Being a New Me

        It has been a busy last few days for me. I did my Christmas with family and then went shopping for my birthday all in the last four days. While doing all of these things though, only one thing is on my mind and it is "being a new me in 2015". I have done a lot of things and have been okay with a lot of things that usually I'm not okay with. I don't know if I'm looking at everything through new eyes or if I have just changed that much in the past year or both.
        Let's take shopping for example. Yesterday we went shopping for my birthday and I got mostly clothes which I was happy with. Years before I would just want to go shopping for fun things but all I got this year was useful things like clothes and I am okay with that. I got useful things for Christmas too and I love what I got. It is like I want more useful things because I want to maybe settle down and use them. I want to grow up in that way.
        Something else I have thought about lately is a trip that I could be taking in the Fall with a friend of mine. Sort of a dream come true. I would go to the east coast and see things like the Mayflower, Plymouth Rock, the sunny beach side, and the big falls up by New York. A side of the states that I have never seen before. I also get to go see Maine which will be amazing. It will really be a new experience for me. It is strange to me because it seems like even though I like to have fun. It is the way I like to do it. I like to have fun by looking at the history of the states or anything. I would never go to a big party or theme park besides Disneyland. It would be neat to go to those big holiday parades and other things but then again I know my limits. I think about it every time I watch them on TV. Then I remember that I can't do a big crowd at all. It is just who I am. I am the introvert who likes to learn and then teach.
        I'm learning to be okay with who I am and other people will just have to live with it or leave. God made me this way for a reason and I like it. There are so many times that I have missed out on things just because I was scared of what others would think about me. I might be the introvert and that's okay. It is something that I have to learn to be okay with and make fun of at times. Then it is something else other people have to learn and be okay with about me. I have so many stories to tell if people would just take the time to listen to the old, quite me.
       Another goal I have this coming year is to read two books and hopefully do a Bible study with at least one more women one book each. The books are about becoming who God wants you to be and embracing that instead of other people's thoughts about you. I just have a feeling that this year is going to be life changing. It is a year of goals where I am going to break down those walls that I have built up for so long and be happy with who I am in God not who my friends or any one guy think I should be but just God and me. It will be hard but it will be so worth it to look back and see that I am able to joke about myself and just laugh at myself knowing that I'm that way for a reason. I am "old", goofy, and a child at heart for a reason.
        It is just nice to have this long Christmas break because I am learning a lot and hopefully I'm going to learn more. I have a lot of verses that I want to memorize and live out this next year. Hopefully, I can get them written out here and have you all follow along with me. I might make some challenges from some of the Bible verses and from the two books I am reading. Might tell you want I'm learning from them too. Make my blog a little more interactive this coming year. Seeing if I can make a difference through this way too. That's my goal. Being a real and new me and seeing how many others have thoughts and lives like I do. It will mainly be towards women but I'm sure there will be a few entries that can be for both women and men. A 2nd part of "Being a New Me" maybe to come (aka I have learned a lot more then this over break).