Serving While Single in the Church

           My grandma did a lot of the same things that I am doing with my church with my church too, even when married to grandpa. Mom did too when we were little. Yet dad was in it here and there. Off and on.
          God, are you keeping me single a little longer so I know what serving You is really like while preparing me for life and marriage? It's sort of like the missions prat of my life but it is in a church in the state of AR. Do you have things I need to make off before I get married? It's funny because looking at me married friends I noticed something the same when/before they got married. They were very active in the church they were going to and there were pretty small churches too. Not saying I'll met my future husband at my church, although I could at a church, like they did.
          Is it different in this generation then my parents' or grandparents' generations? Is that why people are getting older before they get married? I mean I am doing all the ministries while single and yeah, it is strange at times. Yet I don't dwell on it or let it bother me as much as I have in the past. Funny how at a bigger church I dwelled on being single a lot more and it was bad. There were times that I would cry at church because I was sitting all alone or I felt like I needed someone special in my life because my main friends had that special someone. At a smaller church church, I notice it but not as bad and I can just jump into things and different ministries like I have. I see has a good thing in a smaller church.
          At the smaller church, when you sit by yourself, it isn't as bad because you all are so close together anyways. Yet at a big church you have this big area and long rows but yet the two sits beside you are empty because you don't know anyone and people don't want to get to know people. It also helps that you know who to talk to about the different areas of the church. At a small church, it is easy to find that person because one person can be in charge of a lot of the same things. At a larger church, you have to know exactly what you want and then ask for that exact person. I mean it could be missions but then you have to think where you want to do missions. Do you want to do it in state or in other country?
          Plus a friend sent me a little meme that said this: "The best thing a single person can have is purpose." It is also a radio talk show with Focus on the Family but there is also the script that they used for the show so I am printing that out to read it. I do agree with that saying though and it is a simple way of putting what most singles feel. I know at times when I see my married friends and other older married couples or even my parents or grandparents, I found myself hoping for a relationship like theirs and that I was even a little bit, I guess you could say, jealous of them, if there is such a thing. It was a deep desire in my heart because I use to believe that I don't have purpose if I don't have other people to take care for.
            I am learning that I do have a purpose and that I can do more things that I love and however I want to do them without having someone to take "care" of all the time. Yeah, it would still be fun and special for me to have people to care for, especially "my" people but for now I am okay with the kids I teach at my job and the people I am around at my church. My purpose in life right now is this: "To care for the children that I have in my care at my job and to serve the Lord as many ways as I can through my church because who knows I might not have time when I have my own children and husband to take care of. My focus will be on them and not all these other things like it is right now.
            I also think I am going to get a new book called, "Kingdom Single" by Tony Evans. I hope it is a good one! I'll write an entry on here when I get it and read it and let whoever reads this know what it is like.