Child at Heart on Christmas Morning

         Sometime I will get a life to where I can stop writing about every little thing but right now, it is all about the memories I am making, right and wrong ones. It is a life to where I want to choose what I want to do for my future family and then share it later on with my future husband if God is willing. I really do believe as singles, people learn a lot about themselves and what they really want for other people. I still can't see how some people can get married out of high school or college but then again God has different plans for everyone.
         I am writing on this fine Christmas morning because I can't stay asleep, even though, I really want to but it is a tradition that will never break me especially if I am not home on Christmas Eve. Oddly enough, I just learned that as I woke up this morning. I am never again spending Christmas Eve night by myself. There is no way that I can get any sleep. I'm just too excited to go home the next day. I almost might be 28 but that child in me still loves waking up in her parents' house on Christmas Day. It just wasn't the same this year and I miss that but now I know for sure. If I don't wake up there, they better plan on waking up at around 3:00 the next morning. They are lucky that I am holding out this long this morning. I'm trying really hard not to go home right now.
         My 1st thought this morning when I woke up and I mean the very first thought was I miss the noise at 5:00 in the morning. My family hasn't had a family get together on Christmas Eve and then stayed over for present in along time, maybe 2 to 3 years, ever since my parents' moved closer. As always I don't remember much about waking up early on Christmas morning. I do remember Santa Claus and all the present he would sit out for everyone around the Christmas tree. We would have to find our presents in our little spots around the tree. I think I stopped believing in him when I was around 9 or 10 years old or that is when I remember thinking he wasn't real.
          Anyways, some of the memories I have are aunt memories, not just me as a child. Waking up and "acting" like Santa had came for my nieces and nephews. I, even, remember them waking me up some of the times. We would sleep downstairs together and then go up to the Christmas tree when everyone was awake. It would be about 5:00 or 5:30 too. I remember also that it would either be me, my little brother, or my 2nd to oldest sister waking everyone up. I missed those memories when I woke up in my apartment alone this morning. That is what woke me up. I think I was feeling that I had to wake someone up or thinking I heard something when reality I really didn't. It is just a memory that will be forever in my head. Christmas morning is the only morning in the year that you can get me up at whatever early time you want (5:00) and I'll be happy with it.
            It is like hey, as long as I am getting presents I will be happy getting up at whatever time. I need to ask my parents what started the tradition today but I think it is really a neat one too. This thought never dawn on me until yesterday but I think I will tell this reason to my kids as they get older. It is a good reason too to keep the tradition going. We have no idea what time Jesus was really born but the Bible does say that there was a star in the sky for the wise man to follow so we get it was dark and maybe like night so of course we take it as Christmas Eve night or early Christmas Day to remember what it was like for everyone that was involved in the birth of Jesus or that is my excuse for my future children and maybe future husband if I need to talk him into this crazy idea anyways. :)
            I will always be a child at heart on Christmas Eve and Day so, as long as I am single, I will need to be at home or with someone so I will always have someone to wake up to on Christmas Day morning. Never again will I do this alone thing. It is funny that I thought I could do it alone in the first place even. I probably be up literally almost all Christmas Day night until like 10:00 or 11:00 tonight.