Wander: "to move about without a fixed course, aim, or goal.
Meander: "to go about from place to place usually without a plan or definite purpose."
Pilgrimage: "a journey, especially a long one, made to some sacred place as an act of religious
devotion."
When it says an act of religious devotion, for me it is meaning following God to where He wants me to be in life.
On this earth, we are taking a pilgrimage for God. Most of you that know me would guess that I know where I am going and what I would like to be doing. I know that I tend to come across that way most of the time but the truth is, especially now I have no idea where I am going or what I am suppose to be doing. Things have changed for me big time over the past few months. I thought I was on track but then situations changed and I am totally lost and confused. I saw when I was studying this part of the Bible study that I could and have let people control different parts of my life whether it would be jobs, relationships, career, friends, places I go and so on.
I love 1 Peter 2:11 in the Bible where it says that we are foreigners and exiles but yet we are to try to stay away from the sin of the world we live in, even though they wage war against us. There is another verse from the Bible that says "Blessed are those whose strength is in You (God), whose hearts are set on pilgrimage". That is just a reminder to us, followers, that God is going to bless us in the end as long as we follow Him to the end. We have a lot better end for most people if we stop and think about it. We just have to get through this hard spot first.
If I was honest and I will be here. I never felt like I really fit in anywhere. I mean my family moved around a lot yet I grew up in one school where most of my siblings didn't. I think that I was the only one out of 6 that did finish most of my school years where I graduated high school from. Now you may think that is great and all but it wasn't for me. Why? You might ask. The answer is: Because I never really felt like I fit in there. I always felt like I was missing the bigger picture or the world that was out there for me to go explore. I always wanted something more and I remember feeling that in my heart. To this day, I still want more even though I got to travel to different places and live in different states. I thought that was the reason I was feeling what I was feeling in high school because I never left the state but I was wrong. There is this saying in the same Bible study by Beth Moore that says: "She's headed to be at home where she's never been and one where she'll finally belong."
Here is the part before that sentence: "No one on the planet is at greater rick of experiencing peace and joy than a believer who views the would as a foreign country she serves with love and great purpose, while on her way to some place perfect."
I would love to have that saying engraved on my tombstone and have people know and remember me by that quote. There was so much more now that I look back at that moment in my life. If you know me, you know that I dream big and also have high standards for certain things and people might be scared by those things. It is not because I want someone like my future husband to reach those standards. It is because I am just not meant to live in this world. I was and am meant for so much more. I like it when Beth Moore, in the Bible study said this: "What if we discovered that, instead of lowering our expectations, we are meant to set them vastly higher? What if it turned out that our hopes are not too high after all; they are just set to expire too soon? What if we aren't wrong at all to believe in happily ever after-It's just that we keep forgetting that our happily ever after is promised after?"
Now when I first read that and didn't think about the end of it, I was thinking a lot about my life and the people that are in it or that were in it. I was thinking about my hopes of getting married, a good job, my own house, and so on. I was thinking about situations that I felt like expired too soon for me. Something I said that I should have waited to say just a little bit longer. I was also thinking about prayer requests that I have gotten in the past and how people are setting and hoping too high for those things. I have even set my expectations low at times because I just wanted to give up on certain things but yet I would remember something great and get back up and give it a go again. But then I read the last sentence and it is true, God never promised us a happily ever after here on earth but He did promised it after wards.
I will leave this entry with this saying too because I think it is a pretty good saying that just needs to be said. It is another one that has touched me in a lot of ways just this week. It is: "In the church of Jesus Christ, pieces fit because they're in the same hands." I will say that that saying was at the start of the lesson where I got all this other information from so think about it and see how it fits in with this entry. There is a way that it fits into everything.
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