Are You Sure This is What You Want?

        I love it when God asks that question (this entry's title) to me. The way He does that is by giving me things I think I would want and then either make me rethink things or take those things away if I won't let go of them. This question is what I feel like God has been saying to me lately? In other words, though, it could be: Why do you want to be in such a hurry to grow up and settle down?
        Lately, I have had choices I had to make between friends, jobs, and even apartments and trips. It has been a hard few weeks just with deciding what to let go of for now and what to hold on to. At the start of April, I've had these thoughts about going back to college by taking two classes, should I change hours at my job, and should I move apartments or not and I that I hate to admit but will since I am a girl and I'm not the only girl out there with this thought: Will I ever get married or do I have to hold on? I have been going too fast and not enjoying the children at work or time for myself at all.
          I talked to a friend earlier this month and she said that she was waiting and trying to hurry things up but then she realized why wait for the right guy or right job. Why not just live it out? She gave examples like waiting to buy a house or even dishes after she married a guy. Just things you think you need with a guy but you really don't. What is wrong with buying new things for our single life as long as we have some money in the bank? There is another entry about this talk with this same friend I wrote earlier after it happened. The thought just came back to me this past week though.
             When we don't need to wait to buy material things, why do we wait to grow ourselves as a person like get more education or go ahead a buy that house or two bedroom apartment. Learn to love the people around you and you will learn how to response to the same people. Learn what marriage really is about while still single and what relationships really are about because believe it or not those 3 things are very different, I'm learning. We don't need a mate to get all of those things. We can do it ourselves most of the time. Yeah, it would be nice to have a mate for more money while going to get more education or paying off a car but that's not what having a mate is about at all.
            God is showing me a different plan then I have ever thought of for this Fall. I had a chance to change hours and days at where I work but I didn't take it because I had to give some things up that I didn't want to give up plus I wanted other things before a new spot at work especially if it was going to cut my pay. I would like to move down the street to another apartment but it being a 2 bedroom this time and closer to work and in between both school and work this summer. I'm thinking about taking one class just to get back into the routine of college classes instead of two classes like I planned on. I got offered a 30 hours spot at my work but I need that extra 10 hours. That spot also take away some time with friends, which I'll need during all of the changes. Doing some of these things just because I got a new car that I have to make payments on now.
             Plus I'm also comfortable with my job I have now so I can unpack faster if I move and study better if I just stay where I am at know at my job. It would be one less thing to worry about. Instead of changing 3 things and more, I'm just maybe changing 2 things and that is me slowing down. If I want to make things faster I could be taking two classes this Fall and moving spots at work to find the perfect spot but I am at the perfect spot for my life right now. I want to move to a 2 bedroom apartment and start college classes for my OT(A) degree. Those are the two most important things in my life right now.
           I'm also learning to love and grow relationships/friendships with people or that is what I'm hoping to get better at so I want to focus more on that then anything. By doing all these things I mentioned before maybe I will be a little bit happier and relaxed and peaceful because it is these two things, moving and classes, that have been on my mind for quite sometime now. I just feel like these are the two things God is calling me to do next in my life. This is the path that He wants me to go down and the order He has for me. I get so caught up in my thinking about doing things that I get to be so mean and bossy to the people around me and I hate that because I could lose/ have lost people around me. I want to show that I have courage and will do what I will say and get what I want through my actions not my words.
           Words can really mean a lot but it really are the actions that count when you look up to someone and I want to be that someone, that friend for someone. I'm sick of just saying I'll do things. I want to do them now but I have to do them slow or I will get overwhelmed very easily and I don't want that either. There is a balance in life and I'm learning that balance right now.
           What are the most important things and how do I get to them by the way of God? What's God's plan of action? He has one. That's is why God like actions and not talking. Actions get things done right a way. That's a question that we might all need to ask ourselves or a daily basis. It wouldn't hurt a bit.