Catching up Before Christmas Break

         Sorry that I have not written in a week. Things are started to get crazy already before Christmas and I'm just getting over my seasonal sickness that always happens around this time each year. Keeping up with children right before Christmas is never easy especially when you have to stay inside most of the time because it is either too wet or too cold to go outside. I'm going to catch you up on some things that have been happening this week that are special to me.
          I had a Ladies' Bible study this past Monday which really touched my heart. Some ladies shared their testimonies and they hit me right on the spot where I needed to be hit. One of the ladies even looked straight at me but I needed that. A lot of things have been going on with me this past month and I have tried to keep busy with work and/or just been by myself to deal with those things and that doesn't help at all. It was a lot about how we, especially women, build walls up around our emotions to let no one else in because we are scared that we might not make a good impression when we need to. We might cry or get really mad when there is no need for it. We are scared to be our true selves most of the time and that is sad because the world needs more genuine women now days then ever.
           I saw this quote on Facebook and I loved it so much that I reposted it on my page. It said, "Maybe the journey isn't about becoming anything, maybe it is about un-becoming everything that really isn't you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place." I feel like I'm at that point now where I am learning who I was meant to be and I need to go back to that. I need to stop trying to be someone I'm not. I need to stop trying to fit into the city life and just live the country life like I was meant to live. We can get so caught up in the world's way of thinking what we are suppose to be like that we forget who God made us to be and the plans He has for us.
          Then I had another special moment this week and it happened yesterday but started on Thursday.  The craft for the children on Thursday was to paint paper cups as reindeer so they could give them to the admin. as a Christmas gift with candy inside. I put the candy inside of them yesterday and then we went on a little walk throughout the building and gave them to each of the admin. as a little Christmas gift. It was cute to watch because some of the children would give them freely before they saw what was in them and when they saw the candy they held on to them. Some of the children gave them away no matter what. It didn't matter to them what was inside them. It was a little crazy and the reindeers weren't too good but they were made by the children so that is all that matters plus the candy inside. Even though, I didn't feel well while doing it, it made my heart happy to see the children doing something like that and to see their smiles on their faces when the admin. smiled and gave some of them hugs.
            I didn't explain the process of giving but I hope and pray that they each got it in some way. Even if it is not now, hope they will look back as they get older and be like "so that is what we were doing when we did that". To me, it was just a good way to teach what giving was and how to do it with talking about it. Besides, it is always the actions that count when it comes to blessings and giving then the words themselves, right? Actions mean more then words. I am a person of action as most people who know be can tell. I don't talk a lot at all even now but I'm glad to help out whenever and wherever I can.
            That was my week in a nutshell besides being sick the past two days but hopefully I will get over it in the next day or two. Get it done and over with before Christmas and birthday.