Trust the Process

            I had another thing and writing theme when I picked this title a few days ago but now I think this theme that I am going to write about fits the title more. I have been thinking a lot this week about situations I have been in and yet to be in and it is hard and will continue to be hard in the long run until I get where I belong. The thing(s) that are hard for me will just get harder. I just need to get stronger and trust the process that God is putting me through to get there. God is working everyday in my life right now and I see it and it is hard. I have looked past this school year (Aug.-May) and God has really been working it that year.
             God has given me something to care about when I have wanted to give up so badly because I wasn't getting a response back. God has given me more and more to care about when I thought I had enough on my plate. I never seem to be able to get away from certain things, which is okay but there is also a limit at times. A limit, which I am trying to stick to and kind possibly this time. It is a way that I can pray for the people closest to me and the people closest to them too. It seems like every time that I gave tried to give up on a certain thing God has given me a reason not to just yet. It has seemed that way since the start.
              It all started in August when meeting new people where I was working and the that turned over to going to a new church with people that I had already met and the new ones that I just met. There was a few months in there that were hard because of things going on at work. I felt like I had to be on my toes every day. Then I got moved back to the place that I started on last year and loved oh so much! January I started a new job and was going to really miss my old one. Still do sometimes but I know that it is getting better where I am or at least trying to make it that one. March is another month that was hard for me to get through and I am still working on what happened then.
              Yet after everything that has happened in the past school year, God has been in it and I am going to keep trusting the process whether people believe I should or not. It is a process that I truly believe and a special one where I honestly think God has me for a purpose after everything that has happened. Yeah, things might not be working out for me like I would like them to right now but knowing what I do now because of what happened in the past makes total sense. God has me where He does now to see things from a different point of view then I would ever thought of. He has me where I am now to learn more things about certain people and lifestyles.
              Yes, I am one of those people that grew up in a Christian home and I am thankful for that but there are people that didn't. There are people that literally don't go to church because they don't want to. I say that because I use to think that the reason they didn't go was because they were too busy with what they were doing and/or their jobs on the weekends but that is not always the case. God has opened up my eyes more in the situations that I am in now and I can't wait to see what He does with and how He finishes this process in my life. It might end up like I want it to or God might have a bigger plan for me. I don't know yet I just know that I own it all to Him and the people around me that I got stronger because of them.
               I have been so blinded these past few years even in the Christian faith and I have missed so many chances because I was so concerned for one friend but now that that is kind of worked out or out of my vision or not much of it anyways, I can see other things and people for who they are. I can see why they are not at church. I can see why they do what they do. I can see that they might need help. Just because everyone goes to a Christian college or church doesn't mean they are a strong believer or even has a one on one relationship with Jesus Christ. We talked about that today in church and about how strong our Faith should be if we really have that relationship with Him.
               I have even thought about my relationship with God and other people's too. I have asked the question before, "Why have people been waiting to come to Christ for so long?" "Why do they do it at such an older age then I did my first time?" Now I get it. I have a friend that I thought was newer in his relationship with Christ then I was but honestly I was wrong. I am newer in that kind of relationship then my friend is. Not saying that my first time didn't mean anything, it did but it was in a time where people just didn't see that purpose of that one on one with Christ but it all makes sense now. My first time is where I understood that Jesus died on the cross for me and I knew that it was special in some sort of way and that I should follow Him and that He wanted me to but I think that is all the level it got to. It didn't get to the deeper part of it.
                I wanted to think the best of people and I usually do and that is what people love about me most of the time. Again that is hard and wrong if you are in a process of believing what God has for you in the long run. If you are in the process of trusting God, then you have to see all kinds of people not just good, church going people. You have to trust the process that God has you on and I mean it when I say that this school year as been a hard process for me to think of but then again why should we. I haven't stayed in the same place at all this year. The job that I have now is the longest I have stayed in one place this school year. That is only 5 months. The other places have changed so much. God doesn't want us to get the process right away. What fun would that be?
               I will say that yesterday night was the first night that I didn't go to my old church since I have been going to this new one and that was a process in itself to get that way. I missed it but I know I am where I need to be right now and I think I know that because of what I have been learning about and thinking about this past week. There are just certain places God puts you during your trusting process to make a difference in someone else's life so you can see Him at work and trust Him even more.



One more thing: "You can't push the process on anyone else. Only God can do that."