Fear the Lord

             I am going to take a break from my recent topic because it has been brought to my attention that I am writing the same thing over but in different ways and I am even ducky if I do that. It has also been brought to my attention that I need to focus more of my passion on God then what I have been lately so that is what I am going to do in this entry. This entry is going to be about the sermon that I heard this morning and just some of the thoughts that I got from it. I will say that it has another big passion of mine and that is children: as a teacher and as a person thinking about my future. Yet this is a sermon that we could all use especially this day in age.
            The title of the sermon was: "Fearing the Lord". Now the person that I listened to today was a subbing pastor but he had some good points about fearing the Lord. His main verse, even though he gave out a lot, was Gensis 2:4-7, which is below:

Genesis 2:4-7 New International Version (NIV)

Adam and Eve

4 This is the account of the heavens and the earth when they were created, when the LordGod made the earth and the heavens.

5 Now no shrub had yet appeared on the earth and no plant had yet sprung up, for the LordGod had not sent rain on the earth and there was no one to work the ground, 6 but streams came up from the earth and watered the whole surface of the ground. 7 Then the Lord God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life,and the man became a living being.

           The subbing pastor used this verse to start out the sermon because God made everything that we have and that is around us so why shouldn't we be fearful. If God can make all things and destroy all things, then He can do the same to us. That should cause us to be fearful. Then the pastor gave another verse, which was Job 1:1. It was showing how Job turned away from evil but yet at the same time turned to God and feared Him. It shows us that we can turn away from evil and fear God and fearing God would still be better then doing evil or following evil. I love the quote that the pastor kept saying and that was: "Fear the Father". Sadly, he used himself as a father and a grandfather putting the fear in his children and grandchildren. He kept saying, "We should be fearful of God how our children are fearful when they get in trouble." 

             Because when children get in trouble, they tend to do the right thing the next time or at least try to. They go up to their father or grandfather and are ashamed of getting caught misbehaving. We should act that way to even as adults towards our Loving Father. God loves us enough to discipline us. A father shouldn't have to keep telling a child 3 or more times to go do something. If they don't fear you enough to do it the first time then something is wrong. The pastor also kept saying, "The reason the way the world is today is that we don't fear God like we use to even the church doesn't anymore." 

            For me in away, I need to treat children more like God treats me. I give way too many chances and am calm a lot of the time. I should try and mean it once and then stick to what I say, whether it go through with the action or do something else. That goes to another area and the verse the pastor gave for that is Proverbs 31:30.

 "Charm is despertive and beauty is vain but a women who fears the Lord is to be praised."

Even as women, we have things we need to be fearful of in the eyes of the Lord. That is why we need to submit to our husband because we know if we go before the Lord not doing that we are going to get in trouble. Things could go wrong when we don't do what the Lord tells us to. Now I know some of you might not like what I am saying here and that is okay but this is what I believe and agree with. Just throwing that in there. 

            Back to being fearful with the children in our lives. To me and this is totally my idea and thought, calmness does not equal saving the world and as mothers, teachers, and other jobs along those lines, it is our job to try and make the world a better place. Calmness lets the children get their way most of the time because we don't want to put up with what comes next and that is not good. Now, having and giving discipline to the children does save the world because then they grow up knowing right from wrong. We are saving and changing the world right when our own children come into the world at that very young age. I say this because if we are calm and don't discipline at all, we are not fearful to the child like we should be fearful to God. 

             When we discipline and let them know who is in charge then they are fearful of us but in a respectful way. The other way just tells them that we are their friends and that is okay but it's not. Friends don't need the same respect as parents and grown ups do. That is how we should be with God all the time. We should be fearful of Him in a respectful way. Doing what He has told us to do. In a way, I will add this in as the last thing, when we discipline and let them know who is in charge, it is a way that we can invest in their lives more because we have to know what is going on to discipline and help them. Doesn't God invest in our lives more when we let Him know what is going on and am more truthful with Him? And we let Him in because we are fearful out of respect to what would happen if we didn't let Him in.

Feeling Things That I Never Thought I Would

   This entry has been in my drafts for about 3 months. I couldn't bring myself to write about how I was and am truly feeling til now. I still can't put all of the situation on here because it is public but I am doing some because I feel like it would help other women. The title "Feelings I never thought I had" is so true. it is strange but though the whole situation and still I never had feelings like I do now. It was never so hard to tell someone how I really felt til now.
           I never felt like I was really part of something and that I was going to brake that bond with words. I never knew the different feelings between a crush and something more. It was hard at first. I had a lot of questions for friends and God. I thought I was going to go crazy without doing the things that I use to do to support the person I cared about. Thought I was going to go crazy if I didn't do it everyday and every minute but I was wrong. 
            Yes, I do still think about that person every once in awhile. Still dream and wish about how things could have gone and still hoping a little bit that I haven't messed everything totally up. I still have those deep feelings. Here is the reason that I never thought I would feel these strange things/feelings. I also thought having a relationship that I really cared about would be easy. Well, let me tell you it is not. 
            It is nothing like a high school crush. It is so much more. It is something you don't want to give up. It is something that you question a lot. It is something that you would do anything for because you care. It is something that you want to last a lifetime but yet you have no idea how to make it happen. It raises all these questions that needed to be asked about myself and the other person. 
            It even made me see how my relationship with God really was. I can say that it was slipping. Now that I have that one thing off my chest Incan focus more on that Relationship and even my career. I can become the women God wants me to be and then only He will lead me to the right one that will keep me close to Him.

A Prayer On Wisdom

Dear Daddy, 

          I could always use more wisdom on life and in life. I know I don't know everything and I never will til that day at the earliest. Even then, I might not know all the wisdom and answers to life. I could also use more wisdom with the children I teach and am around. I could even use more in the field of Child Development. Yet, Daddy, that is not what I want at this moment in my life. I want wisdom for a marriage. I want wisdom to know and find my future husband. I want wisdom on how to treat him and show him that I really do care for him. I want wisdom on how to like the same things as him. I want the wisdom to learn how to disagree and agree with him the right way if there is such a thing. I want the wisdom on how to grow old with him. 
         I want wisdom on how I should raise my future family. I want that to match the wisdom of my future husband. Children these days are so different then I was raised and it seems a lot harder because of the new things out there these days. I want the wisdom to be able to invest in them but yet let them live their own lives when the time comes. I want the wisdom to know what investing in them looks like. I want the wisdom to help them out. I want the wisdom to help them know and really Love You. I also still want wisdom on how to keep money in the bank. I want wisdom that I could grow up on. I want that kind of wisdom in my 30s. Yes, I love my job and field but I know there is so much more for me out there but I have to find it. 
         I am already getting a lot of the relationship wisdom from recent situations. I regret what I have done so much. I just wish I would have the wisdom to either fix it or take everything back that was ever said or done. I want the wisdom just to start anew with the whole thing. I want the wisdom for a new path in my life. Not the same old one that I have been going on for years. Yes, it is fun but it can get a little boring at times. Waking up day in and day out, doing the same thing over and over again and then going back home to your lonesome self when the work is all over. 
          I know there is more that I want and need wisdom for but this is all I could think of right now. I know I won't get everything right away and that it will be a lifetime of learning all of these things especially since there are different stages to everything in life. The main wisdom I want and need to remember is to ask You for the wisdom when I don't have any idea on what to do. I need to ask You questions more and more because it just seems like life gets that way. It seems to get harder so it seems like more questions need to be answered. 
         Daddy, I know I am typing it on my blog but this is a true prayer from the bottom of my heart and you know the things that are hidden from this blog but are really in my heart. I am just letting you know too that this prayer might be a prayer that I pray over a hundred times. There might be a few changes but not many. 


In Jesus' Name,


Amen

Verses I Like

            I know I keep doing this and someday I will write something from them. Right now, though, I want to just remember the verses I like and maybe the thoughts will come back later when I look at them again. This is probably the 2nd or 3rd entry I have done like this. Life has also just been so busy that I haven't had time to write a real entry. These verses have been on my draft page since last year (2017) since at least November. I am also doing one entry so I can clean out my drafts on here.  I promise to get one or two writing ones on here this Memorial Day weekend. We'll see if it will happen.

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Blessed:

Genesis 12:1New International Version (NIV)

The Call of Abram

12 The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.
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What are you asking me to step into, God? And why here and why now and why me?

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Luke 1:45New International Version (NIV)

45 Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”

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"And this blessing isn't always what we think-the happy ending we wanted and the desires of our hearts fulfilled. Blessed is she who believes His promises. This blessing is different than blessing as the world sees it. It isn't an easy life or one of success. Blessing is that, as we find ourselves in a place that God has yet to explain, may never explain, a place or a life that doesn't line up with what we had in mind, HE gives us a promise like HE gave to Abraham. It is the promise of Emmanuel, God with us. He will be here with us, or reward."-

Katie Davis-Majors

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Watch:

Proverbs 27:23New International Version (NIV)

23 Be sure you know the condition of your flocks,
    give careful attention to your herds.

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Forget the Former Things:

   

 "Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past. See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up, do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams int he wasteland."

-Isaiah 43:18-19

Learning and Growing God's Way

            The title doesn't do justice for what I am thinking or going through right now. It is true, though, because I am learning a lot and my eyes are being opened a lot more too. I am learning who I am and who God wants me to be and where I should be within His Reach. I am learning that God has His Protecting Hands over me all the time. I am also learning that God does things for a reason and they could be the strangest things but yet they could also make a difference in lives of the people around us. I am going to try and explain what I am learning deeply without giving away the people and situations that has helped me get where I am today. I also know that I should be writing a Mother's Day entry but I just can't get these things off my mind until I write them down. Sorry to all the moms out there.
             The biggest thought that I could have in my life, I had it last night while laying in bed. That thought about how someone that I care about has treated me in the past and now I am in the same spot and totally understand why. That spot where you want everything just to stop. You want that one person to stop bugging you but they don't. Now no one is bugging me right now, which I really appicate because that shows signs of respect, doesn't it? Respect that I didn't have for that same person. The situation that I am going through right now and have been for about 2-3 months now have been calm and quite. I thought I needed some closure but I don't think I do. I like the calm and quite way better. I have, in a strange way, wondered what that person would do if they acted like I did and how I would feel.
               Here I am trying to get over a situation yet I have this friend that is bugging the heck out of me and not getting the clue. Not getting that I just want to be left alone and that that is closure for me. Now I get that every email that a person writes or every comment they write is just a way to keep a hold of that person and to have that person keep a hold of me. Yet that email and/or comment or like might bring back memories they are trying to get rid of because they are trying to move on with their life. You would think that the person getting those memories would like them but not if they are trying to forget you and move on with their life.
             When that person sees those things, it just stirs up emotions that they are trying to get rid of and it just takes them longer to get rid of those feelings. Even just seeing a family member and wanting to connect with them somehow brings feelings of those times together if that makes sense. I thought that I needed closure but I don't. I need the respect most of all and that is what I am getting right now. That is what I have been getting all along but yet I was the jerk in all of this. That person needed the space and I wouldn't give it to them the first time. No wonder they hate my guts now. Not for sure but I feel like they should.
              Not only am I learning how to respect another person but I am also learning and seeing God's Hands in all of this situation. There are a few little situations that goes together in one huge one. I feel like God is showing me little things one by one to show me that He has been and will keep protecting me until and if ever the day/time is right. I see people act like each other and in ways I never thought possible before. I see myself wanting to help other people because I have been through "similar" situations and I use the word "similar" very lightly. I am finally seeing myself connecting to people in ways that I never thought possible. It might be strange at first and for those other people especially but they would just have to get to know me and what I have been through. I have a story too. It might not be the same but I can say it might be similar to theirs.
                To be honest, maybe the other person has more things to work on in their life before anything else happens, before they move on. Maybe they want to finish a goal or dream they had?     Maybe they aren't for sure what they want yet?  Maybe they just aren't ready for that kind of commitment yet because they like being wild and free? I need to understand and respect that in all ways, not just one or two ways. I sound like a really old lady writing this but the truth is I am only 30 years old and God has chosen this year in my life to show me what it means to have a real and deep relationship with Him. I know when this all is over that God is going to win out in the end whether with the people I know now or with better ones along the way. God is growing me into the women He wants me to be and that I need to be for my future husband or to be on my own. Either way.
               One thing is for sure though too: It is that I will never forget the people that have made such a difference in my life even if they had to do it, what I thought was the hard way at first, but then realized it wasn't. These thoughts are what goes through my mind on the weekends when I am alone. I need a life. I know. Yet am I really alone or are the weekends God's time to speak to me in this moment of my life?

Do You See This Women?

Luke 7:36-48

"37 A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. 38 As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them."

"39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.................”

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"44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little................”

"50 Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”

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             This story in the Bible didn't really hit me til now. That one question, Jesus asked, "Do you see that women?" I could have used long ago. Back in high school, when I felt so invisible to everyone. Every time that I lost someone that I've loved, which have been 5 times. When I moved to a new state and didn't know anyone. When I was fighting with my anxiety and trying to find answers for that. When I kept losing one job after the other. So mainly in my teenage years and my 20s. 

             When I thought I needed to find a guy before I graduated college. Yet, God chose to show me it when I started in my 30s and in the middle of a hard situation. When I chose to let go of something I have cared about for years. A situation that I was using for my whole life and focused on. I was trying to be the person/women the world wanted me to be for a particular reason and not what God wanted me to be. There was 3 things that the women did for Jesus and we should do to this day. Yet all those 3 things showed "Love".                How do those 3 things show Love? You might ask. Here is how:

-Wetting Jesus' feet with her tears showed Jesus that she was trying to forgive Him in a way. Trying to say she was sorry for all the bad that she has done.

-Kissing Jesus' feet showed a sign of respect she had towards Him and it was also a sign of affection in a way. 

-Anointing of the perfume on Jesus' feet was a sign that she wanted to start over anew and fresh with Him as her Savior.

I am putting this is bold and italics letters because I want it to be seen. Those three things are just my way of explaining things that happened in the story. The way I see them. I got those meanings from nowhere special. They might be right or totally wrong but that is how I like to look at them. 

            I am in a situation or a couple of situations right now that I need to remind myself of the answer to that hard question. The question: Do you see that women? I need to remind myself that I am Loved by the One that is the best for me to be loved by. If that makes any sense at all. I feel like I have to pick between some things right now and it is hard to do but I know the kind of women I am and I know what I want right now or from now on at the age of 30. It is like God is putting me on this crazy and undefined Quest just to find out who I really am and what I can take. Who really can see the women that I really am? It will be a struggle I know because I don't open up on the first go around to anyone. 

            I prayed a lot of prayers in the past few months about what it is that I want and what it is that I need help with. Things just seems to get more confusing and hard for me. I have also felt like asking that question to a lot of people, whether it will be co-workers, friends, my church, or my guyfriends. I just want to ask them: Do you see the women I truly am? Do YOU SEE ME for me? Not how your family sees me. Not how other people see me. Not how you saw me in high school or in college. But how you see me now. Sometimes I just feel like adding "Just give me a chance" to that question. 

           I want to be able to do those three things and be okay with doing them without any credit back. I want people to see that I am a forgiving, respecting, start over kind of women. Does that make sense? I feel like I support a lot of people that don't support me back. I feel like I help a lot and get things done but yet I get no thanks for it. It would just be nice if people saw me the way Jesus does and then they would know the true me and life wouldn't be so hard. I wouldn't be in most of the situations that I am right now. 

           I know that those things aren't that important but it would be nice to know once in awhile that what I am doing has changed a life or made some one's day in some way. I'm not asking for a big show but for a little piece of encouragement to keep me going. I pour my heart out to some people yet I get nothing in return at times. I know that I mean something in God's Eyes because I do those things. I know my sins are forgiven because I treat others with Love without asking for anything back in return at those times but it wears a women down when she keeps doing it and gets nothing in return. 

           I know that this story is my prayer right now for myself in this moment of my life. I want people to see me as Jesus sees me for the women that I really am in Him and for Him. I don't want anyone else's advice or concern. I don't want people to say "well, my family doesn't like her so that means I don't like her." All I have to say is this: "Give me a chance like God did on me in a way." God saw how messed up and broken I was in the times that I have mentioned and more but yet He still Loved me for me and He gave me a million chances and still have a million more because I know I am not prefect at all. I know too that I have to ask myself that question everyday to get the answer especially if it is a bad day. 

             I want every women that reads this to try and make it a habit with me to ask the question below in some manner throughout her day and just remember: "GOD DOES SEE YOU IN ALL OF YOUR MESS AND HE LOVES YOU MORE THEN ANYONE EVER CAN."

Do you see me for the women of God that I truly am or are you letting the world get in the way of that? 

            

            

Trust the Process

            I had another thing and writing theme when I picked this title a few days ago but now I think this theme that I am going to write about fits the title more. I have been thinking a lot this week about situations I have been in and yet to be in and it is hard and will continue to be hard in the long run until I get where I belong. The thing(s) that are hard for me will just get harder. I just need to get stronger and trust the process that God is putting me through to get there. God is working everyday in my life right now and I see it and it is hard. I have looked past this school year (Aug.-May) and God has really been working it that year.
             God has given me something to care about when I have wanted to give up so badly because I wasn't getting a response back. God has given me more and more to care about when I thought I had enough on my plate. I never seem to be able to get away from certain things, which is okay but there is also a limit at times. A limit, which I am trying to stick to and kind possibly this time. It is a way that I can pray for the people closest to me and the people closest to them too. It seems like every time that I gave tried to give up on a certain thing God has given me a reason not to just yet. It has seemed that way since the start.
              It all started in August when meeting new people where I was working and the that turned over to going to a new church with people that I had already met and the new ones that I just met. There was a few months in there that were hard because of things going on at work. I felt like I had to be on my toes every day. Then I got moved back to the place that I started on last year and loved oh so much! January I started a new job and was going to really miss my old one. Still do sometimes but I know that it is getting better where I am or at least trying to make it that one. March is another month that was hard for me to get through and I am still working on what happened then.
              Yet after everything that has happened in the past school year, God has been in it and I am going to keep trusting the process whether people believe I should or not. It is a process that I truly believe and a special one where I honestly think God has me for a purpose after everything that has happened. Yeah, things might not be working out for me like I would like them to right now but knowing what I do now because of what happened in the past makes total sense. God has me where He does now to see things from a different point of view then I would ever thought of. He has me where I am now to learn more things about certain people and lifestyles.
              Yes, I am one of those people that grew up in a Christian home and I am thankful for that but there are people that didn't. There are people that literally don't go to church because they don't want to. I say that because I use to think that the reason they didn't go was because they were too busy with what they were doing and/or their jobs on the weekends but that is not always the case. God has opened up my eyes more in the situations that I am in now and I can't wait to see what He does with and how He finishes this process in my life. It might end up like I want it to or God might have a bigger plan for me. I don't know yet I just know that I own it all to Him and the people around me that I got stronger because of them.
               I have been so blinded these past few years even in the Christian faith and I have missed so many chances because I was so concerned for one friend but now that that is kind of worked out or out of my vision or not much of it anyways, I can see other things and people for who they are. I can see why they are not at church. I can see why they do what they do. I can see that they might need help. Just because everyone goes to a Christian college or church doesn't mean they are a strong believer or even has a one on one relationship with Jesus Christ. We talked about that today in church and about how strong our Faith should be if we really have that relationship with Him.
               I have even thought about my relationship with God and other people's too. I have asked the question before, "Why have people been waiting to come to Christ for so long?" "Why do they do it at such an older age then I did my first time?" Now I get it. I have a friend that I thought was newer in his relationship with Christ then I was but honestly I was wrong. I am newer in that kind of relationship then my friend is. Not saying that my first time didn't mean anything, it did but it was in a time where people just didn't see that purpose of that one on one with Christ but it all makes sense now. My first time is where I understood that Jesus died on the cross for me and I knew that it was special in some sort of way and that I should follow Him and that He wanted me to but I think that is all the level it got to. It didn't get to the deeper part of it.
                I wanted to think the best of people and I usually do and that is what people love about me most of the time. Again that is hard and wrong if you are in a process of believing what God has for you in the long run. If you are in the process of trusting God, then you have to see all kinds of people not just good, church going people. You have to trust the process that God has you on and I mean it when I say that this school year as been a hard process for me to think of but then again why should we. I haven't stayed in the same place at all this year. The job that I have now is the longest I have stayed in one place this school year. That is only 5 months. The other places have changed so much. God doesn't want us to get the process right away. What fun would that be?
               I will say that yesterday night was the first night that I didn't go to my old church since I have been going to this new one and that was a process in itself to get that way. I missed it but I know I am where I need to be right now and I think I know that because of what I have been learning about and thinking about this past week. There are just certain places God puts you during your trusting process to make a difference in someone else's life so you can see Him at work and trust Him even more.



One more thing: "You can't push the process on anyone else. Only God can do that."

Wandering Through Life

            It has been 2 months, going into my 3rd one. I just noticed that I have sort of been wandering through life for the last few years. I have been noticing the wandering in my Bible study that I have been taking and loving it. It was the focus for this week and it just made me think about things more. All of the study this week has been about wandering and working towards our "True Home". It has been reminding me that I was made to be misplaced here on the earth. I was made to have all of these confusing feelings and been misunderstood and not understanding other things that I want to so badly. I have been learning about the differences between a wandering path and a pilgrimage. I would also use the word "meander". Here are the differences:

Wander: "to move about without a fixed course, aim, or goal.

Meander: "to go about from place to place usually without a plan or definite purpose."

Pilgrimage: "a journey, especially a long one, made to some sacred place as an act of religious 
devotion."

         When it says an act of religious devotion, for me it is meaning following God to where He wants me to be in life. 

          On this earth, we are taking a pilgrimage for God. Most of you that know me would guess that I know where I am going and what I would like to be doing. I know that I tend to come across that way most of the time but the truth is, especially now I have no idea where I am going or what I am suppose to be doing. Things have changed for me big time over the past few months. I thought I was on track but then situations changed and I am totally lost and confused. I saw when I was studying this part of the Bible study that I could and have let people control different parts of my life whether it would be jobs, relationships, career, friends, places I go and so on. 
           I love 1 Peter 2:11 in the Bible where it says that we are foreigners and exiles but yet we are to try to stay away from the sin of the world we live in, even though they wage war against us. There is another verse from the Bible that says "Blessed are those whose strength is in You (God), whose hearts are set on pilgrimage". That is just a reminder to us, followers, that God is going to bless us in the end as long as we follow Him to the end. We have a lot better end for most people if we stop and think about it. We just have to get through this hard spot first. 
            If I was honest and I will be here. I never felt like I really fit in anywhere. I mean my family moved around a lot yet I grew up in one school where most of my siblings didn't. I think that I was the only one out of 6 that did finish most of my school years where I graduated high school from. Now you may think that is great and all but it wasn't for me. Why? You might ask. The answer is: Because I never really felt like I fit in there. I always felt like I was missing the bigger picture or the world that was out there for me to go explore. I always wanted something more and I remember feeling that in my heart. To this day, I still want more even though I got to travel to different places and live in different states. I thought that was the reason I was feeling what I was feeling in high school because I never left the state but I was wrong. There is this saying in the same Bible study by Beth Moore that says: "She's headed to be at home where she's never been and one where she'll finally belong." 
            Here is the part before that sentence: "No one on the planet is at greater rick of experiencing peace and joy than a believer who views the would as a foreign country she serves with love and great purpose, while on her way to some place perfect."
         I would love to have that saying engraved on my tombstone and have people know and remember me by that quote. There was so much more now that I look back at that moment in my life. If you know me, you know that I dream big and also have high standards for certain things and people might be scared by those things. It is not because I want someone like my future husband to reach those standards. It is because I am just not meant to live in this world. I was and am meant for so much more. I like it when Beth Moore, in the Bible study said this: "What if we discovered that, instead of lowering our expectations, we are meant to set them vastly higher? What if it turned out that our hopes are not too high after all; they are just set to expire too soon? What if we aren't wrong at all to believe in happily ever after-It's just that we keep forgetting that our happily ever after is promised after?"
          Now when I first read that and didn't think about the end of it, I was thinking a lot about my life and the people that are in it or that were in it. I was thinking about my hopes of getting married, a good job, my own house, and so on. I was thinking about situations that I felt like expired too soon for me. Something I said that I should have waited to say just a little bit longer. I was also thinking about prayer requests that I have gotten in the past and how people are setting and hoping too high for those things. I have even set my expectations low at times because I just wanted to give up on certain things but yet I would remember something great and get back up and give it a go again. But then I read the last sentence and it is true, God never promised us a happily ever after here on earth but He did promised it after wards. 
             I will leave this entry with this saying too because I think it is a pretty good saying that just needs to be said. It is another one that has touched me in a lot of ways just this week. It is: "In the church of Jesus Christ, pieces fit because they're in the same hands." I will say that that saying was at the start of the lesson where I got all this other information from so think about it and see how it fits in with this entry. There is a way that it fits into everything.