Making Payments on My New Car

        Again, sorry that is has been awhile since I last wrote, life is keeping me really busy. Maybe this week I can take a break and get back to writing every other day or close to it. I've just been working a lot lately and been really sleepy from life. Trying to sort different things out but at the same time trying not to think too much about some things. I do have a lot of ideas to write about because this past week has been a mess but I have learned a lot about myself and other things. Just felt like God talked to me a lot this week.
       I've been praying a lot this week about my future and where I should be going and how does God want me to get there. I also have a child at work that I have been trying to figure out which if you know me that is a pain for me because I want to help them so bad but they are that point where they need more help then we can give them. I guess I can go ahead a tell the story about my new car because I did have something else in mind and do but I need to be alone to really think about that writing. It is a writing where I'm going to write about verses from the Bible. I can also look at my prayers more closely when I am by myself. I've been praying what I need help with and there are sayings that I can write about from my prayers but I can't remember them right off the top of my head.
        Well, looking and buying another car was a big task. I've had the same car for about 5 years and maybe a little longer but it was time to get a new one. The milage was getting up there with my cars and it has been in too many crashes. :) I didn't find the car that I have know but my dad did. I would not know where to start when looking for a car. That part of life is too much for me especially right now with everything else going on in my life and the decisions that I want to make or need to now. I wasn't pushing the looking for a new care because of that very reason so my dad would look just when he could and I would too and then give him ideas about what I wanted. Last thing I know, my dad was calling me up on a weekend asking if I could try and get off early at work so I could come up and get the car with him because I was going to sign the papers and make the payment plans.
        To tell you the truth, I just sat at the car dealership and listened. I didn't do anything or try to do any of the talking but those who know me would not be surprised especially when it has to do with numbers and math. That is what my dad was there for. I was just there to make sure I want it and to listen and see if everything was planned like I wanted it. I also couldn't think of the questions that my dad was asking the dealer. I can't deal with money now and especially not in the future like for payments.
        As I was sitting there and listening to the plan that I was going to have, I was thinking about things. I will admit was it was stressful at first because I had to ask off work and we are short handed to start with and I was having friend problems at the time and in the middle of that and trying to understand just a lot of things in life. I guess you could say. I also worried about if I would have the money to pay those payments because of rent and going back to school like I have planned in the Fall and I don't make much in the job that I am in right now. It got so bad that I woke up in the middle of the night before getting my car with a sharp pain in my forehead. It was, sorry for my wording, but like a headache but a knife going through my head to make that pain. It was the worse headache that I ever had. I usually don't wake up in the middle of the night with a headache at all. It hurt so bad I was crying when I woke up and did for a few mins until I could get up and walk to the bathroom to get meds. After the meds, I went right back to sleep. Strangest thing ever and I haven't had one since then.
        Anyways, as I was sitting in the offices and my dad was making the deals and I was just signing the papers, I started to think about how thankful I was to have my dad there to handle everything. I think it was a moment where I realized that he has been there and will always be there for me no matter what. It was something he was excited about and not only the looking part but the finding part too. He finally found a car that he thought I would like for a good deal and I do. He knew the payments that I wanted to make on it and how long to pay on it. It gave me the feeling that still at 27 years of age, I have things to learn from my parents. It really humbled me.
        Not only the whole car thing but I got to have supper in the town I grew up in after getting the car and we also drove around the town and school where I started going to school and even the house in that town. It just brought back a lot of memories and emotions for me. It was going back to my roots. It was seeing how much that town as grown and it grew a lot. There were houses all around the school and I was only 7 when we left but I didn't remember any houses or very few around the school.
        I got the first car I have to make payments on around the towns that I grew up in and started life in. Another memory made. How many people get to say that? I know this might be a little emotional for some people but it is true and it is a memory that I don't want to go away. It is just another step into "real" adulthood for me. It was a moment that a dad was there for his little girl because she knew she couldn't do it on her own because she didn't understand a thing about dealing with cars. I think the most important part of it was learning and thinking that this is something that I want my future husband to do with "our" children escpically if there are girls in the mix. It made me see that that was another way that a dad could be a leader to his daughter. He took charge for the "first" time and "showed" me how to do it. He was the leader in all of this and I saw that loud and clear.
       He did a great job on picking out the car! I promise that I will try not to crash this car at all. :) See if I can finally get a car that I don't have to spend money on fixing something on it because of me. :) Will that be possible?