I need to work on one when the verses are brought to my mind again. This time the thing is "Joy". Joy is what I need to work in this season of my life. The Holy Spirit has shown me that. I have been in such a rut for some time now. But my eyes have been unveiled, I have seen the process of everything going on and why and sometimes I get curious on how I got there or why I am even there. Then I remember that God must have some sort of plan for me so I just relax in that or that is what I have been doing lately anyways.
          I have seen things like learning a lot about the deeper meaning of things. Things like how it feels to be in the middle of a situation, seeing things from the inside, how it feels after you tell someone how you truly feel and how much more your eyes can be open and enjoy life more after that, and most importantly what it really means to have a deeper, loving relationship with God. I have even learned about some new feelings in the past few months that I didn't know were possible. It is strange how when you follow the Holy Spirit, whether it is Him telling you to give something up or do something for this person, how He just hits you with a lesson afterwards or that is what I have been feeling like lately.
           I didn't how this felt or why I am doing or doing it now but a few days later I feel like the Holy Spirit has brought something to my attention that tells me why I am doing what I am. I can even be confused about things for a few days and after a day or so praying about it something will come along and things will just click. Like with this anger that I have been having these past few months. I am not a very angry person at all and if you are reading this you are probably like what anger issues. Yet inside, I will admit I have been holding some anger in and towards people never deserved it in the first place but I found out that there was a reason behind all of that.
          That reason was because I didn't want to accept what God had for me even though it was bigger and better. I was really mad at God and not this person but yet we all know it is easier to be mad at someone or something we can see. Right? I wanted something so bad that I didn't care if there was something bigger and better out there for me. I got mad at God so instead of taking it to Him to start with, I took it out on someone else. I was being really childish in all of this. Just in case you couldn't tell but we have all been there. Admit it. I couldn't understand what was going on right away or what God had for me so I got mad towards a person I could see.
          Yet, I will say that the Holy Spirit has convicted me and that I feel really bad now and wish that the person knew all of this. I know that is strange but then again, it's life. The other person might not thought anything of it or even known but I did and do and for that I feel bad. Anger in one area of life can also cause it in many other areas as well.  Sometimes you just need that distance from people and things just to see the Light and the Holy Spirit working in your Life. The Light is providing me with clarity in things that I need to change and ways that I can change those things.
            Sorry I know this entry is a lot to take it but just think about me. This is what came to mind this past weekend for me so you can only imagine that I really did have to write it out sometime or I would go crazy. I almost did.