Having Dreams

         "Have you ever had one of those nights where your mind kept you up all night by dreaming and you actually get up and can't get ready for the day?"

          I had one of those nights last night and I woke up with so much less energy. I didn't feel like going to work and I even wore crocs out in the 20 degree weather just because I didn't feel like getting ready fast enough to find my socks. Yes, when it comes to clothes I'm not the most organized person in the world. I will admit that.
          Here is how the night went but I won't tell you all of my dream. I fell asleep like any other night with my smells on to calm me down and make it easy to go to sleep. Next thing I know I am awake at 3:00 am when my first alarm goes off and usually I can get back to sleep and sleep for another hour. This morning, for some reason, I couldn't at all. Yes, I went back to sleep or so I thought but I kept remembering and seeing these pictures in my head like it was a dream.
            I was thinking about things before I fell asleep and I did things I don't do every night. It was writing a letter to a friend about an idea I had for their business. I don't know if I was worried about that or if it was something more because I also have things changing at work and deciding what to do there. Also, what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. I have been thinking about grad school a lot lately. The thing I was thinking about most right before I fell asleep was my friend and the letter I wrote. Worried about what they would replied and if they would reply back.
             Yet the dream was a strange dream. It was almost like a nightmare. Not a nightmare like most people would think but there was a lot of verbal fighting going back and forth. That is all I remember and/or saw. I didn't hear a thing in it. It bothered me enough that I talked to God on the way to work in my car. Just told Him about all that is going on in my head right now and what I thought the dream meant for me.
             I told Him that I thought it was the devil fighting something that had to do with me because either way whether friend or job or future God was going to be in it and the devil didn't like that. I know with my friend things could be stronger if we got together and supported each other in our doings and that would really make the devil made, I think. I will tell you more about this word in my next entry but I also think it has something to do with the word "captivating". I don't think the devil likes that word when it is used along with God and your heart for Him. I have been reading that women's book and been thinking about how can my life be captivating for God. I want it to be that way for Him.
              This is not the first time the devil has tried to get me down. It seems like He tries every year and every year God is stronger and helps me out of that cage. It seems like something goes wrong right at the end of every year and the devil is like, "Oh, I can get her now" and he tries but He doesn't. God has pulled me out of the cage so many times that I can't even count. That is how amazing our God really is. It is funny too and I will admit that I will try and start to read the Bible at the start of every year at least every other day but by the end of the year I get too busy and the devil knows that. I guess I really do need to try and keep my heart and eyes focused on God. Keep my heart captivating for and towards Him.
                 If I do that, then He will surely lead me where He wants me to be at the right time. I don't have to worry about anything. He has it all planned out and He is (should be) leading me to that dream. Is God leading you to the dream of your lifetime/year?